1.) Yes, i really do enjoy my life. From time to time it gets rough, but i find ways to to stay positive and motivated

. If possible i would change a few things, but i have a feeling a chain reaction of unintended consequences would follow. I would like to have money no longer be a problem so that i can spend my time doing things i enjoy. And yes often i wish many other aspects of my life were better.
2.)No, i have never seriously contemplated suicide. To me its just not an option at this point. Ending, what is in my opinion, probably the greatest experience that could be had in our universe. To be alive, when 99.9% of everything outside this planet is dead.(yes i believe in extraterestial life)
3.)I dont like that i was born into a world and system where everthing was decided by people before me. I hate that society is so dellusional. I hate that i have to spend my time working for something i DGAF about just to live comfortably in modern society. I love the adventure in life. I love experiencing new things, thrills, scares, adrenaline rushes, beautiful nature, i live for it. I love thinking and philosophizing about random stuff after some fat bho dabs in the morning. I love wandering around nature and being away from the chaos of southern california.
4.)Realistically i would like a few million$ to live off. Not too much money, but enough to never have to work again in my life. And be able to afford a few luxuries.(Materialistic, i know

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5.)Yes, quite often in fact. I used to partake, a little to often, in a certain umentionable known to mess with a chemical level involved in happiness. I became pretty depressed during that time, add a few deaths of close family members, and i was pretty bad off. but ive always been pretty tough and was able to get out of my depression:bongin:. From time to time i get some slight, slight depression. But depression is no match for a clear, healthy mind.
6.)I can honestly say, i dont much care what others think of me. But i tend to think the worst, when i do think about it. Based on appearence i feel like no one can really see me for who i am. So i dont put much emphasis on looks. But i feel like once people get to know me and my personality they have a much different opinion of me. So most of my energy is spent on bettering myself as a person, not how i appear to the stranger judging me while i walk past.