Been noticing lately that I enjoy myself more when I'm alone. It seems that only other people ruin my mood. I'm tired of talking..I'm tired of questions.. I'm tired of caring about people's opinions and shit that just has nothing to do with me. Tired of people thinking I'm just someone else that can be manipulated. I'm sitting in a movie theatre right now hoping not too many people will show up. People always want to sit right next to me, kids talking thru the whole movie. Edit- I was right, the only people who walked in the theatre sat down right next to me as I was writing that so I got right up and moved. It's better this way cause I was sitting kinda far so I moved closer. If this theatre ends up being mostly empty and someone still sits next to me I swear I'm just gonna move again. I just want to be left alone
I've been on the verge of tears all day, I feel like I'm going insane. I wish I could find someone that understands me. Someone to make me feel less crazy.
I've decided to delete my account. I'll leave this mesg here cause there's no other friendly place to leave it anymore. Thanks to all the nice blades who let me be myself. No I won't be coming back under another name. Goodbye GC, i know I'll miss a lot of you. I don't belong here tho. Take care
First time I've posted on or looked at gc in a few weeks now.. been focusing on school and stuff, haven't really had a reason to use this forum anymore. But I just came back to say, I have a girlfriend now, and not one from the Internet either lol. she lives like 5 minutes away and is also sympathetic to and interested in the same kind of fetishy stuff that I am. she doesn't blaze, but she's cool with it and maybe wants to try. and we also have so much else in common like our love of plants and animals and nature and hiking/walking/exploring outside, playing videogames, being nerdy and reading about science and whatnot. but we're also both pretty chill and like to just chill at home together. I'm telling you guys, her bedroom is literally my favorite place I've ever been to, it's like a stoners wet dream and she doesn't even blaze. lol. The weirdest part about it is that the only reason I met her is because I literally gave up any hope of meeting anyone compatible, and i just said I was gonna focus on school and not try talking to or meeting anyone, and not worrying about that. Then the very first day of class, the very first person I sit next to ends up being great for me and it took a few weeks to become friendly with each other but now here we are. Moral of the story is I guess you just never know what the future holds
Spouting out life wisdom to my dog. Fuck. So glad I'm going to hang out with one of my friends right now. Looking forward to moving back in with my roommates in about 2 weeks. Should be a nice change of environment.
Ive been quite alone this summer and it really wasnt the worst experience, things are easier alone imo. Plus i got my dogs so. Theyre fuckin amazing. Its good to have decent people by sometimes, anyone. It can help remove some cobwebs from parts of your brain. All youve got to do is acknowledge them and leave your emotions out of it. Emotions are better used wisely than unwisely. A calm and rational moment of thought can help show you what is rational and what is not. Youre untouchable then. Think before react, and think after react, what is the result? How could it have been different? Don't stress it, because regret is an unwise use of emotion. Now you might have chosen a life with many aquientances and few if any friends. Its easy to tell which one is better when youve had both sides. Everything in between is all up to who you are. But the start is in the past. Dont worry about the end yet, i find this easier. But i guess thats up to you, though i think taking goal steps is much more rewarding over time if you have a goal. Tank you.
I'm a tad bit lonely but I got you guys which makes me feel good Ive been single for a little bit and it blows. Oh well We have each other and pornhub haha
I'm sick of being alone. I feel like all my friends are married or in relationships because they are. I thought I was finally getting something going with this girl and then she up and freaked out about it so now I'm all alone again and it fucking sucks. I don't understand why it's so difficult to find one person you want to spend a lot of your time with and have them want the same thing with you. It's so frustrating.
It's annoying when people just want to hook up with you, I want a relationship not meaningless sex I'm not a hoe lol
When Palmela and Handerson give me grief I make them hit the keyboard. Then I cry myself to sleep. This is not a joke.
my gf is becoming less of a friend to me...it's sounds so juvenille, but- i'm upset cuz when she's come to my house lately, she says she doesn't like being here anymore and she wants to leave. she did it again tonight. i've been cleaning her house for 4 days-top to bottom. i've been doing her laundry, vacuuming, cleaning windowsills, throwing away trash, cleaning the bathroom floor around the toilet, etc....and she doesn't 'like' being at my house. fucking bs! i'm feeling real lonely sitting here at my house right now. i'm on the verge of ending my friendship with her in the morning- i know i won't feel comfortable being there....not end my 'relationship'...no- i think i'm gonna end up telling her that i don't want to be friends with her anymore cuz she's not much of one to me...i've never had to do this with a girl b4. relationships usually end for other reasons. this is a friendship ending.......she's losing just lost a true friend....a bit flawed bt i'm true & loyal
feeling terrible, i'm using weed to mask my loneliness and i don't want anyone beside me, i have a picture of a person i want beside me and yet that picture is blurry to the point that i don't even want people around me but am constantly smoking and feeling lonelier and lonelier every time i stop. it could just be the weed but i don't wanna let it go, i have no real desire to meet new people. i feel like im losing my ability to care for people. slowly im really becoming stone. i feel ruthless. losing mercy for love. confused and angry because the world and myself have not been able to tell apart lust from love. i don't know if this is lonely but something feels like it's missing.
if your ending the "friendship" your ending the relationship, do you expect to just not talk to her and still fuck her?lol