It seems like every time in get into an argument or disagreement with one of my family members they try to say weed is changing me lol. Never Mind the fact that they were talking shit for 30 minutes straight before I snapped. People are so fucking stupid these days.
Something tells me,you have just had a major argument lol Yea know where your coming from. Get it all the time. " you used to be a really considerate person" That hash stuff has changed you is normally the next line, and normally at that point I switch off! You really can switch off btw. Takes a bit to master the art, but once you have they can be screaming holy murder at you, and I can still follow the TV. Everything else is just white noise.
My dad used to try and provoke me to make me snap on him, just so he can say that weed is Affecting me negatively. Was really quite annoying. So yeah, I know where your coming from. To combat this problem, I just told all my family (except my brother) that I quit smoking and left it at that. They were all like "good for you" and all that BS. But little do they know I still blaze regularly
I'm trying to master that now. When my mom is bitching I just look at the computer screen and say ok over and over again.
Before I moved out me and my family were getting really tense especially my mom because of bud. It was rediculous, it got so bad at points she told me that I should kill myself. Surprisingly I didn't because I was already dealing with so much at that point in my life, so In a sense I did. She had said it times in the past and it hurt and all but I would feel she didn't mean it but that specific time it fucked with me because I was also quitting some unmentionables which she never knew about and all I was doing was smoking and pulling my life together and the day after she said that I left and haven't talked to her since. That was almost 6 months ago. Sent from my SCH-R530M using Grasscity Forum mobile app
The first night I sleep in my car, every night for the remainder of my senior year which was like 40 days I stayed with friends but never longer than a couple days because I refused to Burden anyone. (I had about 9k in money I earned myself and my car) Once I finished HS I had already found a place only about 15 mins from my mom's, it is heaven, I appreciate every bit of freedom I have. even though it isn't the nicest place I take a lot of pride in it. I started working at a ice cream shop about a 5 minute walk from me 2 weeks before I moved into my apartment. I was dreaming to leave this area most my life and I still do but I can say moving out on that act was definitely my greatest accomplishment. My mom told me I couldn't make it out so I showed her otherwise. It took a lot more balls, and tears than I knew I had but I did it. Right now im currently only working but I plan on going onto college next semester. I plan on adding Wifi soon so for now I have to type this all on my phone and well to say the least it's hard to get all out without feeling that its gonna be hard to follow. I will definitely come back and revise this so I can clearly convey my words but I still think about my choices everyday as they're gonna be effecting the next few years of my life. I hope you can come to terms with you're mom. My life would probably be a million times easier if I would've sucked it up. Instead of choosing what university I wanted to goto I'm stuck here in my hometown area planning on attending community college to get myself in a better position. Ill post more when im able to. Sent from my SCH-R530M using Grasscity Forum mobile app
Yea if I can't stay on a college campus this semester I'm moving on my own. I can't take this shit anymore.
Its been the one of the more stressful and harder things in life but its possible. It has been the most rewarding thing I've done in life yet making me optimistic for the future and I truly believe my mental state would've only worsened if I would've remained. and as much as I hate saying it money is everything I wish I would've saved more but I guess you can never have enough. Just make sure whatever you do that its what YOU want Sent from my SCH-R530M using Grasscity Forum mobile app
I've hear people say weed changed me for the worse but they never blame my temper on it. I don't appreciate the sentiment though, I think it's made me a more tolerant, and calm person.