Advice needed.

[junglistic]

Whatsup people. It's my first post so whats goin' on?! I hate to start my grass city account in a negative way, but I really need some advice. I've been smoking bud for about 3-4 years now. It started when I was 15 and I would get great pleasure out of sneaking around buying some green (probably getting ripped off by the older boys :P ), getting high as fuck off a baby skin joint, being stoned for hours playing stupid games with my mates for jokes, and making hens last for 2 weeks at a time. This continued for about a year till my mates stopped buying it for a while, and we all pretty much forgot about it, simple reason for quitting! So I stopped smoking for a year, then when I was about 17 I became friends with some boys from my ends who smoked it. i became tight with them and it sort of rekindled my interest of d' erb and I started blazing again. It was all good and gradually I started becoming a more and more experienced smoker.
This was all normal until a few months ago (I'm 19 now), things started changing, I stopped getting high after a regular amount and wasn't enjoying the buzz. When smoking bud I start to think too deeply, if you know what I mean, really analyze my life and things around me. I start to get a bit depressed I guess, and my head feels overloaded. I can't just enjoy smoking a joint because as soon as I do I start to just think, basically, think until I feel like exploding. Sometimes I scare myself by thinking im going a bit mad. I dunno what your experiences are but I guess I just wanted some advice from people who actually know what their chatting about.
The other thing is I got some other shit in my life, recently lost a job, haven't had a girlfriend in fuck knows how long, & I'm skint. Maybe I just need to sort this shit out. Also a lot of the bud going about my area (north Surrey, south London) at the moment is sandblasted, homegrown shit.
OK I know im banging on lol, but like I said I just wanted to chat to some people who blaze and can give me some real advice, and not the "cannabis is so bad its eating your brain" shit I read elsewhere. So yeah, hello to you all, and give us a bit of advicxe if you know what im chatting about. Fuck it, maybe I'm just a mess 'cause of the pill-session-drum-n-bass-rave-up I had at the weekend! Thats the longest thing I've wrote since school!

[agenttc89]

Originally Posted by junglistic

getting high as fuck off a baby skin joint,

first of all, baby skin is for deep frying, not baking.


secondly, you evolve, your high evolves. If you don't enjoy it, take a step away from Mary J for a little while. Let yourself find your own position, don't rely on anything but yourself to figure such things out.

[shdy747]

Well, I'll give you my perspective on this. I have seldom found myself ever having a bad time while tokin the ganj, but there are a few times I can recall. One time was after I got a DUI, really felt shitty about myself, and I got a bit depressed when I smoked, had a bunch of thoughts going through my head about how I needed to get my life on track. I got over it, got a good job, finally using my college degree, and smoking is great. In my opinion it really is all in your head. Not that you're making it up, but that you're letting your mind go in that negative direction because of the negative things you perceive are happening in your life. Either try and relax when you smoke, take things in stride and just realize that you are going in the right direction to get things straight, or take a break while you get yourself in a position in life where you feel happy.

On a side note, I have never done X, but I can say that you can't rule that out as a possibility of what is making you feel the way you do.

[powrd]

How do you feel when sober? Sounds like you may have some underlying depression.

Someone close to me drank alcohol for a span of about 25-30 years and it would be enjoyable, but they got depressed & overwhelm with their current situation, and when they'd get drunk they would just get more depressed.

I'm not comparing the herb to alcohol but just trying to justify what I said. I myself find that cannabis gives me quite a lift in mood, even after the high is gone.

Well man I hope you figure out what's going on. My bet is this: all the shit in your life is really taking a toll on you dude.

I'd take a break, and try smoking a bowl or two in a few weeks. If you feel like you're better after that break, cannabis may not be for you now, even though it treated you good in the past. Definitely not a permanent thing but you may need to take an extended break.

[wesmanavus]

The other thing is I got some other shit in my life, recently lost a job, haven't had a girlfriend in fuck knows how long, & I'm skint. Maybe I just need to sort this shit out.

BINGO!

That's your problem right there man. Taking any sort of hallucinogen requires that the set and setting be good in order to have a the best experience possible.

The problem right now is your mindset.

Takes some time off from da herb, sort things out, gain some stability, and most of all, get happy sober. Then you''l know when it's time to smoke, and it will most likely be like old times.

[jimboob]

Originally Posted by wesmanavus

BINGO!

That's your problem right there man. Taking any sort of hallucinogen requires that the set and setting be good in order to have a the best experience possible.

The problem right now is your mindset.

Takes some time off from da herb, sort things out, gain some stability, and most of all, get happy sober. Then you''l know when it's time to smoke, and it will most likely be like old times.

Very true, i stopped cause i wasn't happy with my life and where it was going...which was nowhere really. everytime i smoked i would get into sum kind of trouble, after a while i started getting all paranoid and anxious that i would lose whatever made me funny to my friends for some reason...told myself im gona smoke again once i find a girl and am just happy sober. so far pretty good. so yea quit for a while.

[TygaTyga]

well maybe you should quit being so British... nah but in all seriousness, just take some time to let you calm down. Being high just doesn't magically make you happy if your are in a bad situation, it would just make you high and in a bad situation.

Do something positive for yourself than take a big toke.

Good luck man, have fun.