adderall for school!?

If any of you follow my threads or post well than you would know i use adderall maybe 1-2 times a week and make constant post on these fourms and others. well my story started off with me taking 7addies out of my brothers prescribtion 20mg..poped them all since i like the feeling of the buzz, 140mg in total before school, i always binge on addies at night but i was too tired that night and had to wait till morning.

so morning comes i pop and off to school, got me good at about 720 and i poped them at about 610-15..while i was at the table i sit at before 1st period my mom called me on my cell and asked why there were only 30/23 when she got a new bottle, now i don't know if i should lie and say i was selling them to someone i owed money or too say that they honesty helped me a lot in school and did A LOT better then i normaly do, i still have a few hours before she comes home..

well 1st per. started and we had snaap or somthing to talk about depression and suicide..i listened with my eyes wide open and followed everything he said and also related to others i know..and took a quiz that said i had a moderate amount of stress aww..well he left and 2nd period started and it was a double period meaning 1-2periods of the same class were together and we had a quiz when the snaap presentation was over.i yelled at the kids infront of me to pass the quiz back and shit and they all knew i was acting odd because im a known/open stonner and usally im asleep or not paying attention at all no matter what is going on..i took the quiz with so much concentration and covidence, still am confident..

when i finished the quiz i was hoping that we had to write notes after since i enjoyed writting so much,that when walking to other classes through out the day all was on my mind was writting.then the teacher handed a old quiz back and i got a 70 which is awesome, i fail most of the quizes that i take in science, and the three questions that i got wrong i wrote next to the question everything she explained of how the answer is the right answer..and yes we did notes! and i wrote down everything exactly how it was wrote without abrevating..i was done with all the notes before almost everyone, i didn't take that much notice of who was still writting, but when the teacher asked if everyone was done a few times many people answered no.. and still managed to draw a little chicken during the notes because drawing on adderall is really fun even if your terrible at drawing like me and finished the notes with plently of time to ask everyone in the room if they had gum (was expecting my teeth to grind against eachother)..

during the notes my teacher was constantly looking at me because i was doing so wonderful, and i usally fall alseep,like the day before i kept falling alseep no matter how i sat, even when she made me stand for sleeping i still managed to fall asleep while standing which was horrible and i couldn't learn anything that day,i finished all my homework from science in the next class english, then i started old work to make up when nothing was going on,even when other stuff was i could multi-task and still understand both things i was doing.everybody asked me why i was writting so much and finishing all my work even when we were not doing anything at all i kept finding somthing to do in my backpack with a mess of papers..i only told people that i was on adderall that i knew wouldn't have a problem or not even care that much..

i did all my homework that i was supose to do(i never ever do my homework) and many people were shocked including the teachers..i finished a DBQ and the packet that was due a long time ago, made up spanish work and other classes that allow you to hand in late work..one bad thing was everybody was making fun of me, my friends at lunch threw food and stuff at me for doing work and really didn't pay attention at all to any accept the ones that aggred to leave me alone, it got to the point were they were determined to bother me..

i asked if my eyes had a little blood in them and they said no there clear like i never started smoking,they kept doing this thing were u take ur knuckle and punch somone (me) in the arm and it sent a rush thruout my body that was enjoyable....this one kid ripped my paper that was almost perfect and so on target about the article we had to read and answer questions.but i didn't get mad at all and was very confused about why they had such a problem, besides the fact that i diped a french fri into bbq sauce and he ran away and i nailed his backpack haha aggressivness!?

keep in mind i always used adderall to get fucked up or as a way to waste time, yet i was and kept it under control i put a extream amount of effort into school and work while enjoying the head and body buzz..i don't know if my mom will allow me to goto the doctor if she knows that i have been abusing it, but i find it way more important to use for school if it can do that much and i know 20mg a day isn't going to do a lot, but i would stop for a week or two so that my tolerence fell down to nothing and i would keep a promise to never abuse it unless i had a essay or somthing due and needed it to stay up and finish..im just gonna stop here because im going to end up going on and on..(why does overwrite always happen to me, gawd i hate it..messes up the post and i have to copy paste in notepad just to make a post)

 

sorry if it's really bad with spelling and added letters with and no spaces, i do that often when im on adderall..the overwrite is annoying and makes it so much longer to edit so i did the best i could and lost a sentence or two..but this is the first time i experienced adderall helping me to do somthing that has a point and much advantage over staying up all night, which is probaly going to be hard tonight anyway..taking adderall and chilling listening to music is not accomplishling anything or going to get me anywhere in life, and i will deffiently give up the high to do a lot better in school, maybe with the occasinal bang of a few more..but i have a lot of control over the drug and can fight the cravings by finding somthing to do or hanging out with people.. i don't know if i honestly have ADD, but i lose attention fast and often don't look at people that much when i am being talked too, or zone out or think about other stuff a lot instead of listening to the teacher.. maybe i should go research, but i mean if i don'thave add the doctor will probaly give a low dose of around 5-10mg to help me in school? or will he even care if i complain about doing bad in school..that has to be the most obivous reason people come there though..

 

i talked to my mom today and told her well (lied) and said that i had to pay some one back and had no money and that i took one because it was obivous..she was shocked that i knew what adderall does and scared that im going to smoke crack and do xtc..but she said not to take my brothers pills anymore and that if i want to see a phyc. to find out if i can get a prescribtion i can but she has to hold onto the pills..i explained how it helped me in school also

 

yes, u don't even know what ur typing most of the time because u zone out and all ur focus is into hitting the right keys and thinking 50 thoughts at a time with the same amount of thought to each one..whats odd is i hardly feel come downs, or somtimes not at all and i do insane amounts..the worst was a 2day binge that made me act like i was crazy with all the hallucanations and voices that would call my name and i would answer back with a "yeah" then relize i was the only one home..and this went on for about a week