I smoked half a bowl, nothing big. After a while my throat started to feel very tight, so I'd swallow to make the sensation go away. I started to notice that I was swallowing a lot, several times in a minute, and I thought "Why the hell am I swallowing?" It brought on a ton of panic in the classic way of having a panic attack, only I couldn't really swallow at all. My neck felt numb and the sensation to swallow began to exacerbate itself and I felt like I wasn't breathing.
Now I knew that I was breathing and I was tripping myself out, but I had two moments during my high where the feeling to swallow was impossible to please and I felt like I was going to swallow my tongue or something. I freaked myself out so bad that I think that I might have created anxiety where there was none, and now I know how sensitive and strong my thoughts can be that I am totally thrown off from smoking ever again because it was that terrifying.
Even a few hours after the high, I freaked myself out with the swallowing thing again. During the panic my heart was beating like 200bpm.
Any tips would be SO appreciated because I know that I can get past it, just the fear of my experience might have totally screwed me over for future smoking.
The mind is powerful.