Need some recommendations...

Bit of a long story, so bear with me. I'll add a tl;dr at the bottom, though.

Anyway, first of all, I'm not a smoker. I've never smoked anything in my entire life. I've always been incredibly anti-drug. I have, however, taken Vicodin for a while. Without prescriptions, because I've never had insurance. I wouldn't buy it illegally, I would get it from my family. My mom had surgery and had some leftover, or my brother got his wisdom teeth taken out, etc.

But they make me feel gross. Codeine, Vicodin; those painkillers really don't help. Vicodin more so, but not enough.

Second, I have severe pain in my left arm, lower back, and joints. The arm is unrelated to the back and joints, its from an injury when I was a child (5 years old) and has been affecting me ever since (I'm 22 now). On top of that, I have severe social anxiety. I literally CANNOT go outside alone, unless I'm away from people. I can take the trash out or walk to the store (at night), but I can't do more than that. I can't get a job because I can't go to the interview, blahblahblah.

Now, as I said before, I've always been anti-drug, including anti-marijuana. Up until about four days ago when I really, really, REALLY started to research it. I heard some miracle stories from some friends, and I really think this is what I need.

But I'm scared. I don't really know what to do, how to go about getting it, or if the doctor will think I'm just a kid looking for a fix. Like I said, I haven't been to the doctor since I've never had health insurance. I just got insurance now, though, so I'm thinking of going in... but it's through my dad's work. My dad will literally disown me if he finds out about any of this, regardless of what it's for; regardless if it helps.

So, namely, my questions are:

1. What strain should I go for? What will help both severe pain AND severe anxiety/depression?

2. Should I just go talk to my dad's regular doctor about this or should I find another doctor? I'm going into the doctor soon this month to talk about the pain.

3. I just told my younger brother about this and he told me that he smoked before. He offered to get me some to try, and I said yes. His friend has his MMJ card and he'll get him some for me. Should I try, even if it's illegal, without the card? Either way, I'm going to do it AFTER I talk to the doctor, because I don't want to have him needing a urine sample for something and see that there's THC in it. (I'm going in for a much-needed check up and to talk about the pain).

Anyway... I'm just pretty nervous/worried/scared, and my anxiety in general really isn't helping.

Thanks a lot, guys, and I'm sorry about the length... and the rambling.

tl;dr: Best strain for severe pain/depression/anxiety, and should I talk to my dad's doctor that he'll be taking me to sometime this month about a card or should I get my own? (note, my insurance is through him. I'm pretty new to this lol)


Oh, and hello everyone.

P.S. (Don't hate on me, please. I promise I'm not judging. Honestly, I'm not even anti-marijuana anymore. After what I've read about it, I've come to conclude that it really is better than these synthetic drugs. People don't overdose or die from it).

 

I know it was long, so you probably didn't read it fully and were just skimming, but I clearly stated how I got the Vicodin. It wasn't through a prescription, it was from my family members when they got it from THEIR prescriptions. Leftover from when they were done with it. Not legal, but at least I wasn't going through a dealer or something.

And what I'm asking is, should I talk to that doctor about it? I'm not looking to go to one of the places whose main purpose is to give these cards out without even doing a check up; I want to actually talk to a doctor. I'll talk to him about the Vicodin and explore other options. I'm just worried he'll tell my dad about it or something, I guess.

And again, you're misunderstanding me. I don't want to go in, talk for 10 minutes, and leave with a recommendation. I want to suggest it to him and explore the option. I'm not looking for a high, and that's how you're treating me.

If you would've read the whole post clearly you would've known that I stated that as well. I'm only looking for something to help with all my symptoms. And, while I've never tried it, what it's supposed to do does clear up all of them. Pain, depression, anxiety, and eating problems (stomach pain in the morning, didn't list that earlier).



One more thing. What exactly do you mean by "fishy"? I'm not asking for any hookups, I'm not trying to get anyone to reveal anything. How could this be fishy in any way shape or form? Also, the "recommendation" I meant in the title was for which strain I should use. I probably should have worded that different, I just recognized it now.

 

Well, I do have medical records of when I was, I don't know... 10 or 12? But since then I haven't really gone to the doctor's, and certainly not for that. It's always been "it'll be too expensive" blahblahblah. So I've just been used to dealing with it.

But, I DID break that arm, so I have those records. There's no true records of "complications". There is an obvious twist to my bone that you can see, though. Blatantly obvious. That is what is causing me pain, so I'm sure that'll be somewhat of a helper.

Anyway, yeah, I know what you mean lol. Sorry about that. I should've made it clearer up front. I did take them illegally from a family member's prescription. I didn't steal them or anything, though. They willingly gave them to me.

Thanks for the advice and help. And for the luck. I have another question though, if you don't mind...

I should still probably wait until after the doctor's visit to try marijuana for the first time, right? My brother is going to be getting some for me, but I figured I'd probably wait until after I see the doctor. But if wouldn't really matter... should I try it first before I bring it up?