Life Dilemma.

[sparkdatzoot]

Ok well thanks in advance to reading this, its a long but hopefully interesting read.

Well, ive been with this girl called jo for 11 months now, so coming upto a year next month. Things are going good, i could honestly say i think i love her. Our relationship has been serious with eachother, we live locally and we see eachother almost every day (we both still live with parents). Now she was the first girl ive been in a proper relationship with, i mean ive had girlfriends and shit since i was 15 but this one actually felt like more. Well, after 3 months of going out with her she stabbed me in the back and got drunk round her friends house and slept with some other boy.

Ok, well that completely and utterley destroyed my will power and confidence in myself and just made me feel like utter shit for the best part of a month near enough constantly thinking about it. Ok, well i thought shit straight up, get rid of her. She begged for me back, literally crying at me, which made me upset because i didnt want to leave her, i just couldnt believe how she could do such a thing to me, especially when she tells me she loves me and wants to be with me for a long time.

Well, we took her back.. taking the chance she would never do it again, and to this day about 9 months later, i still get occasionally paranoid about her because she can seem like quite high maintanence if you get me.

My friend turns 19, has a big party my girl doesnt come, met some girl i used to go to school with who was there and she was HOT. I got on sniff for the first time and i ended up getting off with her but didnt have sex or anything. We sneaked off to where his pool is (big garden) and i lied down on a deck chair and she was sitting ontop of me, like she literally scratched my back with her nails and kissing so hard and fast, it was amazing.

I didnt do it for the reason that i wanted revenge or anything, it felt good at the time, and i had the big rush inside me of almost utter lust and desire for this other girl. It sounds bad but i actually prefer that moment (the feeling) to i do now with my current girlfriend. I mean i love my girlfriend, but it feels so familiar if you understand me.

Well anyway, i took the chance and forgave her, and she forgave me for doing it aswell, only expected to be honest.

Anyway i found my future career yesterday, i went up to the city (london, i live an hour outside of it). And went to look around the best music production college in the country. If i join up for next year (this coming september skl starts.) i would be in london 2 days a week, and back at my area the rest. Well she said to me she doesnt want to be in a relationship with me if im never going to be around after i finish the college (BEAR IN MIND THE COLLEGE COURSE IS 1 POSSIBLY 2 YEARS LONG). Because my dream in life for my career is to ultimately become a DJ/producer, ive been dj'ing for only a year but i would consider myself a high standard.

Is she trying to make me choose between a dream and her?

I said to her "well you have to take the chance jo, i will still be around but you dont know what the future holds, you need to take that jump, because thats what love is, taking a chance on the other person." Surely if we are such a strong bond we could get around whatever, right?

I said i took the chance of forgiving you and taking you back in fear you could do it again and hurt me, when i didnt know.

And she replies well i dont know then.

Help me guys, what should i do? I mean i dont want to leave her because i love her and she understands me for who i am bla bla. Like soul partner shit, i know she feels the same but.. in my own mind i think when i see a sexy momma walk past i wanna get something new to play with like i kinda feel the desire for my mrs is gone, but i still love her, yer sex is still good but i feel like ive completed the game mate.. replaying the same stuff sometimes.

Thanks for reading guys!

[keezylovesdro]

do what you feel is best if you are having doubts and second thoughts its hard to say that its real love and im sure she feels the same way but you gotta think about the future do you think shes gonna be with you through all the struggles later on? or is she just gonna dip out when things get too hard? you have to determine what she would do and weather your happy with the results.

[DrBlunt]

Follow your dream, don't cut your balls off for some bitch.

There's always going to be other women out there.

[cannabisblunt]

how old are you? i am a senior in high school and i just recently had the same decision. i had been dating a girl for a year, and i had to decide between staying in a long distance relationship or moving on when i go to college. i think you should do what feels best. i had a gut feeling that it was time to cut the line, and it worked out for me. talking to parents also helps

[sparkdatzoot]

im 18 man. Nah its not the college she is worried about, she thinks just because i do this im going to be some superstar DJ and never be around, playing at raves till 7am and shit like that...

[cloeman]

You need to forget the relationship and focus on living life...your far too young to be worried about a girl. As a DJ your going to meet a ton of cool people anyway so its good to leave your options open. By the time your 21 youll look back and this whole situation will seem rediculous

[J-Pimp.]

My advice, seperate for now, but make an effort to reconnect after you're done school. If you guys can get back together, then you know it's real.

Also keep in mind how old you are, and if you are already feeling stagnation, then maybe you really arn't life partners?

You have so much mor elife to live, I would say take what you have gained out of this relationship, wish each other well, and part your own ways.

If you two happen to reconnect in the future, then maybe it was meant to be.