I had an acid trip once, that was so intense it left me completely incoherent, the visuals were so intense I was practically legally blind (no really, everything I saw was in my head), it was the most intense experience of my life. I thought that I had died during that trip (I had really fallen asleep and woken up) and that I was experiencing the afterlife. Death wasn't painfull (yeah, I didn't really die), it was an eye opening experience. I was tripping so hard I didn't know I was on acid, what day it was, what year it was, what planet it was, who I was, anything. When I died, I felt the most intense feeling in my gut, almost like a nervous feeling, but instead of it feeling bad it felt like the most loving moment I had ever experienced, like being reborn and knowing that your soul is where it belongs. I felt my soul, I knew that death was not scary once I truly understood it, my soul was parting my physical being and merging with the energy around me. I felt like I had become part of the universe, I felt closer to anything than I had ever felt before. It was beautiful and peacefull. I felt like I had finally, truly fallen alseep; my final rest.
I know that this philosophy on death may not seem valid (due to the fact that it comes solely from an acid trip), but I feel as though this is the closest I have ever come to understanding death. Sometimes when I see somebody die in a movie (the actual visual of it really helps) I feel that feeling in my stomach again, like my soul is trying to leave my body. Weird stuff, but I still don't know if this whole perspective was brought on solely by the acid, or if the drug was merely enhancing my understanding and bringing knowledge out of me that was locked up.
Maybe it's all bullshit, but I really do feel that way . . .
Edited by *ColtClassic*, 12 August 2009 - 05:16 AM.