Whats wrong with me

Hey guys, i really need some help. So I started smoking in high school, not very often but occasionally. My freshman year of college i started smoking every day and it was like that for about a year and a half until one night i suddently had a panic attack while pretty stoned. Scariest moment of my life. I thought I was having a heart attack, thats what it felt like in all seriousness. I couldn't breathe, my heart was beating very fast, thought I was dying for real. After that, whenever I smoked I was afraid to get the feeling again and I guess thought my way into having a panic attack. I started to become more paranoid whenever I smoked. Mind you, this has never happened, smoking was always something I could enjoy. Also, at the time of my first panic attack, there was absolutely nothing wrong in my life at the time. It was actually during the best times of my life so? Anyway, I stopped smoking for a few months, because if it wasn't making me feel good anymore, why torture myself? I started smoking again recently and it just is not the same. I can't speak without sounding like an idiot. I get really paranoid and extremely quiet. Its such bullshit because I remember how nice it was to smoke at the end of the night before bed, relieve my stress. Now it GIVES me anxiety. Has this happened to anyone? With the panic attacks? Does anyone know the reasoning behind this, and if it will ever be the same? I would really appreciate some feedback, thank you!

 

That could be a possibility. I don't know. I had smoked a blunt from the same stash though the night before and was fine. Have no idea what came over me or why that happened. Could have just been my own personal problem but thats weird because like i said that was probably the happiest i have been in years