Crazy, Confusing night...

[SAZJ]

Hey all I check out here every now and then, but I rarely post. Tonight though, I feel like getting a bit off my chest.

So this is all real, all tonight. A bit of background:

I'm 18, and the girl in question is 20. She works at a local gas station as clerk so she can get a solid 40 hours a week in, while I work at a italian restaurant just across the street 3 nights a week, which coinsides with her shifts. I met her by coming in before my shift and after, to stock up on energy drinks or munchies, respectively. We talked a bit and hit a quick friendship. Meanwhile, I learn a bit more about her, such as; she has done almost every drug there is, has a good amount of knowledge about all of them (and at a time was addicted to ecstacy & a few other drugs, which she got off from), loves music and has a AMAZING amount of knowledge about that, and she has had a couple of boyfriends (and jusr got away from a abusive one). As of our initial meeting, she found someone and they both care alot about each other (they are almost engaged.) Her boy interest lives a solid 2+ hours away from us, downstate, and they see each other at the most 3 times a week. I, however, live barely 2 minutes away.

Meanwhile, I smoke the herb and occasionally, however rarely, drink. Thats the limit of my [common] drug interest (outside of psychedelics ). I have one girl friend, we've been together for a little over a month. She is 15, naive and innocent (whom I treat well and with respect), and is pretty... prude.

anyways. Fast forward to tonight, where this girl, who we will refer to as 'Life' (a meaning of her name), finally got around to hanging out together.




The premise is simple. We both get off work around 10, get comfortable, and I walk the 200 or so yards to her apartment, where her roomates are asleep, and then we hang out, play pool, and do whatever. She has a bottle of Riesling for the occasion, and she supplies a monster energy for my quarter bottle of Yeager which I bring over.

I come over, we drink, I win 2 or so games of pool, we go out on her deck and talk about everything and anything, then as the night progresses we get more comfortable together.

We cuddle a bit on the couch to ward off the cold, and then she has to go outside to recieve a call from her above mentioned boy interest. As she comes in, we walk into each other a bit, hug, and she nonchalantly kisses me. I kiss back equally casually.

Fast forward again. After a few more brief, interesting kissing moments, we finally get to it, lay on the couch, and proceed to aggressively make out for half and hour. She moans a bit, I get some tounge action on her breats ( tough to word that!) and we both stop satisfied. I ask her in the middle, as a honest question, how far she would go. She instantly answers ' Sex! '. :P I'm a virgin, and that gets her thinking on how cool is would be for her to take my virginity, but she asks if it's alright with me (as in time, place, and person). I absentmindedly ask if she has any condoms, which she doesn't (I don't, either), and she is also on her period which means it's a no-go.

We reluctantly finish our... experience. She calls her fiance', who is now much drunker than we are (he had 8+ shots of 100-proof something) , and she nervously lies to him that she fell asleep. They chat, hang up, then she and I talk.

We both don't know what to think. We don't regret it, for one night, but we don't want to cause problems for ourselves or our partners. We agree to sleep on it (seperately) and I go home.

So here I am. blue-balls are still hovering nearby, even though I tried to get that out of the way earlier

I wanted to know all of your oppinions on everything.

PERSONALLY:

I don't want to see this become a regular thing, or affect either of our relationships, or our friendship (as we get along very well, clearly), however I doubt it will be easy to forget or leave behind. I'm content to sleep on it, and see her next time with a fresher mind. life is life, though, so I'll go with any outcome... but I'll take some time to think, feel, and grow first. It's alot to process at once.

Thanks all

[twnty8gramz]

get a condom and try again next week man!!! loose your virginity to the older chic!! fuck man, if she doesnt make you use a condom, then dont, just start railing

[D_420]

Try and secure that chick as your friend and fuck buddy - and just that , you won't regret it.
You're both into each other , as long as she has no hectic guilt about it then what's the worst that could happen ?