I Feel Like I'm Missing a Part of Me

[psychoperson25]

So today I traveled to Portland with a bunch of friends and was having a great day I smoked some reefer earlier in the day and saw a van that contained a lot of memories for us. (There will be pics)

Saw part of Jurassic Park on a giant screen got some killer donuts, and just goofed around. But I had brought my sketchbook with me of which I put most of my inebriated drawings in. It was in a duffle bag with a lot of art supplies and some sticker paper as well as my camera bag. I lost it to make the story short.

I didn't realize how much of a connection I had with the sketchbook until I lost the drawings. I searched for a while retraced my steps but I never saw it again. It just feels like a part of my soul had been ripped out and taken from me. I have come to terms with it somewhat and wish to get another sketchbook for that purpose.

But still hours of time were spent on this sketchbook a good percentage of my summer was spent drawing in this sketchbook I have some of the pictures left but I lost half of my drawings and only have a small recollection of how they looked.

I am truly depressed and disappointed. To much more of a degree than I ever imagined would come from this. So I don't know I don't have any green to cheer myself up so I posted here. I'm sure a lot of people couldn't give two shits.

But that sketchbook seems like something that makes me a person. I sound real whiny I know. People have way worse to deal with than I do. But it just feels like a best friend has moved away indefinitely and I am stuck here with no way to communicate or know where they went. I just wanted to tell you about it. Now here are some of the pictures of the Van.

So this van we smoked a good bit of pot in and spray-painted and draw in a lot. So also a very memorable place it will be made into an ice cream van and I am told the drawings will be preserved.

All the stickers and a good number of spray-painted drawings were my doing. But others were friends.

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[4thdimension]

I know how you must feel i got tons of sketchbooks and notebooks and every single one means a lot to me, so just buy a new one and be more careful not losing it you've learned a lesson : P

[psychoperson25]

Well this isn't the first a teacher in my sophmore year threw away one and I never saw it again.

[4thdimension]

You have no luck then..try to carry them somewhere where you can't lose it and be careful you don't get caught sketching on your classes

[snarfblaster]

Events have no power, only our reactions. It wasn't possessing the sketches that you enjoyed, it was the act of creating them. Luckily, you still have the means to continue creating sketches and plenty of time to do it. SKETCH ON, BRAVE SOUL.

[edibles]

Sounds like me when I lost mine... only I didn't draw, I wrote stories.

[CicatrizESP]

Originally Posted by snarfblaster

Events have no power, only our reactions. It wasn't possessing the sketches that you enjoyed, it was the act of creating them. Luckily, you still have the means to continue creating sketches and plenty of time to do it. SKETCH ON, BRAVE SOUL.

Right on

[psychoperson25]

Part of it was the sketches themselves do but I do enjoy creating them very much I plan on visiting Art Media to get some more supplies and to get another kind of supply soon