I realize that she's such a bad person now, I am shocked that I am even sad about everything. After she told me that she only cares about herself and about her success and how she feels. We've been broken up for a month now, didn't contact her for a few weeks, then she contacted me only because she wanted sex again, then she said it was a mistake because my feelings got involved and I wouldn't leave her alone.
That's when she said all the hurtful things to me about how she wants to be left alone and enjoy the single life and not be committed to anyone. Who would want to be with a girl like that? It seems like her cowardly way out of this relationship was to fight me, treat me like crap so I would be the one to tell her to go away. So I don't know why I feel so sad. It sucks because I have no friends to hang out with, but I keep myself busy throughout the day... It's just the nights are depressing. But once I smoke a bowl I feel like I am better but this feeling is only temporary as when I get sober again I feel the emotional pain. Damn... I've been pretty much stoned all day long for the past few days already, don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing..