... and I am not excited. Not at all. Not even in the same way as it being just another day, I'm slightly dreading it.
There's a big perception shift when you're 20. No more 'teens. You're -really- seen as an adult, time to grow up and act like one. Maybe it's the responsibility that worries me. I have to find a job and have really never held one before. I'm going to be working full time too. I'm stuck in a filthy apartment and my roommates are stupid, plus all of our friends chill here ALL the damn time and just generally dirty the place without cleaning anything. I'm pretty fucking broke right now and it sucks when you can't leave your apartment right now because you have no gas.
I don't know. I feel like I've gone no where in these past 2 years, and turning 20 kinda wakes me up. I'm not getting any younger, for real. It's scary.
You're only 20, your still a kid. You still have a long ways to go yet though. I would consider 25 as an adult. There's a mentality change in between 18-21. Then the next one is 21-25.
Yes, the older you get the more responsibilities you inherit. That's life though man and part of becoming an adult. You have no choice.
Your getting to that stage where your starting to realize things and think differently. You think about things you've never thought of in your life. I went through it, everyone has. I've just started thinking about kids for some reason and I sure as shit wasn't thinking like this 1-2 years ago.
Don't think you've wasted the last two years. At least your realizing this at 20. Some people don't get it till 25-30 or they just don't get it at all. If your 25 sitting around just smoking weed and chilling and $20 is alot of money for you, then I would start worrying. Shit, I work fulltime, go to school full time, grow (my hobby) and I still don't think I'm doing enough. I've realized that I'll never totally be satisfied with what I do. Don't know if anyone is the same.
To sum it all up, your 20. Have fun! You're still a kid and have plenty of time to get your shit together. You have nothing to worry about. Yes, getting old is kinda scary but you get over that sooner or later. Just make sure you try your hardest and get your shit done.
Good luck with your money situation. I've had similar problems in the past. Not fun at all.
Edited by MaDKroniK, 22 January 2010 - 07:51 PM.