So recently in my psychology class we took tests to see if we had personality disorders. Turns out I am slighty schizoid, meaning I have narrow interests, don't care to have close relationships, and I tend to detach myself. It is a disorder categorized as Odd and Eccentric, along with paranoia and schizotypal, and is found in about 1% of people. After looking more into it I noticed it is evident on my dad's side of the famity. The level of focus I have noticed is hand in hand with being a schizoid is obvious on my dads side as well- I had a great grandpa who was a pro race car driver and two cousins that are pro bike riders. Don't get me wrong, I have friends- but I am certainly not the type to follow a crowd or party often. But my slight disorder is not at all negative as it is often described. Creativity comes with the disorder, and I have recently becomes very involved with my artwork; mainly abstract graffiti drawings, usually with a lot of color and odd looking characters. My narrow interests have allowed me to become very focused, I am blessed with having a great wrestling season I can only think God for. People are really starting to appreciate my artwork and I am quickly learning my work sells. I have also recently made a dramatic decision to invest my college education in graphic design and marketing so that I can someday have a t-shirt company, which i am very confident doing. The school is ranked first in the nation NAIA for wrestling. I have no interest in painting beautiul scenery or anything of that sort, but my pieces capture original images that seem acid inspired, and more than likely are. Many people who are schizoids have bad grades, but Manage to sqeeze by with just over a 3.5 gpa. Also, I have never been OCD, but I have recently had phases of praying obsessive compulsively, and I have a deep drive for self discipline. But what I really wanna get at is much crazier. My thoughts are somewhat connected to my surrounds. For example, I can be thinking about lions, then turn my head and directly look at a picture of a lion. This happens CONSTANTLY. It is very real, and has a divine quality. Yesterday at church I was thinking about how often this happened, and I tried to make it happen right then in there. Sure enough, as soon as I looked up The first thing I looked at was a short phrase on a pamphlet, and it that EXACT moment the same few words were read aloud out of the bible. This is far beyond coinsidence. Songs connect with my thoughts in very odd ways. I don't know what to make of all of it. It always happens with random words and numbers, It has even happened since I have started typing this. I know it sounds like I'm out there, but I'm really not. I see things very differently and have an extreme touch of wonder and appreciation for the Holy Spirit. I don't know if this has been reported before, but I wish I could talk to Someone who could relate to my experiences. I wrote all this because I find all these factors very eye opening. God bless.
I really love you Bizzle. Theres this thing you say, "but what I want to get at is something much crazier". I've had these hallucinate experiences lately that've completely suprised me, and they started when I quit smoking, I was sober and I started hearing this cuckoo clock, "cuckoo, cuckoo, cuckoo, cuckoo" it went of in intervals. I figured I was hallucinating - I hallucinated earlier that day, this book I have called the Bees and the Mist was shimmering, gleaming. Well this cuckoo clock started going off again and I started running around the room trying to figure out where it came from, but it seemed to be in the same place relative to me, but then I just heard it in my head, like how you think to yourself, then I just heard it once, and twice. I notice I've been using the same technique in art and music, when I can see the shapes on a page before I draw them or notes on a keyboard will become highlighted. There are a lot of characters in my head too, some of them are heroes and some of them are demons. I plan on growing up real healthy one day and becoming a fighter myself. I'm interested in my own fighting sylte uswang rang altor ad flying pugnax but that takes a lot of conditioning and control not to kill someone with.
Yeah that's definately an odd story, especially since you were sober. But I don't feel like I very well explained the phenomina I have experienced. I feel as if I have a very unique sense of timing, as if I am some sort of coinsidence magnet. I know it sounds insane, but to me, it is simply undeniable. It has gotten to the point where these events hardly phase me anymore. Things can cross my mind and someone can mention the exact same thing a second later, and I don't think much of it anymore. From my perspective I feel like I have broken some sort of unconscience barrier and my mind picks up on patterns and events before they happen, and I do this unintentioally. Also I am begining to see my surroundings in my sleep more often. I always realize when I'm doing it. It's pretty cool. I think my growing relationship with God has EVERYTHING to do with it.
Don't get too caught up with labels. Money is half the reason why they are there. Also, maybe you should read some C.G. Jung and his descriptions of 'synchronicity'. Sounds extremely relevant to what you're experiencing.
great post. i think i just came about as close as i can to proving it true. so i read the post^^, and looked up synchronicity on wiki. get this-- i havent read a book on my own in probably years, but last weekend i decided to start reading alice in wonderland, which i finished last night. so tonight i planned on starting Through the Looking Glass, and in the description for synchronicity, the one quote it uses is from Through the Looking Glass. that sent chills down my spine; this stuff is happening so constant now.
i can remember 10 dreams i had last night. i can usually remember 3 or 4 if i try, but 10 is the most i have ever remembered. also, i found that some of them very strong related to unexpected events that happened to me today. also i have seem the number 23 a rediculous amout of times today. it doesnt bother me whatsoever, but i do find it rather odd.
Damn. All I can say is I am with you 100% man, crazy. I too recently found out I was so-called 'schizoid"... but these cosmic alignments and synchronities happen at a ridiculous level for me. I mean, constantly, and almost without fail, for months now. Ever since I started aligning with mys.e.l.f. and the inner silence of the universe, and really understanding and appreciating the divinity of the world and how it works, things just work out. it's like, because i expect everything to work out, because i know that there is nothing in the universe that doesn't work out, becase that's impossible, everything is everything, then it comes true in my day to day reality. i perceive it like that. ultimate truths become obvious and manifest. I think a lot of it has to do with state of mind. Of course there is no way I can label what this state of mind is. But for me, generally, I'm not in a constantly thinking state. That isn't to say that I don't have thoughts. But generally, I don't have many conscious thoughts. I'm sort of just flowing most of the time, and when I get thoughts, they usually have some sort of meaning, if i'm in "the mode" so to say, and not trying to worry about appearing socialable or shit like that. it's like i'll look right where i need to look when i need to look and see exactly what i need to see exactly when i need to see it. and it happens often. it's awesome. its certainly not "normal", and my way of [not]thinking kind of worries those around me some times, but i consider it an experiment and an experience. i have sort of past through the phase and EXACTLY! Like, I'll do something, or be doing something, and then out of nowhere some time later something exactly relevant will pop up. I have no way of explaining this right now, it's been some time since I've been paying attention and getting all hyped about it. I've been travelling, but when I'm with my boys at home I'm always talking to them about it and pointing it out. Like you said, I think it all has to do with "aligning with the Tao so to say. positive heart good intentions and knowledge of the subtle workings of the universe, and a lot of love and good events starting aligning my way. I'll give you an example. Over Christmas break I went up the country to see family, most of whom I had never met before. This directly was at a major peak of my "metaphysical"/intuitive activity or whatever you want to call it, so to say. I was experiencing what some would call severe kundalini symptoms, insane psychic activity, and so on. whatever you want to label it, basically i was more identified with basic awareness itself than with my own physical body and ego. i felt and believed in unity, and sure enough, unifying shit was going down. (lol. i'm laughing at my posts and how ridiculous this shit sounds, but it hopefully makes sense) People will call bullshit, but psychic phenomenon has become almost norm for me now. I'll look at the back of someone's head and the second I do they look up and turn around. I'll be staring at some1 on a bench 100 yards away, and then they'll just suddenly sit up for no reason, turn around, and then look directly at me, sitting up in my apartment hardly visible (and probably thinking WHAT THE MOTHERFUCKIN WHAT THE CREEPIN FUCK??) Kind of wierd, but I would like do experimetns n shit. But anyways. Family party. Woke up in the morning, met a rasta uncle I never knew existed. Turns out he was starting an organizing for the spreading of universal consciousness, yoga, unity and all of that. I had a Dali Lama book with me, and when my dad introduced us he mentioned I'd been reading that. The first thing he asked me was "do you think of yourself as an individual"? And at the most basic level I don't, but instinctively I just went along with it and said "sure", just to see where this was going. Then he gets a peice of paper and uses S. E. L. F. as some clever acronym for the universal identity of all beings. And I just got the biggest smile on my face and went oh yea, speakin my language bro and from then on we had an awesome conversation discussing yoga and metaphysics for a good hour or so. near the beginning of the convo he says "I knew I brought these books for a reason, I didn't know why but I just had a feeling", and whips out this book "the mysteries of isis" (basically ancient egyptian metaphysics. all pointing to the same stuff i have been absorbing my"self" into for quite some time now) and some other book yoga book, not just stretching, but the lessons and philosophy and goal behind it all too. and we just talked about that shit for eternity. he turned me on to astrology, not by trying to force it on me or explain it, but just pointing out real patterns and shit in my own family. showed it to me right in front of my face. ever since then i've done quite a bit of research and experimentation with astrology and i've come across tons of very interesting and useful information and inspiration through my endeavor into the subject. speaking of jung, he was also a big proponent of astrology, and he would often use natal charts (birth charts) to help him get a different and helpful perspective on an unusually difficult patient case. "We are born at a given moment in a given place and like vintage years of wine we have the qualities of the year and of the season in which we are born. Astrology does not lay claim to anything else. - C.G.Jung" anyways, that was off topic, but you might find that useful or helpful or interesting or whatever. funny enough, all of my meandering into exploration of the metaphysical, art, poetry and out-of-the-normness is clearly indicated in my birth chart, and there really is hardly any innaccuracy in it at all anyway sorry for the long ass post, i like to run off at the fingers on subjects like this. but hey, passion is the flava of the riva of life, as i like to say at the end of my posts on internet forums on marijuana and spirituality and philosophy. (this one mainly) peace
Yes. This sounds almost exactly like me, also. I am a supposed schizoid personality type, probably allotted by my being introverted. But I am also an intuitive person, and a lot of the right answers come to me without me even really knowing how. I assume it's just in the way I store data inside my head. In any case, it is undeniable. My mother has gone through the same thing, premonitions she calls them. I don't like to refer to them that way because I think it's faulty to always believe they are true. But yeah, when someone is saying something I'll get the image inside of my head before they describe what it is all the time. Or I'll think the cell phone is going to go off, and it does. Or that I'll be let home early from work today, or anything really. It's freaky as hell. I've tried to talk to other people about this but I always get the "mm you're either crazy or just remembering something you've forgotten" which I know isn't true. I think it has something to do with our brain waves interacting with each other... or perhaps energy waves of the universe in general. I'm just not sure. Good to know there are others out there like me though! I was beginning to question... I wonder if there's a community of people like this out there somewhere?
Same here. I think we are just going through changes. Spiritually evolving. The ones who are in touch with their inner self seem to be experiencing these effects. I say: Meditate and Dream. Continue on the path and no matter how much you think you are going crazy just clear your mind and think about how awesome things will be.
Thanks for all the great posts. It's nice to know there are so many people having similar things happen To them. I really want to look more into astrology, it seems interesting
yeah man that is a lot like how I see it. I don't ever see it as psychic phenomenon, but I just think I recognize some sort of pattern in timing the universe functiona by. I guess I really don't know what to make of it, I wish I knew. Do you have any idea?
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