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Panic Attacks and Derealization A Week After My First High(s)?

Discussion in 'Apprentice Marijuana Consumption' started by Ed Mondo, May 5, 2010.

  1. #1 Ed Mondo, May 5, 2010
    Hello, everyone!

    I'm brand new here and I used to be a "guest". I figured until I'd smoked I couldn't contribute or anything so I just sat back and utilized the ocean of information available here at this site. But now, I'm just going to jump right into explaining my problem:

    About two or three weeks ago my sisters ex boyfriend gave me my first bud of what was either Trainwreck or a Trainwreck hybrid (I don't know what it was bred with). It was grown outside and wasn't laced with anything or sprayed with shitty chemicals (I know this because I saw it growing :D). So it was Saturday at about 2:00 and I go get the bud, chop some up (not well so I pretty much loaded un-grinded chunks into the cone), stuck the cone into the top of the apple and sucked away. Now, I have no tolerance at all. I have a tobacco cigarette sometimes but that's the most. Oh and I've only been really, truly shit faced once.

    The experience was AMAZING! I walked in at 2:08 and I could feel my jaw muscles being peeled back as I was forced to smile. This was the first effect. Then everything was like when you mute the television on and off really fast for a while and it was really good. Then I kept becoming detached and forgetting I'd smoked and I was wondering why Friends was so hard to focus on, but then I remembered and laughed a little. I then checked the time and it was only 2:09 which is when I really knew I was stoned. Everything took an extreme amount of time and effort to do, like for example, there was a pile of food I'd bought for this special occasion on the table, so I walked to the table very slowly and picked up the bottle of soda and walked to my room and put it on my dresser, then went back to the table for the chips and so on until it was all in my room. I even acknowledged how ridiculous it was to not get it all at once and laughed for a while, then went back to doing it.

    By this time I'm on my bed listening to the Grateful Dead. MAN, this is amazing. Everything feels good and everything is great. THIS is how God must feel, I recall thinking to myself. I writhed around on my bed in complete and pure pleasure for the rest of the trip, listening to music until I fell asleep.

    The next morning I did basically the exact same thing so I won't describe it again.

    NOW, after all of this, I woke up on Tuesday and had what I called at the times "waves" of being stoned again, which was actually spells of derealization (See:     http://forum.grasscity.com/general/260441-feeling-spaced-out-feel-like-your-dream.html) and I got a little worried, but I figured it would go away after a while. The next day I woke up and this was still happening and I got slightly more worried. Oh, I should note that I have had severe depression in the past and I am prone to anxiety attacks.

    So this goes on for a while and by the end of the week I am extremely depressed and scared out of my brains that I am one of the extreme minority to go insane because of good ol' Cannabis. I had spent a lot of time researching it and so I got extremely bummed that I could be so stupid to be made a victim (yeah it sounds dramatic, but the more honest I am the more help I can get :)).

    Then for two days after a week of being depressed and anxious I feel perfectly normal, and I feel safe in assuming that the derealization was simply a misunderstood/misinterpreted sympton of an anxiety attack gone unnoticed. Then I got a flu/stomach flu that I am only just getting over now, and I get really depressed when I get sick and that gave me an opportunity to worry a little more about what I had done and now I've been put off smoking weed because I don't want to spend another week or worse stuck in that horrible, anxious, depersonalized position.

    I know I had no tolerance, and I know there were a lot of contributing factors (beginning of a flu, presdisposition to depression and anxiety, extremely good weed) but I can't bring myself to go back to it. It completely scared me despite the fact that my actual EXPERIENCE was fantastic!

    Any help would be greatly appreciated :), thanks!

    P.S. I should make a note that I feel completely normal now, despite my lack of energy due to the flu virus I had.
     
  2. #2 Samanthamudgirl, May 6, 2010
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    THC can remain active in your system for a while after you come down especially noobs. I hear all the time on here about noobs who feel they are stoned for a couple of days after they got really high.

    I am just a noob too, but I have been reading and studying grass city for 6 months now all day and into the night, and I see this often. I don't think it was derealization, just you being high. Also, as far as I know Derealization doesn't come and go and it usually happens with Traumatic experiences. matt369 (the guy in the thread thinks it might have come about through the use of salvia, which is a halucinogen that is largely an untested drug although it has a history of use among tribal peoples etc. Marijuana is more well known and has been considered safe for thousands of years.

    And if you keep worrying about it and get high, you might have a bad experience with your anxiety talking and all, so I would quit worrying about it pronto. get yourself in a good place and try it again and don't be worrying if it has a long time to burn out, that will stop once you are more used to the high. And you said you had panic attacks in your title, but I couldn't find it in your post, did I misread somewhere?

    Sorry you felt poorly and all, but you will be fine.


    Sammy
     
  3. #3 paladin, Jan 24, 2011

    Anyone with a history of severe depression and panic attacks should avoid strong psychoactive recreational drugs. Using marijuana is not something you have to "succeed" at. And think of the money you'll save :) Good luck and good health.
     
  4. #4 Snaek, Jan 24, 2011
    Smoke or don't, you'll be fine. I know some things can be a little scary, but really it's all in your head to be nice and cliche. When I was new to smoking I found a pretty intense high could certainly leave a lingering feeling, I would shy away from any outdoor grown bud if you're easily panicked and stuff, smoke top quality if you can and that will really help with this kind of shit.
     

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