I have made the decision to change myself mentally. Everyday I will post a summary about my day in as few words as possible. Anyone that wants to join in is welcome. Today I made a big decision and decided to stick with it. Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. Albert Einstein
Man you must of been really fucking high when you started this thread Sent from my iPhone using Grasscity Forum
My god im such a asshole. To think that I didnt expect people to see this. I have gone from bad to worse to better to neutral to better and back to a place that is between content and happy.When I said change i meant not laying down all day contemplating about what someone my age would be doing if they were happy. Thanks you guys.
Then your going to dislike that im going to post stuff now. My life is beginningto improve now that i decided to give it some effort. Honestly the only reason I have the strength to do it is because i feel like I have something to prove. Someone special entered my life and I need to find out if it was for nothing. One day hopefully Ill feel more comfortable talking about it. Until then Im curious as to why yall would even consider subbing to this post. Not being judgmental just wandering if anyone else has felt the need to do something like what i was trying to do when i made this post so long ago.
At that point in my life I would literally lay down in my bed for 12 hours at a time staring at the ceiling calling myself a loser and contemplating suicide.
Listen. It's great you feel you need to make a change, it's great someone has entered your life. However, change comes with time. Persistence is key, staying on track with what you have told yourself is, staying true to tor value and beliefs. Everyone has problems. Everyone generally appears to be happier than they are inside. And everyone (maybe not this, but a good amount of our youth) has thought of suicide. Yes, I've done what you want to do. Breakdowns, triumphs, people, lovers...they all come and go. That one person, just because they leave after a year doesn't mean it was for nothing. There's reasons why shit happens, don't stress yourself out thinking about why this didn't or why this did. It did, has, or will, NOW move on with what you can do. Change your attitude and change your life. You're not a victim...says fucking who? The dude in your head who doesn't coincide with what you believe? Well those two guys are you.
haven't posted anything in a while so here's a update. Life is good. Going to the gym and getting healthy. Finally decided to ask the girl of my dreams out and were currently in the lovey dovey stage of the relationship. Wish it last forever.
It's great to hear that this is working well for you, and that it's entering the beginning stages of paying off. I was once in a similar place in life myself, and with the right work, frame of mind, and a lot of herb, there is hardly a limit to what you can achieve in the spectrum of self, as it were. I wholeheartedly endorse what you are embarking on, and ask that you remember that not all isolated, introspective times are all for naught. Along with the good, crazy and upbeat changes and times, they can inform and refine a lot within yourself as you continue to build, you know? Anyways, best of luck to you and good vibes your way, sir! Keep us posted. jah!/*d$*