Recently I have started to get intense feelings of worthlessness, not in the sense that I need to kill myself or anything but senses that I am not good at anything and already fucked up my life. I am not good at anything thats braggable (only talent ill admit is halo 3 but c'mon its a fucking videogame). I mean literally there is no skill that I am just naturally or un-naturally good at. I am out of shape and almost always back down from sticking up for myself in fear of getting beat up. I have only slept with one girl and have not had a relationship in well over a year I have no artistic skills I feel that my grades and actions in highschool have fucked me over hardcore in college Ex.) Getting bad grades and not taking advantage of college credit opportunities When i look at other people they all have something going for them and have atleast one area where they have skills and can be proud of. But me? I got nothing, I dont want to kill myself but what the point of living if i am useless. The best part of my midlife crisis? Im about 1/5 of the way through my life
If you feel that this is caused because of your continual habits then you need to stop and rethink how you want to approach your life. Change shit up, study more, try and hang out with people and build more friendships. If your not happy with the classes your taking then I would suggest trying to find something that you like. I have been going through something similar lately and am starting to study more to try and turn myself around.
If u likevideo games, go into video game design , if u like smoking grow herb and make $ off that, u like bitches go to a beauty school or appply at woman cloth stores, u get my point, find what u like, and there will b a paying job for it (legal or not) For example I luv cars, so I went into automotive technition, I was never good at school and I got shitty grades but who gives a fuk, I can work on cars and smoke weed! Stop yo bitchin and do shit u like
There was a very famous article published in the Harvard Business Review in 2007 entitled "The Making of an Expert" which you should try and get a hold of and read (I'm having a hard time finding a free copy right now). Basically, it was a scientific study looking at people who are considered "experts" in their fields, and looked at fields as diverse as pro-athletes and wine distillers. The conclusion of the study was that, overwhelmingly, people who are experts at anything (including sports) became that way simply by practicing their chosen profession over and over and over again. Basically no one was "exceptional" when they were beginning, and while many were above average, an equal number were simply, well, average. The fact of the matter is that if you're "not good at anything" it's because you haven't devoted enough time to it yet. Science bears out this conclusion, contrary to folklore that geniuses are born and not made. Find something you like and start to work at it as hard as you can. Accept that it's a long road, but you will eventually get there.
basically you haven't tried enough things. find your passion. shit if you're really that good at halo you could join tournaments. start a website about it. something. news. video. something. devote yourself to something you really believe should be expanded. such as maybe a hobby. it sounds lame but ive been / am there. I'm learning just how many hobbies there are out there ( via youtube ). I've tried some, and i last a few months. Oh well, at least it was a fun few months and I at least learned SOMETHING. also fighting is over rated and more often than not if you back-step you can see why you put yourself in fighting situations. girls will come after everything else. and school, there's no easy way about it. the shitty part is they only let you re-take classes so many times, and then its like some kind of failed life goal, but everything in school can be petitioned and appealed.