When I first started smoking, I loved weed. It made me feel relaxed, hungry, and laughable. I hardly ever had a strong mind high, and I was perfectly content with the controllable, relaxing high that weed offered.
I started doing ecstasy, more so than weed, so I took a break from weed for a while. I decided to take a break from e, because I knew it really was neurotoxic and I didn't want to keep depleting my serotonin.
I started to smoke weed again, but I had become less tolerant to it, and I began to feel new effects that I hadn't felt before- now, when I smoked weed, things felt "dreamy" and looking around at everything and everyone I was questioning if anything was even real. I would then hear strange ringing and buzzing sounds, and it appeared that time was slowing down. I couldn't remember anything I was saying or doing, as if I had short term memory loss. Things seemed to be less real, and sights seemed to be completely new even though I had seen them many times before.
I know that this is simply the high, but it had taken a long time before I could feel all of the effects of weed. At first, I only felt body highs, and now, I feel mostly a mind high- which I don't particularly like.
I put down weed again, started popping E, and then took another break and went back to weed.
However, it had seemed that the weed has forsaken me.
Now, whenever I smoke weed, I become really dizzy, nauseous, delusional, and really paranoid about nothing. I almost always end up throwing up, and then I become so extremely worn out that I almost always pass out.
I can't enjoy weed like I used to, and I don't know what to do. Should I stop pills and cigs, excercise, and eat fruits and vegetables? Should I take a break from weed? Should I just smoke less?
I don't know what to do. I'm a lightweight at only 125, and I only need like 3-4 hits to get high and 1-2 to get buzzed. I want to be able to be high again without becoming sick.
What should I do?
Edited by Laterlus, 22 June 2009 - 03:25 AM.