I is god

Hello Everything,
 With this post today I am trying to get out something that I havent been able to make sense of since it was clear to me. Is anyone is familiar with Rigpa, the knowledge of the ground, the foundation on which our mind lives? Anyways, one day I was reading the book "The four Agreements" by Don Miguel Ruiz (Great book, Recomend for everyone ) There came a passage where the narrator said "The real us is pure love, pure light". Now, I wondered, Is reading something from the first person perspective the same as ME, having that experience? After all, "I" and I, right? this deeply puzzled me. Then, I came to the conclusion we are all really "I" to ourselves arent we? Now, "I" is the same for everyone. This put my life, and other people's life into a much clearer perspective. I saw how all of us, human beings, have the same journey, really, through life, with pleasures, anxieties and pains that are insignificant compared to the important things, like friends and empathy with others around us who are also, just like us, doing their best to travel their own journey. We are all really "I" to ourselves. So there is something. But then, hmmm something is just eluding me at the moment.... Where do our thoughts come from? How are we self knowledgable? What defines us apart from 'I"? How can I realize i am not "I"? I realized there is another layer, something that makes us realize our own thoughts...what makes us conscious of this "I"? I think I is the self. No, "I" an the ego, able to see the self. But I am not the self. But the self allows us to see "I". But the self is our experience, senses, etc. But we can never be separate from the self. The self is life, and "life is the force of the absolute, the supreme, the creator who creates everything." Now I realize that everybody is only a mirror to see myself.  "He saw himself in everyone, but nobody saw him as themselves." -the four agreements.  OK now this is all good and stuff, but where do i realize that "I" is god? hmmm... The hidden layer of awareness, the hidden "I" is god...the force that enables us to look at ourselves from a third person perspective... For example, I remember that I tweeted "I am god, disguised as a boy, sitting in class."  Now, this is similar to all the legends that discibe god as being an old man, cloaked with a walking stick, but with secret smile and wink. We are all really God, and our identities are the prophets/messengers of God, "I". We all experience reality through "I". Another thought, related somehow to this is that we are our own children, teaching ourselves through experience. "We" are unknowable to ourselves, but we can analyze experience and generate a conclusion from this and teach ourselves. There are 2 forces, dancing back and forth ever growing inside us. But we are not either of these. We observe these. We look at ourselves from a third person perspective yet we still cannot see the observer. The observer knows all our thoughts and feelings. what allows us to watch our life as if it is we are the actors on stage and yet also the audience? I still dont remember exactly how "I" equeals God... God is everything...Only our direct experience is permenant, everything else is transitory, I am God because Nobody knows what "I" really is.. I think..Damn i lost my train of thought...

 

Thanks... I could care less about the wording haha as i'm just trying to "get it on paper".  It is extremely hard to put the "infinite?" into a dot by dot linear account.

 

Well, I see you have "psychedelic explorer" under your name... You should definately read "the 4 agreements" while... exploring. lol. Hopefully I think it will give you an extremely important experience, as it did to me.

 

thanks