what happens when you read a 5 year old psych evalution...

[Retroshark]

so i finally got access to my own psycological evaluation, done in 2002 when i was 14-15.

after years, i had never seen the definative results and just been given little bits of info on what it contained. well, tonight my mom decided to share with me that she thought i needed help with my anxiety, and that she could see how bad it had gotten since the last time i saw her (winter break)

so, after talking about that for a good hour, she decided to give me my psych eval from years ago. well, just for starters, i was right, i have ADHD-I, OCD and an NOS learning disorder.

here are my scores for the various tests which make up the evluation, in all cases, numbers below 35 and above 65 are considered to be concerns.

oppositional=66
cognitive problems/inattention=75
hyperactivity=90
anxiety=90
perfectionism=45
social problems=60
psychosomatic=73
ADHD Index=80
Restless/impulsive index=83
emotional liabiility index=67
total= 82
innatentive=72
hyperactive- impulsive=84
TOTAL= 80


so yea, pretty interesting stuff. i need to get an updated evaluation done for school, so i can possibly get aaround 4 semesters of a foreign language, a major learning issue that was raised in the test, as well as maths, which falls under the same category i beleive.

the tests also go in depth into my issues with restlessness, giving credibility to the horrible shaking in my legs i cannot avoid, as well as my horrible OCD, which is described in great detail in the diagnosis.

im pretty shocked seeing some of the results, and seeing a written diagnosis that i should have been medicated and seeing someone concerning OCD, ADHD and the learning issue. that was all stuff i had a feeling about, but seeing it written is a whole different thing. now i know for sure that there is credibility behind what ive been saying for years, and now i can go and see someone about it, knowing all the information and actually start doing something about it.

needless to say, my anxiety has worstened noticeably in the last few months, let alone years since this test was taken, and that is really the main concern for me. my anxiety is the route of nearly all my issues, and now i may be able to do something to better that. the OCD, while not something id be medicated for, is also something i want help with. just knowing this all will help when i actually try to get help for it. its hard to describe what is wrong with you when what is wrong is thought to be normal for so long, and rationalized for.

pretty crazy.

[GolgiApparatus]

booiii yooo is craaayyyzeee

btw heres a tip: Alot of psychiatrists over-prescribe and over-diagnose for financial reasons

[Rhythm of Life]

That makes me want to go find my old evaluations. I wonder what my psychiatrist thought back in the day. But then again maybe not knowing is best ...

[Retroshark]

of course they do... this test was expensive if i remember, but it voices legitimate concerns that i had myself, and all i want help with is my anxiety, i feel i can manage the rest as i have done so far, but it would be great to actually get prescribed something like a benzo instead of having to buy it black market. i guarantee if i was prescribed clonaezepam or xanax i wouldnt buy it at all.

[Retroshark]

Originally Posted by Rhythm of Life

That makes me want to go find my old evaluations. I wonder what my psychiatrist thought back in the day. But then again maybe not knowing is best ...

not knowing seemed to work well for me for a while, but now knowing is mroe important that trying to fight things on my own.

[KittensOnPCP]

If your doctor is anything like mine, he or she would put you on an anti-depressant, and a stimulant. By the way - try and stay away from the benzos for me. I know that I have killed many brain cells from benzos and I used to have a real problem back when I was prescribed them... for sleeping. I honestly believe I was horribly addicted and took them waay too much. 17 Klonipin in 1 day and getting sent home from school for not being able to remember my own name to type in on the computer is really shitty.

Good luck with whatever you decide to do.

[Retroshark]

well, see my thing here is the fact that i found benzos before i knew what they were prescribed for. i tried valium first, in a tiny dose, then xanax, then klonpin. since xanax is what i could get most easily, i self medicated for this year so far with xanax, starting with occasional usage which lead me to start taking it daily. while i did abuse it at first, due to the fact there was a high to be attained from it, i eventually lost most of that capability, and realized that it was impacting me. lowering to only a few mg, mainly between 2-5 a day i was able to function without impairment from anxiety, and not be so carefree or dosed up that it woudl also affect me.

im certainly not going to suggest to my doctor, or doctor shop til i get put on something, but i certainly will try what is offered as a solution in all cases. the only thing i will not do is take a stimulant or an anti depressant. while i may be depressed, i dont feel i need medication for it. if the medication specifically addresses the anxiety then thas fine, no matter what type of medicine it is.

right now, i know what works, and have instituted a system for the ammounts i would take for legitimate usage, and had success. while that is something that i may not disclose to a doctor, especially one who would be prescribing drugs, i do feel that its something that needs to be changed. i dont want to continue to have to buy xanax in order to be able to focus in classes or be sociable, id rather be guided by a doctor in that area. it may warrant the exact same treatment, but its certainly not for me to decide which medication it should be, espeically when it comes to benzos.

[GhengisChron]

retroshark- is that a dilaudid in your avy?

good stuff.

[Retroshark]

nah its a white motorola from earlier this year