My Most Recent Experience With An Edible

I knew where I wanted to go and I had devised a plan to get there. It was evening and I had prepared my edible. I had also decided to try to see if eating a fresh mango helps potency in any way. I did not imagine how strong that combination was.
 
My playlist was ready - listening to music's come to be my favorite way of experiencing it.
Thirty minutes after eating my slightly-lower-than-normal dose from an already tested batch, I was feeling normal, and that was expected. In fact, I was still expecting half an hour to one hour of easing into relaxation and slowly acknowledging the fact that the medication had entered my system.
 
But two minutes later I start feeling like I'm reaching my peak of being high already - but I knew it was just the beginning, it's an edible after all ! Once you eat it, you're committed to getting higher and higher for at least a couple of hours. I started shaking uncontrollably, but I wasn't cold. Thoughts racing, slightly paranoid feelings. With whatever strength I had left, I grabbed my grounding-mechanism, my music player and headphones, and let myself sink deeper down into the comfortable couch. Time dilated so much that 2 minutes felt like 20, intense paranoia hit and the shaking did not stop for at least half an hour. Since I could no longer move, my only time-keeping system had become the number of songs I could count from the perfectly composed playlist that I had previously learned by heart.
 
I felt intensely vulnerable, as being unable to move can make you feel. But hard as it was, deep inside I knew that I had to power through the negative feelings. the best part of the experience has to be just around the corner ! just focus on the songs... no, no more paranoia, nothing is wrong, listen to the soothing songs... good, that's it.
 
I began remembering thoughts that I had in previous highs and also the mental process that had brought me to conclusions I had drawn while being high. I remembered the moments of perfect clarity. Had I reached the part of the subconscious responsible for keeping such information alive in my mind ? Could I save things here for later, sober, access ? Or is it just a method of communicating things to myself from previous highs to later ones, only to forget them when awake ?
The music engulfed me. It was my guide to a world of colorful closed-eye visuals of which I now remember nothing. Thoughts were so random that I was questioning the real world validity of each and every one of them - perhaps the only time I could feel my sense of logic slipping. I soon lost all knowledge of self. I went to a place only I inhabit, inside my subconsciousness. What went on in there... sadly, escapes me.
After infinity, I managed to drag my hand to move a watch into my field of vision. I had been couchlocked for four hours (I calculated later). The vivid closed-eye visuals were not gone, though. In a wonderful burst of synesthesia, I associated a sound my brain made up with a moving picture that I successfully hid inside my conscious mind. I felt it describes an important part of the experience and I wished to share it with the world...with a drawing perhaps ? but I've never had an artistic bone in my body...whatever I do, I must not forget it.
Morning found me sound asleep.
 
 
As powerful as I felt the experience, it only left me with more questions. Among them are some you may be able to help me with:
Is there any place...further out there ? Have you gotten higher without it being uncomfortable ?
Have you ever had those moments of perfect clarity of thought ? When you know that if you manage to focus on a subject long enough you can reach its deep meanings ? Have you had eye-opening thoughts in those moments ?
Did you ever feel afterwards like expressing your visuals in any artistic way, even though you have nothing to do with any kind art ?
Do other people shake when starting to get high ? Is the starting paranoia normal ?
 
I have nobody to talk to about this, so I will leave my story here, with you. Perhaps a memento for a future version of me. Maybe a glimpse into the possibilities for a newcomer. Or just to ease a fellow stoner's mind by providing a story similar to their past experience.
Whoever you may be, thank you for reading.
 
 
 
P.S. I blame the mango

 

@[member="BabyEyesStoner"]
You need to get your hands on better cookies ! Mine can wipe a whole day out of the calendar.
 
@[member="Clown"]
Ok so the shaking is normal when high as hell, but I still shake at the beginning of even (what I consider to be) mild highs. Has anyone experienced that ?