it doesnt matter if you dont mind being broke as shit in the future and not being able to provide for your family
The universe won't even flinch if we was to be wiped out in a seconds notice, but so what? the meaning of life is what we make of it, make your own trail, and enjoy life
either find something to live for or kill yourself now. Its up to you to find something that matters to you. If you can't kill yourself then i guess you matter to you. Not so easy to die is it.