Previous to this i took something... and i thought that maybe the drug hadn't left my system for some reason, but it wasn't that.
Finaly after 5 weeks of feeling like my life was slowly ending i found a website which explained about a type of anxiety. Well 2 to be exact Depersonalisation and Derealisation.(big words i know, which is why i prob had never heard of them)
Sufferers of Depersonalisation or Derealisation feel divorced from both the world and from their own body. Often people who experience depersonalisation claim that life "feels like a dream", things seem unreal, or hazy; some say they feel detached from their own body. Another symptom of this condition can be the constant worrying or strange thoughts that people find hard to switch off.
People often say that no matter how hard they try, they don't feel like they can interact with the world around them. They feel a sense of detachment from their surroundings, finding it hard to talk and connect with others. Also they feel no love for the people closest to them and even question if they did a certain task or had a particular conversation. The most upsetting thing is they lose a sense of who they are and can't seem to perceive themselves as being normal.
Depersonalisation is a common and understandable offshoot of the anxiety condition. Before going further into depersonalisation, let me clear up one thing, which is something I get asked often. “No, you are not going mad.” This feeling comes from being constantly worried about your own problems, but it is not serious or harmful in any way and has a totally logical explanation. It is temporary and, with patience and understanding, eventually passes like any other symptom.
Depersonalisation occurs with anxiety because you are so used to watching yourself, questioning your illness, day in, day out, that you start to feel detached from the outside world. Your mind has become tired and less resilient through watching yourself and worrying about your symptoms. It has been bombarded with worrying thoughts and becomes fatigued. When our limbs tire, they ache. When our mind tires, we feel these strange feelings of detachment from the world around us, experiencing an almost dreamlike state, convincing ourselves that we are going mad or losing it. You are not; your mind is just so very tired and just craves a rest from all this introspection of oneself.
When people are caught up in the worry cycle, they begin to think deeply and constantly. They study themselves from deep within, checking in and focusing on their symptoms. They may even wake in the morning only to continue this habit, “How do I feel this morning? “I wonder if I will be able to get through today”. What’s this new sensation I feel?” This may go on all day, exhausting their already tired mind further. This constant checking in and constant assessing of their symptoms then becomes a habit, but like all other habits this one can also be changed.
The original site is http://www.anxietyno...ealisation.html if want to know more.
4 months later I'm alot calmer and can control it alot better although it still gets the better of me.
The reason i made this thread is because I've spoke to loads of people who have similar feelings to what i had and didn't know what it was. I know how bad i was when i didn't understand what was going on so if i can help someone else then great!
I was also wondering if anyone else has this and knows already what it was and do you have any advice on how to deal with it as its still hard to deal with at times.
Sorry if i bored some people(which I'm sure i did)
Edited by M369, 26 November 2010 - 06:35 PM.