Im a real piece of shit

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  1. #1 Sanguine, Jun 30, 2015
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    I need some help/advice/input, even though I don't deserve it.


    I've been with my girlfriend since high school (now 4 years). She is the kindest and most happiest person I know.


    I went on holiday 2 weeks ago and was unfaithful. I had sex and oral sex with a girl. I could give you the excuse that I was too drunk, but its not legit, I knew what I was doing...maybe the alcohol played a part but I knowingly cheated on my gf.


    This girl was SUPER paranoid about me having a std, she asked me every 5 mins til we got to her place. She also got my number and wanted to meet me when we both got home. She seemed very genuine that she did not have ANYTHING.


    We had unprotected sex and I went down on her.


    I come home 3 days later, and straight away go to the STD clinic to put my mind at rest. At this point I am certain I have nothing and just want to put my mind at ease (0 symptoms).


    The doc has an inspection of downstairs, took urine and took a throat swab. They tell me it will be 2 weeks til results and I tell them I have a girlfriend and that she will definitely be wondering why we wont be having sex for 2 weeks after coming back from a holiday.


    The doctor, obviously, advises me not to have any sexual contact with my girlfriend.


    The right thing to do at this point, would be to tell my Girlfriend that I just had an STD test and that we shouldn't have sex til I get my results...


    Nope. I continue to presume I definitely don't have any STD's (still no symptoms, at this point 1 week after I had unprotected sex) & have sex and oral sex multiple times with my girlfriend.


    I have just found out I have oral gonorrhea. I am absolutely devastated. I now realise that I must tell the person that I love the most in this world, that I cheated on them, and gave them an STD.


    The doc says that I only had oral gonorrhea at the time of testing. However I am now presuming due to having both oral and actual sex with my girlfriend, I have also infected my genitals (mouth to vagina - then vagina to penis).


    I'm going to have my treatment tomorrow, but now I must break it to my girlfriend that she must go seek gonorrhea treatment. Any advice or comments are appreciated.
     
  2. She's going to go ballistic,and say "never want to see you again"
    Whether she changes her mind.only time will tell.

    Prepare for the worst though. Wish you all the best,you obv regret it.
     
  3. Fuck her man theres plenty more out there
     
  4. #4 Sanguine, Jun 30, 2015
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    This is easily the biggest regret of my life. My Gf is so undeserving of this...whats even shittier is that she is too kind for her own good, its likely that although this will tear her apart, she will end up forgiving me. Which I'm not sure how I feel about...because I dont think I could ever get back together with her knowing that I knowingly cheated on her and instead of doing the right thing I risked it and gave her a STD. Fuck fuck fuck fuck.


    & Stylezy no believe me dude, this girl is one of a kind, I'm fucking stupid for throwing it all away
     
  5. damn smh. good luck.
     
  6. #6 Jamaican Hotbox, Jun 30, 2015
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    Only thing you can do now is be truthful.
     
  7. thats fucking disgusting..every part of this story is fuckin gross.

    i can't get over the flat out stupidity and serious lack of consideration. i really hope shes smart enough to cut you out of her life
     
  8. I deserve all the hate I get...I understand this is a seriously fucked up thing that I have done and I have never felt pain/regret like this before.


    If she is willing to forgive me, do you think it would be better to end the relationship anyway? This girl definitely deserves better than me
     
  9. not really my place to tell you whether to end your relationship or not. but i hope your girl values herself enough to end it.


    let her find someone who respects her and you find someone you can respect.
     
  10. How would you feel if someone cheats on you, with possible std, you forgive, and then the guy leaves you any way, thats messed up.
     
  11. #11 Sanguine, Jun 30, 2015
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    I only ask because this girl really does think the world of me, I think its quite likely that she will want to forgive me and try to fix things. I don't want to resume the relationship when I know that I don't deserve this girl (The guilt is already eating me alive). But at the same time, I cant say to her (after she has forgiven me) "well look, you deserve much better, so I'm ending this relationship for the greater good." Because that's going to hurt her even more




    Yes it would be seriously messed up, read above


    I guess maybe the ball deserves to be played in her court? If she wants to get rid of me, completely understandable.


    If she wants to to forgive me, and try to make it work, then maybe I truly could sort out my problems, and treat her like she was the only girl in the world. But then I will forever be feeling guilty knowing that this girl deserves better...
     
  12. You had sex with some random chick who was randomly willing to have sex with you and didn't know you. But you didn't think she had done this before and wasn't at risk for having an STD. Well at least you learned the hard way for not using that thing up North. That is generally how it goes, so good luck in dealing with the backlash. You brought this on yourself and should have had better control, and what did you think would happen as a result? Add 1 and 1 next time and see what you get. That is the best advice you deserve.
     
  13. This is easily the biggest mistake in my life man, I know I have fucked up beyond recognition...I didnt start this thread for people to feel sorry for me and, to be frank, was expecting alot of hate.


    I started this thread so I could get some advice on how to proceed with this situation, with doing minimal damage to the person who really doesn't deserve any of this (My gf).
     
  14. Yeah that's pretty disgusting bruh. I hate cheaters, but if you're gonna at least wear a jimmy and don't eat out random sluts damn man.
     
  15. do whatever you think is right... even though you don't have the best track record with that. i cant really see her still 'thinking the world of you' after finding out you cheated on her and gave an std. then again i dont know her.. but hey man its your guys's relationship not mine. your sorry for what you did, doesnt justify it but its something at least. who knows maybe you guys can fight off the mouth and genital gonnohrea together and live happily ever after..
     
  16. #16 EsNero, Jun 30, 2015
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    What if you become that better guy... are you willing to do ''everything'' for this girl?


    Everybody makes mistakes, but do you learn from them?
     
  17. This is one mistake that I have definitely learnt the hard way
     
  18. There is only one right thing to do. Sit her down, tell her what a complete piece of shit you've been and what the result was and was and what you are going to have to do. Be a man. Don't try to deflect or excuse anything. Don't minimize her feelings.

    Be honest. Fucking up is bad. Being a worm about it makes it unforgivable. Take what's coming. You deserve it. And if you want any chance to continue a healthy long term relationship this is your only possible chance.
     
  19. Tell her you got jock itch?
     
  20. #20 Deleted member 813926, Jun 30, 2015
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    SMH [​IMG]
    somebody needs to learn to control them self.
     
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