Deep stuff bra. Sorry for your loss. From what I read, it seems like your letting the your emotions take over. Your gonna have to get a grip on that if you ever expect to mpve forward. Im sure your grandmother would want that. I had a very similar situation happen with my grandma, but I was only 3 when she died. After that, tge entire family split up. She was the glue that held everyone together. You gotta move on man. Easier said than done, but you know what you need to do.
I've never felt so good to be away from my wicked family. But now that I'm away from them all, I miss them. That's all we as humans have in life is family, friends, and ourselves. I've never felt so cold in this world. But I have to keep moving forward. I just don't know how to go forward. Been at the same first job for five years. I'm ready for a new job, I keep telling myself, but I never go out and look for something new. Hopefully I figure it out soon. I'm about to leave for my doctors appointment. Maybe I can tell him what's been going on and see how I can help fix and cope with it all. Not expecting any great advice though.
I have abandonment issues I think. Not that it affects my daily life but I fear being alone so much. I tell my girlfriend this who I love more then anything and is one of the only people in my life I am 100% with. I think these feelings come from my mother dying when I was a kid and my father being a complete dick. I wish I just saw him as a dick because I was young and had the good old fight with parent teenage years but I know it's more then that. I don't know what else to say.
Warming up to the idea of female companionship again. But I'm terrified of a "getting to know you stage". I want a person around who knows me really well. But I don't want to let anyone get close to me or figure me out. I also trust no one... Quite the paradox.
I miss my ex; I'm still in love with him, but he is with someone else. What do you do when the person who meant the world to you tells you he was only with you cuz he was depressed and the girl he's with now is smarter and more of a woman than you? Even wost what do you do when you're dumb enough to love someone who doesn't love you back, and never will? I tried meeting new guys and moving on, but everyone I meet are boring or not that smart or I can't make a connection. I don't connect with a lot of people so if super sucks losing not only the romantic connection but also my best friend
You do the only thing you can, and that's to <em class='bbc'>TRY</em> to move on from a toxic situation. It's gonna be hard, and it's gonna feel like your heart breaks a thousand times a day, but eventually that pain will grow numb. Hope you can find some solace.
Today's gonna be one of the rough one's... First dream i've had in nearly a week, and it's about my ex. We're having good times, things are great, then things go south. Woke up feeling so lonely and terrible, and the dream's haunting me... Fuck, why can't i do anything right?
You gotta let go man, why put yourself through it? It's torture, and don't hide behind the "i deserve it" shit. Write a poem or something, it'll help put it away. You can't see anything with your eyes closed
i started Buffy over again in an attempt to see how over my last girlfriend I am since that's the main show we watched together. It's almost working..
I've been single for years now. Confidence just keeps going down. Yeah I want someone, but I'm not letting it get to me anymore. I mean I can just smoke a bowl, put some porn on and have a great time
I'm ready to date now too but then I start with the "what if he...?" worries, smoke a bowl, then turn on some music and forget about it again Hopefully it will happen when I can find someone who isn't afraid to say that he's a regular smoker and fan of weed around non-stoners. I need a super stoner in my life lol.
This. I just need to get myself a ganja-girl. Only been with a couple of women who smoked, but they were once-in-a-blue-moon smokers. I think i'd get on much better with a regular stoner.
I've never met a single girl who is a daily toker. As far as I know. I'm on the lookout though... That way I can totally not talk to her and kick myself. As per usual
Stoner girls have senses of humor. That's a good thing! Also, they don't rag on your ass about everything all the time because they're kind like why bother. Plus, they see thru bullshit better than ordinary females. So if you're not into bullshit, and she's not into bullshit, you can have a great time together, if nothing else, just laughing at all the bullshit everywhere.