What's wrong with me?

[pinball wizard]

I feel like that when i stop smoking, but it goes away after a few days for me. Sounds like you are just depressed, which can be the result when you stop taking something that makes you VERY happy all the time, because being VERY happy becomes the norm, so being even happy can feel horrible. Hang in there man, things will get better.

Out of curiosity, why did you quit? If you didn't have an ironclad reason, you might consider smoking a little bit, it might clear this up. you obviously have the self controll to stop when you need, if you could once, due to the nature of marijuana.

If you need someone to talk to, shoot me a PM with your AIM.

[misuseOFbodies]

Originally Posted by the_pirate

I wasn't really sure where to post this, but here's my problem.

I quit smoking a few months ago and have been clean since. But i can tell that somethings wrong with me. I've been very depressed, to the point where i think about suicide just about every night. I don't know what it is, but it seems like reality isn't real anymore, like it's all just a dream or my imagination. I have realationship problems with just about all of my friends, my parents and most everyone i meet. I don't know what's wrong with me, and i don't know what to do about it. Any suggestions about the topic are greatly appreciated.

i wrote this when i was going to kill myself(below)vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv
and i still didnt open up to people.be happy you still have your friends i lost all of mine or at least i thought i did .im still in that mode that your in today

Nothing changes and it never will.
Sun up sun down everyday stays the same.
Its like repetition, a metaphorical erosion of the spirit
Or like rusting promises when skin is liable to chap...
Choking on the smell of all signs of your own discomfort.
On and on and around and around never missing a beat, as we
Walk tight ropes and dance in circles to the tunes of are backs breaking under the weight of our own potintial.
Pacing forward, away from what you truly aspire to be, or to do, or to see, sinking or sailing, flying or falling,...