I totally get where you're coming from. Your goal is the same as mine, attaining the purest form of survival possible without the need of mass corporate bullshit products. If I had the knowledge and the resources I would try to be as self sustaining as possible, but that is not likely any time soon
. On behalf of your question, I can relate to smoking. Now I never really had a major issue to begin with but as time flew by I went from one a week to 10 a day(that phase thankfully only lasted for a few days) and was feeling completely horrified that I sought pleasure from such a destructive activity, when instead a higher level of satisfaction can easily be achieved in a much less harmful way. I could say it definitely hindered all
spiritual development just because of the nature of the drug. It really fucks with your priorities until you learn to control it. That and alcohol. As much as I love getting wasted with a group of friends you are only receiving temporary satisfaction that requires way too many 'prerequisites' in order to fully enjoy the effects of the drug. Im stickin to weed from now on. I have one last thing to say, a word of advice if it helps. Even with herb, smoking too often may lead to depersonalization basically to the point where you are never sure about anything and are too self conscious and kinda lost in your own little world. What really matters is when
you smoke rather than the quantity. Makes a hell of a difference in your quality of life. Good luck in your future goals
Edit: Woops, I forgot to tell you the personal benefits of giving up the mentioned habits:p
I feel much more satisfied with a healthy meal both physically and mentally. Idk if it's a placebo effect of 'eating healthy' but I dont see why I shouldn't feel this way. No more heartburn at night either from excessive fats
, which in turn gave me the freedom to turn down expensive as hell medication that I used to take. Paying attention to my diet is one of the best things I have done in a while.
As I said before, your priorities become extremely alienated to the point where the only thing matters is how you're getting the next smoke/drink. You waste a lot of time contemplating such matters that could've been used, as suggested in the title for spiritual enlightenment. Overall, it's simply too much of a time sink(work for money, money for cigs, time to smoke cigs, taking extra measures to cover up smell etc...)
Edited by forthelulz, 20 February 2011 - 04:00 AM.