Had a very bad experience for the first time.

NoLeafClover717 · #1 (**permalink**) 07-21-2006, 08:05 AM

Let me preface this by saying I have had a decent amount of depression and anxiety issues my whole life off and on, landing me in the hospital for a few weeks once. It runs in the family. I'm 22 and smoked a little off and on when i was around 18, and then around 20. A couple months ago I started smoking again, almost every day off and on. All I've ever really smoked before the other night was mids because it's all I could ever get and wasn't a big enough smoker to need dank yet. Well, the other night i got a small sack of some kind buds. That night I was alone and bored so I smoked a couple bowls. I've gotten pretty blazed off mids before, but this was different. I didn't necessarily feel like I was more stoned than ever, but it obviously was different as I'll explain in a second. At first all was tight and I felt the same way I always did when I was high but then my mind wandered into a bad area. I've been stoned and wandered into bad areas before, but my mind was always so unfocused at the time that I've been able to distract myself with something else to get my mind off whatever fucked up thing I was thinking about. Not this time. Somehow I got to think about my parents dying. From then on it was a pure nightmare and was of the most fucked up experiences of my entire life. I started playing out these scenarios over and over in my head and could not think of anything else. I kept seeing bad bad things in my head (id rather not get into details), and at this point I was very blazed, even though I only smoked a couple bowls. Well it got to the point where I had to call home and talk to my mom (I had to tell thme I loved them because in my head I thought if I didn't something bad was about to happen). I'm close with my parents but I don't share my feelings a lot with them in person. Well I called my mom told her what was going on and just lost it, crying my eyes out telling her and my dad how much I loved them and how I wouldn't know what to di without them blah blah. My hwole body froze up and I felt like my limbs were gone and couldnt move them. That wasn't a concern though, I was just trying to shake the bad feelings and thoughts I was having. I was clearly in a bad panic attack at this point. I stayed on the phone with my mom for a little bit and she tried to talk me through it and calm me down but it didn't really do much. I just kept bawling and telling them how much I loved them (it actually turned out to be a great moment between us in that sense). Well I eventuaqlly got off the phone with her and turned on the tv and forced myself to pick up my guitar to try and distract myself. The panic attack lasted about a half hour, and after that I got online and it got better and turned into my normal feeling high, but I was still upset and couldnt shake some of the bad feelings. That was 2 nights ago, and I'm still kinda upset over it. I mean obviously it's over but I still can't get a few of those thoughts out of my head, but it seems to be going away. So now I'm pretty scared to smoke again. I def. won't be smoking anything higher than mids for a while, and I'm not sure if I'll continue smoking period. I have a quarter of mids left but am worried about smoking. Should I wait a couple more days and smoke some mids? I was thinking maybe just one hit at a time to see how it feels. What do you guys think? I love smoking but I don't want those feelings to come back. Was it just the chron? Maybe with mids Iwon't get that blazed and won't have a problem? What do you guys think?
Sorry about no paragraphs, I'm lazy.
Thanks guys.

#2 (**permalink**) 07-21-2006, 08:26 AM

I think you need to add paragraphs to your story, more people will read it.

Now onto my real response. I think you got ahold of some sativa, which is the reason why you couldn't stop thinking about that. That type of weed has a way of making you think more about things and makes it easier to turn those thoughts into supposed reality. I think you will be fine smoking from that batch as long as you relise that the type of weed you smoked caused you to think more about things than you normally do.

I know that when I think of my parents dieing when I'm sober, I get upset for a minute or to and then tell myself that I'm just over-worrying. However, I think that when you smoke sativa it becomes so real that you can't stop thinking about it. For instance, the other night when I was high (primarily sativa, I think (it could be 100%)) I thought about someone breaking into our house through my open window and killing my familly, it bugged me so much that I got up and closed it, even though the temp. rose to around 75+ degrees F. in my room. I've has those thoughts before when I was sober and I brushed them off.

Just something to think about, if I'm way off someone correct me, but I think you will be ok to smoke as long as you relise that. if not, the next time you get some bud, make sure its indica, if they dont know ask them if when they smoke it do they get more of a head high or do they get knocked on their asses.

smoked out · #3 (**permalink**) 07-21-2006, 08:29 AM

doesnt sound like the weed, seems like you have other problems...sorry

Le Grenouille · #4 (**permalink**) 07-21-2006, 11:45 AM

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Originally Posted by smoked out

doesnt sound like the weed, seems like you have other problems...sorry

Yes, and the weed may not be helping the anxiety at all; if I'm having anxiety attacks, being stoned makes it far worse, as smoking mimics the bodies panic responses anyway. It may be an idea for you to quit, since you are highly likely to aggravate and worsen these symptoms over time.

I'd urge you to talk to your GP about it.

NoLeafClover717 · #5 (**permalink**) 07-21-2006, 10:55 PM

gp?

smoked stoopid · #6 (**permalink**) 07-21-2006, 10:57 PM

by GP i think he means general physician... i could be wrong but thats what i got from it.

cbasketball27 · #7 (**permalink**) 07-22-2006, 06:11 AM

just keep smoking until you forget that that night ever happened.

jycottonmouth · #8 (**permalink**) 07-22-2006, 06:23 AM

i was depressed long ago, but i fought it, i stopped being shy, went out more, talked to people. then i started making friends, making a friend is the best feeling in the world if you suffer from depression and is the best cure. the weird thing is that i watched movies and learned how people talk to each other and what kind of things they liked. so i uninstalled all of my games and didnt use the computer much. but the hard thing is finding things to talk about, you should travel to distant places a lot too, so you'll have a lot to talk about

i saw on the news not too long ago about a man whos been depressed all his life, he killed a young girl and planned to EAT her. at his house, he had a diary on his comp that basically had his life story. he said the longer his depression lasted, the weirder his fantasy's got. you should go see a therapist and talk about it, or ur thoughts could even get worse. if you cant afford a therapist, then just go out a lot, to coffee shops, barns & nobles, anywhere and you'll have a huge chance of meeting new people.

just one thing.. DONT take antidepressants with weed, someone on these forums began getting paranoid. cant remember the name but that person though people in public were looking at him, hating him. then he started thinking he was ugly and shit. so weed + antidepressants = something bad.

hope i helped..

Gawgnz · #9 (**permalink**) 07-22-2006, 06:53 AM

^ lol uninstalling games helps alot..

curse you world of warcraft

jycottonmouth · #10 (**permalink**) 07-22-2006, 06:57 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Gawgnz

^ lol uninstalling games helps alot..

curse you world of warcraft

people agreeing with me makes me happy

. and you gotto be easy going, easy to laugh, easy to please. people love ppl like that.

becauseIlikeIt · #11 (**permalink**) 07-22-2006, 07:06 AM

mixing weed with the antidepressants could have pushed it, but antidepressants are just bad. never take them. most antidepressants on the market cause bad feelings and suicidal thoughts, so stay away.

and in response to the thread, weed effects everyone differently. this may be what it does to you, so if it happens again, i wont feel bad about suggesting you quit, it could not be your thing.
best of luck, i hope you feel better.

kurbs · #12 (**permalink**) 07-22-2006, 07:40 AM

you're just a bit shell shocked. This can happen to people when then have a mental breakdown on pot. Im no psychologifvcmekdfnsv, and i dont know you, so i cant offer you any help on your personal problems, but if it happens again, take deeep breaths. concentrate hard on your breathing. long deep breaths in your nose and out your mouth. this should stray your mind for the time being, and get your heart rate down a bit. Then tell yourself your being retarted because your high. Just concentrate on your breathing, and try to not think about whatever was making you upset. thats the best advice i can give you on surviving a panic attack.

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#1 (permalink) 07-21-2006, 08:05 AM
NoLeafClover717 Registered User Join Date: Jun 2006 Posts: 32	Had a very bad experience for the first time. Let me preface this by saying I have had a decent amount of depression and anxiety issues my whole life off and on, landing me in the hospital for a few weeks once. It runs in the family. I'm 22 and smoked a little off and on when i was around 18, and then around 20. A couple months ago I started smoking again, almost every day off and on. All I've ever really smoked before the other night was mids because it's all I could ever get and wasn't a big enough smoker to need dank yet. Well, the other night i got a small sack of some kind buds. That night I was alone and bored so I smoked a couple bowls. I've gotten pretty blazed off mids before, but this was different. I didn't necessarily feel like I was more stoned than ever, but it obviously was different as I'll explain in a second. At first all was tight and I felt the same way I always did when I was high but then my mind wandered into a bad area. I've been stoned and wandered into bad areas before, but my mind was always so unfocused at the time that I've been able to distract myself with something else to get my mind off whatever fucked up thing I was thinking about. Not this time. Somehow I got to think about my parents dying. From then on it was a pure nightmare and was of the most fucked up experiences of my entire life. I started playing out these scenarios over and over in my head and could not think of anything else. I kept seeing bad bad things in my head (id rather not get into details), and at this point I was very blazed, even though I only smoked a couple bowls. Well it got to the point where I had to call home and talk to my mom (I had to tell thme I loved them because in my head I thought if I didn't something bad was about to happen). I'm close with my parents but I don't share my feelings a lot with them in person. Well I called my mom told her what was going on and just lost it, crying my eyes out telling her and my dad how much I loved them and how I wouldn't know what to di without them blah blah. My hwole body froze up and I felt like my limbs were gone and couldnt move them. That wasn't a concern though, I was just trying to shake the bad feelings and thoughts I was having. I was clearly in a bad panic attack at this point. I stayed on the phone with my mom for a little bit and she tried to talk me through it and calm me down but it didn't really do much. I just kept bawling and telling them how much I loved them (it actually turned out to be a great moment between us in that sense). Well I eventuaqlly got off the phone with her and turned on the tv and forced myself to pick up my guitar to try and distract myself. The panic attack lasted about a half hour, and after that I got online and it got better and turned into my normal feeling high, but I was still upset and couldnt shake some of the bad feelings. That was 2 nights ago, and I'm still kinda upset over it. I mean obviously it's over but I still can't get a few of those thoughts out of my head, but it seems to be going away. So now I'm pretty scared to smoke again. I def. won't be smoking anything higher than mids for a while, and I'm not sure if I'll continue smoking period. I have a quarter of mids left but am worried about smoking. Should I wait a couple more days and smoke some mids? I was thinking maybe just one hit at a time to see how it feels. What do you guys think? I love smoking but I don't want those feelings to come back. Was it just the chron? Maybe with mids Iwon't get that blazed and won't have a problem? What do you guys think? Sorry about no paragraphs, I'm lazy. Thanks guys.

#2 (permalink) 07-21-2006, 08:26 AM
ZeroIQ Guest Posts: n/a	I think you need to add paragraphs to your story, more people will read it. Now onto my real response. I think you got ahold of some sativa, which is the reason why you couldn't stop thinking about that. That type of weed has a way of making you think more about things and makes it easier to turn those thoughts into supposed reality. I think you will be fine smoking from that batch as long as you relise that the type of weed you smoked caused you to think more about things than you normally do. I know that when I think of my parents dieing when I'm sober, I get upset for a minute or to and then tell myself that I'm just over-worrying. However, I think that when you smoke sativa it becomes so real that you can't stop thinking about it. For instance, the other night when I was high (primarily sativa, I think (it could be 100%)) I thought about someone breaking into our house through my open window and killing my familly, it bugged me so much that I got up and closed it, even though the temp. rose to around 75+ degrees F. in my room. I've has those thoughts before when I was sober and I brushed them off. Just something to think about, if I'm way off someone correct me, but I think you will be ok to smoke as long as you relise that. if not, the next time you get some bud, make sure its indica, if they dont know ask them if when they smoke it do they get more of a head high or do they get knocked on their asses.

#3 (permalink) 07-21-2006, 08:29 AM
smoked out Registered User Join Date: Jan 2005 Posts: 65	doesnt sound like the weed, seems like you have other problems...sorry

#5 (permalink) 07-21-2006, 10:55 PM
NoLeafClover717 Registered User Join Date: Jun 2006 Posts: 32	gp?

#6 (permalink) 07-21-2006, 10:57 PM
smoked stoopid 11 years and burnin' Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: L fuckin' A Posts: 992	by GP i think he means general physician... i could be wrong but thats what i got from it. __________________

#7 (permalink) 07-22-2006, 06:11 AM
cbasketball27 Registered User Join Date: Jun 2006 Posts: 67	just keep smoking until you forget that that night ever happened.

#8 (permalink) 07-22-2006, 06:23 AM
jycottonmouth Banned Join Date: Jul 2006 Posts: 405	i was depressed long ago, but i fought it, i stopped being shy, went out more, talked to people. then i started making friends, making a friend is the best feeling in the world if you suffer from depression and is the best cure. the weird thing is that i watched movies and learned how people talk to each other and what kind of things they liked. so i uninstalled all of my games and didnt use the computer much. but the hard thing is finding things to talk about, you should travel to distant places a lot too, so you'll have a lot to talk about i saw on the news not too long ago about a man whos been depressed all his life, he killed a young girl and planned to EAT her. at his house, he had a diary on his comp that basically had his life story. he said the longer his depression lasted, the weirder his fantasy's got. you should go see a therapist and talk about it, or ur thoughts could even get worse. if you cant afford a therapist, then just go out a lot, to coffee shops, barns & nobles, anywhere and you'll have a huge chance of meeting new people. just one thing.. DONT take antidepressants with weed, someone on these forums began getting paranoid. cant remember the name but that person though people in public were looking at him, hating him. then he started thinking he was ugly and shit. so weed + antidepressants = something bad. hope i helped..

#9 (permalink) 07-22-2006, 06:53 AM
Gawgnz Registered User Join Date: Jun 2006 Posts: 39	^ lol uninstalling games helps alot.. curse you world of warcraft __________________

#11 (permalink) 07-22-2006, 07:06 AM
becauseIlikeIt Registered User Join Date: Mar 2006 Posts: 305	mixing weed with the antidepressants could have pushed it, but antidepressants are just bad. never take them. most antidepressants on the market cause bad feelings and suicidal thoughts, so stay away. and in response to the thread, weed effects everyone differently. this may be what it does to you, so if it happens again, i wont feel bad about suggesting you quit, it could not be your thing. best of luck, i hope you feel better. __________________ B.O.D!

#12 (permalink) 07-22-2006, 07:40 AM
kurbs Registered User Join Date: Jan 2005 Posts: 141	you're just a bit shell shocked. This can happen to people when then have a mental breakdown on pot. Im no psychologifvcmekdfnsv, and i dont know you, so i cant offer you any help on your personal problems, but if it happens again, take deeep breaths. concentrate hard on your breathing. long deep breaths in your nose and out your mouth. this should stray your mind for the time being, and get your heart rate down a bit. Then tell yourself your being retarted because your high. Just concentrate on your breathing, and try to not think about whatever was making you upset. thats the best advice i can give you on surviving a panic attack.

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