not feeling so good, roomate hit me low

[gardenfresh]

okay sorry to the people of GC, but today was not a good day for me, so i thought i'd find recluse in the wonder of the GC forums hoping to make me feel a little better.

okay so me and my roomate, we are VERY different people... but there has always been a common bond holding us together-- weed! he is a 28 year old hardcore familial mexican catholic, and I am a 20 year old stereotypical white pothead.... COMPLETE OPPOSITES.... but, both of us are very big marijuana aficianados.

he is anal, about everyyyyythhinng.

anyhow, we've both been under some emotional and serious financial stress over the past three weeks or so, both of us were out of work. the home enviorment has been getting progressively worse every day as we struggle for steady jobs and some stability. over this time there have been countless fights about who is buying what, how we are spending our time (whether its productive or not), music, etc. we've just been taking out eachothers stress on eachother.

among all this, for the past two months ive been getting mad depressed about being stuck in a dead end job and not having time to go to school. i am a bright, intelligent, young, white male with a world of opportunity, and my poor academic work ethic caught up with. all my friends are away at school, about to be jr's in college, and i'm still stuck at JC.

back to today, i woke up around 12:30 pm and was delighted by a packed bowl my roomate had ready to go. we woke and boke in my car and went back into the house. we immediately felt pretty high, and he STARTED TO CLEAN. sometimes my roomie does some weird shit, like he will get super high then clean the bathroom for three hours.

he starts to clean, and then immediately gets on me about what i need to do for my bedroom. he is downright scaring me at how MAD he is about what a "slob" i am. "whatever do, ill do it just to make u happy/shut u up" is what im thinking. i start to clean my room and i get a call from my best bud who is about to go back to the east coast today, his spring break was ending... so i had to leave to say goodbye one last time.

i said my goodbyes to my roomie, went on my merry way and had a few bowls with my bud, came back home.

when i got home, i could tell my roomie was higher than before. most of the time, he doesn't have kickback highs, the weed just accentuates his emotions and makes them stronger.

it was at this time, he pulls me in and goes "we need to have a talk". he then starts just ranting about all the shit that is bugging him in his life. his lack of job, his money sitch, his siblings, you name it!

THEN he said to me: "you don't get tired of being a fucking pothead? seriously daniel there is ONE dimension to you and thats pot, don't get me wrong i like smoking pot with you, but lately... you know what.... that's the only thing you've been good for is the bud, and it's pissing me off."

i was shocked that he said this, that "all i was good for was smoking marijuana with". nothing could of hurt my feelings more, other than making fun of my parents being divorced or something.

it hurts because that thought has been in my head for the past few months! is there more to me than pot? or am i just a fucking loser who sits around and smokes bud all day. i don't wanna be that guy, in my opinion i have a very productive life.

im just fucking depressed that im wasting away all this intelligence potential when all i had to fucking do was do my homework. i got a 1420 on my SATS, i got a $14,000 scholarship to goto a great school back east, all i had to do was suit up and show up and i failed to do that-- i smoked pot and ditched class instead.

well im at a JC now, barely a sophomore and im spending the night at my dads house just until things cool down with my roomate. i just want to know that i havent been wasting my brain away with pot... i don't feel like i have! i feel like i've been expanding my mind with it, and ive been learning new things about myself and about others and about life. it has done soooooo many positive things for me i cannot list them all, but for some reason my little run in my roomie today just EXPLODED on me and now im completely and utterly depressed.

im done. lol sorry for the long post. comments?

[scoobydooby67]

dude i feel you man.

im in the exact situation (life-wise, not roommate-wise)

hope things get better.

[Bud_Master5]

That's a rough situation, man. Try not to let other people influence your self-image. If you think that you lead a productive life, then youre probably right. Hope things work out well for you.

[blueKush]

do, "what you know you need to do" make a change. . take a t-brake and see where you at in life. set goals and put forth effort to accomplish them. your roommate didn't hit you low he's just probably mad that you're so young and not doing anything with your life and he sees that in you because hes much older than you and he's already been there/still there and the older you get the harder it gets and he sees that. hes sees "in you" what you can't see in yourself and proly hes pissed cause you not doing nothing to change for the better; you dont wanna be in the same place you are now when you're his age make the change while you young(you can still smoke good ole mj) but still take ocassional t-brakes

edit: hope i helped :/

[gardenfresh]

Originally Posted by blueKush

do, "what you know you need to do" make a change. . take a t-brake and see where you at in life. set goals and put forth effort to accomplish them. your roommate didn't hit you low he's just probably mad that you're so young and not doing anything with your life and he sees that in you because hes much older than you and he's already been there/still there and the older you get the harder it gets and he sees that. hes sees "in you" what you can't see in yourself and proly hes pissed cause you not doing nothing to change for the better; you dont wanna be in the same place you are now when you're his age make the change while you young(you can still smoke good ole mj) but still take ocassional t-brakes

edit: hope i helped :/

you're right, I do NOT want to be where i am right now in 8 years lol. sometimes i think to myself that he's a fucking loser, a grown man (who is a virgin i might add) that is hanging out with kids because he has no other friends.

however where he might have some more wisdom with age, he has been so sheltered and just does not get things that i get. he's the kinda guy that his parents beat him and told him not to cry because your a man, whereas im the guy that was taught let your emotions flow and its ok to cry.

i GET alot of things about life more than he does, but you're right.. im sure he see's things in myself that im not able to.

[chicken tava]

nice job with the 1420, Dan

you are def not a bum like this guy says, your 20 years old- i say live it up and get as high as you want fuck him

[lamerkid]

bleh.. i went through/am going through the same thing right now..
roomate problems... ionno man. roomates always end up being bitches for me. so for real dont worry about that.
just focus on bettering your life.
it sounds to me like the roomate has issues. while i understand that it hurts (ive been there too) its not your fault, so try not to worry about it.
if he comes around, he comes around.
if not, then life goes on.

last quarter i smoked everyday.. barely went to class.. got a .66 gpa

this quarter
i still smoke but i go to class and im guessing ill have all As and Bs this quarter.

as far as expanding your mind.. im sure weed has helped you to realize a few things..
i know that for me, even though my grades sucked dick last quarter, i felt like i had learned more about life than the rest of my life combined.
it was nice to just kick back w/ friends
smoke all day and just chill.
however, i also regretted that i wasnt living up to my full potential.

find a balance in your life between weed and school and ull be good.
dont let weed get in the way of your life.
just keep truckin man.. things will work out =]

[gardenfresh]

Originally Posted by lamerkid

bleh.. i went through/am going through the same thing right now..
roomate problems... ionno man. roomates always end up being bitches for me. so for real dont worry about that.
just focus on bettering your life.
it sounds to me like the roomate has issues. while i understand that it hurts (ive been there too) its not your fault, so try not to worry about it.
if he comes around, he comes around.
if not, then life goes on.

last quarter i smoked everyday.. barely went to class.. got a .66 gpa

this quarter
i still smoke but i go to class and im guessing ill have all As and Bs this quarter.

as far as expanding your mind.. im sure weed has helped you to realize a few things..
i know that for me, even though my grades sucked dick last quarter, i felt like i had learned more about life than the rest of my life combined.
it was nice to just kick back w/ friends
smoke all day and just chill.
however, i also regretted that i wasnt living up to my full potential.

find a balance in your life between weed and school and ull be good.
dont let weed get in the way of your life.
just keep truckin man.. things will work out =]

you're right, it's people like me that give pot a bad reputation lol. i just need to start balancing out better and taking a T-break here and there... its been a lonnnngg while....

+rep for you guys for helping.

[NJ Haze]

Well this is what you need to do.

FOCUS ON SCHOOL!!!! Honestly, unless you are getting into a union of some sort, you need school, even then school would still help an assload. focus on your school work and keep your grades up, and when you can try and transfer out to a real 4 year college, or even a community college. If you have a dead end job and cant get another, just set a couple dollars away from each paycheck and put it in a box, dont touch that box at all, dont even count it, you'll be surprised at what you find in a couple of months.

All in all bro, keep your head up. Have a talk with your room-mate, respectfully. its the only way you 2 are going to understand each other without ripping each others heads off. And if you need ask for help, help each other out..

Take it easy man, good luck with shit.

[waterhurley]

hey man. i know how this goes. im at a similar point in mylife. im 20 years old as well, i graduated hisgh school with a 1.8gpa and signed up for community college and didnt even go. so i skipped 2 semesters.

i live wiht my dad, and we smoke daily. i smoke about an 8th ever 2-3 days (depending on work). i have a very decent job now (which i almost didnt get because of the piss test and i was an idiot about it) that i can see myself being at for some time.

i was involved in a motorcycle accident back in november. ever since then my life have been a downward spiral. im over $21,000 in debit becasue i had to have multiple surgerys, and through everything i had no health insurance because i chose not to go to school. Also when the accident happened i was in transition of jobs (basicly i didnt have one).


so although i dont share a crazy roomie, i can say my life about pot has felt the same way. i feel like it got in the middle of school and i didnt go becasue of it. i did go for a semester of school and did fairly well grade wise (averaging a 2.9 gpa).

i dunno i guess after reading ur post i feel u man hardcore and know what dilema your in with your life about pot. so i guess i just posted letting you know, i can relate.

sucks dude. but also dont let ur roomie get the best of you, which it sounds like happened. im 5' 9" 145 lbs pale ass white boy with 0 tollerence for people bullshit. so stick up for yourself if you have to. just dont let it get crazy.

[PrimaryLotus]

Pot has nothing to do with your work ethic. Barack Obama smoked pot when he was in college, and went on to become president of the Harvard Law Club. If you feel that its making your life stagnant then quit for a little while. You said you're under financial stress lately, so quitting smoking would only help that situation out. You might be pissed off for the first couple of days, but that'll pass.

[T3h C0rps3]

I think your roommate was right and wrong at the same time. The way he came at you about the subject was totally messed, and I think he owes you a HUGE apology for that. But I'm sure in his mind, he was thinking that it was the only way to get the point across. He knows you are a bright young man and perhaps he would like to see you going to that danky college.

My opinion.... unless you need mariJ for meds, don't depend on it to expand your mind. I know what you are saying when you said that, because I feel the exact same way, but right now, I am laid off, and having troubles finding a job... bills are stacking up, and I haven't smoke for 2 weeks, because I know almost every damn job does UA's, and I need a job before I can smoke again, that's what i told myself.

Just set up your priorities and everything will be straight for you in the end. and I guarantee you that if you set up your priorities correctly to fit what you want to become in life, MJ can be right up at the top of it, along with a great college, great grades, and later in life a great job.

believe me, life is full of.... bad things, one after another... my wife and I have found that out, and we are still finding out, but I have set out my priorities, and I am sure some people are not going to like what I have to say, but I'm going to say it. My wifes brother and mom smoke weed everyday, and she hates it because they are closest to her heart, so I told her that I would only smoke when doing it socially, like with friends over, or chillin at my homies house. making her mad is like disrupting the space-time continuum, ya just don't wanna do that! so I set up my priorities, and I have also found that since I have been smoking not as often, my highs have increased once again! WOOHOOO

I hope I have helped you out, and I am glad that you have gotten so many responses from others. remember, we are all family, and always here to help.


PS... find a new roomie, that dudes gotta go! hahahah

[C-Town]

it's up to you to determine what kind of "user" you are

a bum or a bathroom cleaning freak.

i choose to take my high to new levels by doing things that challenge me and help in the long run. do something productive when your up, even reading becomes an intense hobby after a good hit.

im not sure what motivates you to do good in school or go out and get a good job, but think about that when you smoke,stay up

edit: oh yeah, your roomate is not supposed to be smoking weed, you see how he turns when he smokes. leave that man alone

[gardenfresh]

Originally Posted by C-Town

edit: oh yeah, your roomate is not supposed to be smoking weed, you see how he turns when he smokes. leave that man alone

that is SO true. man pot just doesnt do to him what it's supposed to do to people. lol +rep for the laugh.

[Cali Ounces]

Originally Posted by gardenfresh

I am a 20 year old stereotypical white pothead

is that really how you see yourself?