ok so im stoned and it feels good. ha i just realized i am doin KRS style. ok ill stop. but i was just on the phone with my magazine company i ordered shit through and this dude was the coolest bill collector i ever talked to. he was like real chipper and had a hey would you mind paying us but i dont give a shit if you dont cuz its not gonna matter if you dont kind of attitude. and so i felt like paying the guy. but dude he was a nice guy so i felt like just paying all my shit right then. i feel good about myself now. that is all as you were as you werent all i feel is these waves and the current deterant to the optical, you cant see me all cammied out like the a sniper in the USMC gonna kill you how many times do i have to tell you i done said it once all i need is a fat sack and some blunts roll it up lick the flap ill bust out the board games and beat you in mouse trap ah shit dude what the fuck was that. that was some crazy shit. ah damnit it. my girlfriend decided she wants to do shit her way. turns out i didnt have to let her go last monday. ah i dont wanna talk about that shit. its depressing, my life. i do shit for people all the time like my roomate now not paying for 2 months. fucing shit. i need to kick that kid out. if he comes back without money tonight then i will fuck his shit up. oh wait thats not good, hes actually gay. but i will still kick his ass out if he doesnt give me money. i done told him once to get the money by now so i will do it. i will toke a bowl and just lay it out. flat like a cat on the side of the road. ha i went to get my new ID cuz i just turned 21 and her in AZ they have your id to read the long ways not the short fat way. but i went to get it looking just right, right i walk to the DMV and there was a golf range called crackerjax. so im all pickin up balls and tossing them back in cuz im a nice guy like that. and all of a sudden there is this fucking dead cat laying there and most of its fur was decayed to show some of its skeleton. its head was almost all done for. and its ribs were showing thru. and then i look some more at it and there is no maggots or nothing. so i keep walking cuz i am like i want the skull. and then im like nah, they dont allow pets in the building. see i dont know why they say hemp is bad for you its perfectly fine to me. and yeah there is that whole cigarettes do more harm and shit. thats not fair that some shit that kills more people in one day, everyday than marijuana has killed in its entire existence. but no you arent allowed to bring that shit up because that is a completely different subject and some people are saying that it is a different substance you are talking about and shit fuck them man thats not how hemp was supposed to be. the US was the first country to ever make it illegal. and they blamed it on the mexicans no shit thats not cool. mexicans didnt do anything but want to be "free" spicks on the other hand are different. they are just like ******s and please dont be offended by that remark unless you are one. and i will explain the difference between a ****** and an african american. africans are people who wanted to have a better live for themselves and their family and they are law abinding for the most part with some flaws like maybe smokes weed like us all and strives to make good of himself. a ****** is some one who blatantly disobey the laws and commit heinous crimes with out just cause or with with violence and is too into personal gain than helping someone who needs something more than them. same with the latino side of the spectrum. and as with other races. i will admit that i am racist to a point. when you disrespect me on pure judgement of my character then dont expect me to respect any of your character. here is a psychological profile of a judgement and how it is directly stereotyping: so from the moment you are born you are learning. wrong you are looking at things and making a judgment based on the the images you see. of course you dont know this is happening but you are judging and you make a language out of thin air. a scream. why. well you have judged that this new thing you have discovered is breathing and because you are exercizing a new muscle and you feel like shit for a bit. and so you scream and try to get someone to help you. doctor fixes you up and you are given to your mother. and you judge that this is the first face you see and there fore it is a caring face. just like when a chick loses her virginity she is all clingy and shit. well you judge things about the reactions you make and then you are soon finding out that similar situations will produce similar results and so you keep that in the back of your brain and that is now like a processing unit. and so soon you are being exposed to more and more situations and more combinations of these events over and over and soon your learning of this will be compiled into a cache folder categorized by the actual result it brings. and so you go to school and see people for the first time and make friends but you are just all into cartoons and shit and so thats all that matters to you but you are exercising your memory with these cartoons and with this new shit that you have to remember like letters and numbers and preschool songs. but this memory now helps you pull out the onld information and shit but you cant pull out previous shit cuz its locked away and in you for good like motor functions and shit. but then you get older and are exposed to more people. well you see as soon as you are exposed to one person, the image of that person will be engrained into your memory forever and the combinations of events that occur will be stored too. and then it then gets filed into the results folders. so as more time goes by and you are exposd to only a certain element for so long then you start to adopt that thinking. like if your parents always told you that black people were always bad, or mexicans are dirty little fuckers. then you will always grow up to be afraid or hating those races. and so based on the learning you get from your environment and how much bad results come from a that element then you will decide for the rest or your life that you dont like that bad thing. and how do you know its bad, because you learned from it. so when you learn that there are a lot of a certain race that are bad, and havent heard much about those who are good, you start to envision what this bad result looks like and you make a decision in your mind that says that this is what these kind or color of people do most often and the bad things that come from them. that is a stereotype. and that is exactly what judgment is. wow that is a lot of writing. and damn its only 7. i still got time to sit here and do nothing all night. yay i would do something if there was something to do though.