It starts to build up after a trigger. The trigger is usually from an action or situation that has to do with my girlfriend. But she is not one to worry about. She is a nice girl, 20 years old, churchgoer, college student that treats me very well in the past 4 months weve been dating and weve yet to raise our voice at eachother even once..
The trigger can be as simple as, her going out with her girlfriends to a party for example or a comment someone made on her facebook.
She hasnt actually done anything to break the trust either. I have been cheated on badly in the past but that was years ago...and since then, ive broken up with every girl ive dated. This stems from this fear I have, of being hurt.
The thought of being hurt will appear in my head and grow, and I will play out scenarios of how it will be achieved. It is almost like the movie inception with planting an idea and watching it grow. I imagine it happening and I will almost believe the chance of it happening will be a high chance. It will affect my mood and make me sad. How do I overcome this snowballing thought process. It is ruining my life.
Edited by EASYlivin, 03 August 2012 - 06:04 AM.