Fighting the loneliness brings so much pain.... Ugh... I hate it so much.. why can't I just be happy I'm no good for my own good...
This song *still* gets me to this day. I went to a Coldplay concert in college with a guy who I was in real love. Like... probably the first taste I had of the real deal...it blew all of my previous notions of love out of the water. First time we kissed...shotgunning (Shout out @Terry ) a hit in the back row.... *sigh* ... I loved how he rested his hand on my thigh, and slid it up and down my leg without getting fresh.... and the way he looked at me... and played with my hair. He used to sit behind me in American lit and run his fingertips along the small of my back. *shivers* Nostalgia, man. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RB-RcX5DS5A
I think you're pretty awesome yourself!! Way awesome, in fact And not just because you said that but because you truly are. Sent from my iPhone using Grasscity Forum
Feeling a little blue today. Pretty lonely. I was just thinking that, relatively speaking, I am doing so much better than I have....ever. I mean, emotionally. I feel more stable than I have in my adult life. I feel in control. I feel relatively safe and secure. And I've done it by myself, for myself. It's such a great accomplishment. I never thought I'd see this day. I'm not where I want to be yet, but I have a better foundation to build from. But that doesn't mean I don't have the same feelings that were bringing me down before, I'm just strong enough to hold up against them. They don't consume me like they used to. I know this could be fleeting. I know it could fall apart at the drop of a hat. But in this moment, I feel ok. Even though I don't have everything I want, I feel like I have mostly what I need, and I haven't depended on anyone else for that. I'd like to, though. I'd like to have someone to depend on...other than my mom of course. She really has been more supportive in the last 5 years than she ever was before. We've come a long way. There used to be so much resentment between us. Now there's only love. She's a happier person, too, and that helps me. The empathy I feel for the people I love can be crippling sometimes. For so long she wasn't happy and it always hurt me. Now that she's happy, it's like, one less emotional burden to bear. Anyway--- TLR I'm high, I'm lonely, I'm rambling.
You know that moment when you realize the paranoid feeling you had was right the whole time... yeah this is that moment the paranoid feeling being the one that says being a loner is probably better off.
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How many of you are actually lonely and aren't just referring to wanting a significant other? Middle fingers up, if you don't give a fuck
Well, dear, although we're quite the distance from eachother, as long as I breathe you'll never be lonely Middle fingers up, if you don't give a fuck
Lonely...even when I have someone ..there isn't a difference aside that when I'm with someone, there is validation and affection. Even surrounded by hundreds of people I am still alone in my head and in my life Was on stage with GodForbid and these gentlemen, once...I still felt alone... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B1zCN0YhW1s&sns=em
I just saw this. I'm an extra extravert. I can talk to anyone, that's part of my job. I'm not shy, in fact I use to be a stage performer and was in a couple bands as a lead singer/ rhythm guitarist
I only feel at peace when all eyes are on me... when no one's looking I'm totally back to not knowing if my life even matters. It's a nightmare that goes untreated http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tljMAsZvCGs&sns=em