Agent Orange

Blessings Everyone,
This is my first official Herb Review. Last night I partookof some Agent Orange and I thought it would be cool to share my thoughts andinsights that arose from that experience.
So here it is.

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Genetics: OrangeVelvet and Jack the Ripper
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Smell: It livesup to its name. I got a pre-rolled, and as soon as I open the lid I was blessedby the most delicious orange smelling herb I have come across to date. While mynose is not very sensitive, even I was able to distinguish the distinct citrussmell.
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Taste: To betruthful , I could not taste the orange when I smoked it. But that has more todo with my undeveloped palate than any issue with the herb. When I took alittle piece of the bud and chewed on it though, I was able to taste the lovelyorange flavor.
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Harshness: 3 outof 10; 10 is what I consider smoking pissed on hay wrapped in cardboard wouldbe like.
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Come on: Between 10:08– 10:10, I smoked a small bowl full. By 10:11 I started to feel the effects ofthe herb. Energetically I felt pressure/heaviness above left eye.
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Initial Thoughts:So far good.
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I feel a pressure predominately on the left side of thehead.
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As I type these words with my eyes closed I can see thekeyboard in my mind's eye.
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Now the pressure has moved above my right eye.
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Strength: 4-5;ten being the strongest
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Clarity: 3-4; tenbeing perfectly clear
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It seems like a falling in herb.
First the pressure –
the buildup,
then,
like a swimmer waiting for the gun shot
I was in the water –
what a rush.
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Who are you Agent Orange?
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I am a living Herb,
and these words you speak are inspired through me.
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This vessel –
your body/brain,
is a voice of mine/d:
listen to what's said.
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Hear My Call.
I am the Mother calling you Home.
and this ladder letter (H)is what brings you there:
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"What do you want?" Mr. Orange asks.
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I want a Home.
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"And what is a home?"
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I really don't know –
I've never had one.
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Shipped from one institution to another,
abandoned by one family after another²
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I have no idea what a family/home is?
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"Nice Freudian Slip," Agent Orange said,
"you slipped family in there nicely."
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"So then,
what is family?
what is home?" the Agent asked.
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I know they are one and the same.
For family is what makes a home.
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I know that when the family is broken,
the home is broken.
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And that sucks.
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Like a virus,
too many holes/broken homes in/on the fabric of society invitessickness
and with sickness comes weakness and death.
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We are dying.
Not only in body,
polluting the rivers
staining
burning
destroying the forests,
but inside.
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Like a healthy athlete that dies from a heart attack.
We believe ourselves to be at the top of our game,
so full of ourselves ,
yet we fail to see the hole that we are falling through.
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Falling,
we teeter on the thin ledge we have fallen onto.
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Do you let go or fight to survive?
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It all depends on the Self.
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What is the Self?
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The self is a corporation of an unknown number ofmini-selves/cells
vying for power and control over this body/mind.
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Fighting
binding
uniting,
somehow all the energies this body comprises of
has come together,
and incorporated an ego to speak for them collectively,
at least,
that's the idea.
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What's id got to do with it?
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To fully experience my poems, I highly suggest you consumesome herb, consume the words within each stanza and meditate on them. Don'tjust read them out loud, blazing through them like you would a comic strip.Actually sit with them. Meditate on what they are pointing to, saturate yourbeing and be filled: B Full-Filled.
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So tonight's meditation is about defining family and home. Icame into this session wanting to connect with Agent Orange, and this is whereI am: I am Home with my Family.
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I sit in the living room while everyone sleeps and take up mySacred Pipe: Mother Bowl and Father Stem. Uniting them 2gether, we R 1.
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Thank You.
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I offer you this Sacred Herb
that your energy might be infused within it,
that as I take in this Herb your essence saturates my being
and as I exhale
my hopes and prayers you will receive.
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Thank You
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Seek the Inner Voice,
the Voice of the Inner Guru,
the Higher-Self,
True-Self,
Atman,
Purusha,
Christos speaking from within.
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That is the voice we seek to listen to,
to raise our vibrations
and manifest our dreams.
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For simplicities sake,
I will just assume that your definitions of the words I userelate in a close-enough way so that what I say will bring you to the place Iwish to share with you. A beautiful place filled with joyfulness, abundance,clarity, truth, honesty, openness, peace, harmony, connection, growth,abundance, happiness, pleasure, wisdom, freedom, bliss, and so much more.
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I wish that everyone is happy, blissful, healthy,prosperous, and blessed by all the blessings in life. For this is what I seek,
and being that we are all 1,
that just makes sense to me.
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For those who have read this far,
I am guessing you get what I am trying to say.
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If that is true,
you should check out my book, <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Herb Poems: Confessions from a Closet Smoker</i>.
In that book I sharesome of the many gifts Herb has blessed me with.
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What is family?
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I never had one,
just passed from one orphanage and foster home to another,
then adopted for a time
before being rejected.
Then reaching out to my real family,
uncomfortable,
I ran away.
Then reached out again
and was rejected.
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Traveling
lost
ungrounded (you can learn all about that in my book, <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">A Different Road: From Bum to Mystic</i>.
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Then a Vision lead me to a family of my own.
The first family,
a disaster leading to one of the hardest things I have everdone:
abandoning a child to protect my family.
A decision that I pray no one ever has to make.
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And now I am here
with two older children above eighteen
and two younger children below eight.
Married to my love that Blesses me in more ways than I know
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People are still looking up,
waiting
hoping
praying for his return,
when instead they should be looking within,
only then can they find the Self –
the I within the Eye.
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That Y,
there is a reason why it sounds like "I"
for it is pretty much the same sound at the end of a word
and in the beginning it mostly sounds like yoU.
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Isn't that kinda cool,
for those two forks in the road,
that's as dichotomous as U and I can B.
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The mind is an amazing place to get lost in,
and when you are high –
all up in there –
well,
getting lost takes on a whole new meaning.
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So what is home?
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Home is the place where all is balanced.
The personal and the transpersonal
the person and other,
be it immanence or transcendence:
it's all 1
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Just so that you know
I smoke herb.
I get as high as the mINd can be
and then touch in with that space.
I open this place –
this MinD,
and allow what comes –
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My hope in writing is to capture some of that energy andshare it with you.
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Home is safe.
It's a place many go to let go
and be themselves,
of course,
it is also a place we go to lose ourselves –
a stupid spiritual oxymoronic cliché.
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To me,
it is a place I want to be,
a place I wish to abide within,
to live and experience therein.
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I don't want to go out and have to slave away for food andshelter,
to transverse the dangers within the concrete jungle just tosurvive.
I want to grow my own food,
get energy from the elements,
live in harmony and accord with the environment
and all those that live within it.
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Home is a place free of worry and lack,
for it is a place filled with abundance
joy
laughter
expression
openness
and so much more.
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Home is that place where no-thing is hide,
where love
compassion
and kindness reside.
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Home is where Self and Other
come 2-gether,
and to enjoy one-another.
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It is the place where we can lose ourselves and gain it ALL.
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Some say home is where the heart is;
others,
wherever the mind B.
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I say,
where both of them abide,
that's where home is.
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No need to click your heals three times,
just kick them off at the door and come inside.
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So home is not so much a place
time
or space,
it's just what it is: hOMe.
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Vibrate that word,
let the H,
like a ladder,
bring you to the present moment,
and then let gO of Me
and just B.
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When we start OMing with the O sound, the energy originatesfrom above.
When we start with the H sound, the energy originates frombelow.
The M sound spreads the energy around.
The silent NG sound brings things to a close:
sending the vibration forever beyond where the mind can go.