Complete fantasy world/depersonalisation: mindblowing

Hi,
 
I am still quite new to the stuff. If I smoke it pure (a whole joint to myself), I just TRIP OUT. It's magical and has changed how I think about life. I know people with tolerance find these naive newbie stories really annoying, so sorry in advance. I'm legitimately locked in this "trip" for a good 7 hours - it's a full blown psychedelic experience for me. If I look at paintings or photos, they move in spirals and look fully 3D. If I try and walk somewhere, I constantly feel like I'm walking towards and away from that place simultaneously. I experience phases of complete ego-loss and utter dissociation.
 
Is it normal to be mentally hyperactive and really, really verbal on weed? When I'm high, all these abstract ideas come to me and I feel like they are so undoubtedly right and clever, yet a small portion of me knows I'm stoned and will laugh at them in the future, so I normally end up recording myself on my phone. This combination of utter sobriety/lucidity and yet complete LSD-level tripping/questioning life/literally forgetting I'm a person and not a God watching the people I'm with is so crazy for me.
 
e.g. I was in a corner shop completely baked with my friend, and she mentioned a girl we know, I'll call her Alice. I saw a packed of crisps that Alice was once eating (no idea how I remembered). I said to my friend, "this shows that time is just an idea that we use to organise things and it isn't real, and these crisps prove this because they exist at the same time as Alice".  I believed this to be completely true, and some breakthrough idea. Surely feeling this trippy way is too extreme to be normal?
 
The main thing I find confusing is my experience with weed is nothing like that described by the media/people in general. For me, there's nothing "chill" and "stoner-like" about it - it's great fun, it lets me be curious about everything again, and I love it, but there's always an undertone of absolute panic but only when I'm outside at night. Therefore, it's rational panic e.g. me thinking "I can't get my legs to move, what if I can't cross this road". But it's there, and if I let any panic develop to any extent, I almost enter a bad trip. But if I'm in my room, I'm creative and happy.
 
My main question is: how normal is my experience/depersonalisation? Does anyone relate to it? I'm honestly playing it down if anything, no exaggeration here - it's mindblowing and psychedelic to the extreme. I enter a fastasy world. My recurring thought when high is that I can be anywhere I want: in class, at home, where I actually am. This makes me doubt my own memories, and feel like they lack emotion and that they're not mine (depersonalisation). I feel like my entire body is numb, but if I try and focus on one thing, it feels so alive in a scary way. 
 
I tried to take out my contact lenses for about an hour and couldn't, because when I focused on my eye, it felt like it had a heartbeat and I didn't like it one bit. I also ate loads and when I wasn't focusing on being "down" and "sober" I literally couldn't taste a thing.
 
My friends can't believe that I trip out when we smoke the same amount.Is this normal at all - to feel like you're a God-like presence watching yourself from above in a TOTALLY vivid way, not to just feel a semblance of that idea, but to totally believe it while also being vaguely aware of who you are/more aware if you focus hard on coming down (and all the other crazy stuff I described)?
 
Thanks guys 
 
PS. The air also felt heavy and painful on my head/shoulders at times, last time I zoned out like this. Why would this happen?

 

Reckon I have 40 more of these "trips" left or 3? Or if I never smoke more than once every 6 weeks or so, could it be possible that I'll never gain tolerance and will always experience these crazy things?