Mescaline, Marijuana, and Paranoia

[SketchyTX04]

Please read this experience -- I want to see what you guys think about the mishap, and some shared stories on the drug.

There are cliffnotes at the bottom


You guys know what it's like to not have marijuana? The people you get it from, too, then dont come through for you when you need it? I called a guy last night in search of some, and he asked if I wanted to hang out. I, always looking for a good time and an opportunity to get out of the house. It seems, though, he had Mescaline. I paid about 20 dollars for, well, honestly I don't know how much it was -- I guess you could say I took just "one."

I was told the effects would come in 15 minutes -- I expected them with great anticipation. About 30 minutes after ingesting them I didn't feel a whole lot different, maybe a little heavier, but no visuals like, I suppose, I was expecting. I kept being asked how I felt, and it was obvious that they thought I was supposed to be feeling ridiculously good, this wasn't exactly the case. I didn't feel any differnet, and I kind of thought that it was a placebo effect and I just paid for nothing. That is until later on in the night I smoked some marijuana. I couldn't believe the effects it was having on the drug, really enhancing it tenfold, it felt. Things were more intense and it was pretty amazing until the ride home.

I was with a guy whom, I must be honest, I don't trust. Hes the smartest guy I know, hes really into meditation -- but words can't describe much about how incredibly powerful this guys brain is (which we all have the potential for, but don't always reach for it)

On the ride home, he turned his system up. He got his CD case and looked through them and said "Hey man, here is a TOOL CD you have NEVER heard. You'll never hear this again from anyone." So he put in the CD, and he says this to me: "I have a challenge for you. I want you to close your eyes the whole time I'm driving and trust that I'm taking you where you need to go. I was up for it, though I was tripping, what felt to me like, pretty hard. I closed my eyes and he goes "Ok, while you're listening to this song, breatje in through your nose, and let yourself completely relax. Feel vulnerable to everything around you."

So I did, then I quickly afterwards realized that "Oh my god. Hes trying to brainwash me with this music. He has subliminal messages going on, and THATS why I have never heard this version before... and THATS why h asked me to do all of that!"

This guy talked to me once a month ago about starting a cult of some kind. I know he has the brains to, well, brainwash people.

When I got home I felt like he was controlling my thoughts and trying to gain complete control of my body, even though he was long gone. I was shaking in fear of it -- and I couldn't let myself dismiss the idea because I thought that it's what he wanted.. for me to release the idea of him brainwashing me and to trust him. So, I was stuck in a paradox of sorts.


Cliffnotes
Got the chance to go with a real smart guy who had mescaline.

After 2 hours of feeling slight effects, I smoked marijuana and it increased the feeling ten-fold.

On the ride home, the guy who gave me the Mescaline, I thought (because I was tripping) that he was trying to hypnotize me into being in his cult, which hes talked about frequently.

The reason I thought that was because he kept telling me to close my eyes the whole way home, listen to the song closely, and feel vulnerable to the world while I listened.

When I got home, and I was alone, I thought he could now control my thoughts and he had free reign in my head to control me.

[lmaonade]

O dear lord, reminds me of when my OCD was going crazy, i though i was being controlled by aliens. Damn.

[punkie]

Oh my god dude, that's seriously messed.

Hey, at least you came home in one piece! How'd you feel the day after?

[SketchyTX04]

Actually today I feel real good. Not extra paranoid, not fatigued, I just feel like normal, I guess you could say. There is no doubt that I'll do it again, but next time I'll pull more. There was nothing more amazing than closing your eyes and watching the vivid journey of your brain take place before you -- I imagine it would be even more intense if there were more mescaline involved.

It's just a little pricey.


Oh yeah, he kind of did an assholish thing too, man. I think, for the five minutes I was following his direction (closing my eyes, not paying attention, being vulnerable) he took my tea out of my hand and poured it over my crotch.. jsut enough so I wouldn't feel it, but so it made it look like, when I got home, that I let go so much that I pissed myself.

Man, that kind of blows too.

[dirtybongwater]

Bad trip much? I haven't ever had Mescaline before but your story has all the signs of a bad (but not horrible) trip. When I read stuff like this it really keeps me content that I only smoke marijuana. If I had a trip like that, I would flip my lid. I've been known to be a bit dramatic when stressed out. That would mess me up just enough to do something stupid.

It was an enjoyable read though. You should keep record of events like this. I'd read a book of your memoirs.

[punkie]

Originally Posted by dirtybongwater

Bad trip much? I haven't ever had Mescaline before but your story has all the signs of a bad (but not horrible) trip. When I read stuff like this it really keeps me content that I only smoke marijuana. If I had a trip like that, I would flip my lid. I've been known to be a bit dramatic when stressed out. That would mess me up just enough to do something stupid.

It was an enjoyable read though. You should keep record of events like this. I'd read a book of your memoirs.

I completely agree.

However, I've had..oh, 3 bad trips (in over 5 years) on marijuana. I mean trips that totally took me outside of reality, to the point of me not knowing what I was doing/saying when I did it/said it. Those trips have been fucked up, but thankfully, few and far between. Ironically enough (or not!), it's been other people's weed each time I've had a bad trip. Figures. Know your source!

[PorkSoda]

hmm.. i think the thing with mescaline is that it takes an hour or two to kick in.. a friend of mine used to do it...

so mayb you smoked same time it was kicking in and did to much?

[punkie]

Did you smoke a fat joint? I'm curious to know how much weed you smoked as compared to mescaline.

You should really post this story on erowid.org, only the best website ever! Seriously though, you should.

[SketchyTX04]

I appreciate that DBW.

If it really takes a couple hours to really kick in, that would explain why I didn't feel much the first good while. I appreciate that, man.


The same guy that I thought was trying to hypnotize me into being in a cult rolled a really nice blunt. We smoked the whole thing between the four of us, but I haven't been smoking like I used to, so my tolerance was definitely down a good bit as well.

[punkie]

I'm sure your lowered tolerance and the fact that it was a big fat blunt had something to do with it. Thanks for posting this though. It's certainly interesting, despite your not so good experience (well, I guess that depends on how you look at it. I'd probably FREAK!)

Glad you didn't totally wig out or anything