Today's gonna be a GREAT day!

[theVirtuoso]

or not... this is a long rant btw, so I appreciate it dearly if you read it. I made some of the more rambling parts more evident so you can skip if you so choose, i just wanna get the story across.

Woke up, gotta go to my parents house to check on the animals as they are out of town.

Dog pissed + shit on the floor, she stepped in both and tracked it nicely over the carpet and wood floor.

the Cat, i'll give a tiny backround, is a diabetic and gets shots every morning, but for some reason (maybe too much/not enough insulin, bad shot placements, bad reaction) every now and then, its pretty rare, he goes blind for the day, usually like 10 hours. Well you guessed it... this dimwit is stumbling around. His food is up on the counter, and I guess he smelled it because he tried going up the counter (funny actually, don't hate at me for laughing at the blind cat, you would too, he's perfectly fine.)

The only problem here is he is trying to jump up on the garbage... knocks it right over and spills all the garbage ON TOP of the dog's mess, which BTW she also knocked over her food dish spilling the food in that spot too.

So after a VERY stressful cleanup, I decided I would relieve that stress by hopping on the drumset (I keep my set there, live in an apartment). I get a glass of water and head up.

Now... i'v been on a new medication called BuSpar as a helper (lasts 24 hours) to my klonopin for anxiety (I'm sure all of you want to stop right here and say something like "Stick with the green" but I really don't care to hear it, just let me rant). So far since May of 07 iv had more than enough medications tried, and the only one that truely is effective (that's legal meaning actually prescribed, not just weed) has been Klonopin.

Well over time your liver learns to destroy the Klonopin, making it less and less effective, it could even it time make you immune in a way to it, as it would completely destroy all of the med.

Sooo, going in I was expecting higher kpin dosages( which i'll either get, or another new med when i see him VERY soon), walked out with an added script of buspar (still have klonopin <3).

Well I have noticed side effects, as usual. I naturally over-analyze any feeling within my body/mind so I notice them more, but can easily put them off; however, this... this I cannot stand.

Iv been getting a lot of short-lasting dizziness/lightheadedness, but nothin TOO serious, but definitely noticeable. I have been unbelievably clumsy, and I have never in my life been a clumsy person.

The most noticeable thing BY FAR, is the blurred vision. I definitely still have it, when it first happened I thought my contacts fell out it was so bad (I have absolutely terrible vision), now its much more subtle. I actually forgot about it until just now when the text kinda scewed and ghosted.

Back to the clumsiness, I have been dropping and knocking things over like crazy. Some of you may have seen my thead about my Broken Bong Bowl. Well that's one casuality, heh, and I thought it was the klonopin... definitely not.

because of, or related to that iv been falling/stumbling quite often. Every single time I have had a wall, railing, or something else to stop myself from going down, but it all happens so fast I can't even think and it's just reaction. Right after I just keep walking and it seems so surreal like it didn't even happen (Some of you may know: You're doing something extremely repetitive, in this case walking, and something interrupts the process very shortly, only a second or a few, and you go directly back to whatever repetitive task you were doing, and it almost seems like a dream, as though it never happened). I don't experience any dizziness, lightheadedness or any other symptoms before, i pretty much just collapse.

Back to the story, some of you, well, most of you forgot: I was about to hop on the drumset and had a glass of water I was sippin on.

More backround story: This drumset is one of my loves. When I first saw it years and years ago in the shop I immediately fell in love with it and knew I had to have it. I don't remember how much later it was, at least a month, there was a sale coming up. We've been goin to that place for years already so Chris (the guy who ALWAYS worked there, chill guy) said he would give us the sale price right there like 2 weeks before the sale, and we accepted. Getting that set was definitely, without a doubt, one of the happiest moments of my childhood, and not too brag, but to add to the story, all together after buying the cymbal set and extra stands too it was ~$4,000 worth of equipment, definitely not a toy.

So here I am, directly next to my drumset and my dresser, and out of nowhere it happens again.... Why, OH WHY couldn't I fall into the dresser... actually that dresser has a broken leg gorilla glued together, i dont thing that would have been good either.

Couldn't even think, it all happened so fast... only thing that came to mind was "OMG My DRUMS!!!"

BOOM! CRASH! I fall right into the hihat and it just dominos with me toppling over everything... clash after clash a part of me died each time, and then... oh yes... my freakin hand!

The Glass shattered, and left ashitload of tiny tiny ass cuts all over my left palm. It just pisses me off and annoys me that after all that BS I gotta sit here feeling like all over my palm is getting poked constantly with 1000 tiny needles. Luckily at least they are just tiny cuts, nothing severe like when i sliced my forefinger when i broke my downstem (ohhh man that was like... down to the bone almost) and will heal fast.

The worst part is i'v only been up a few hours, so my day is JUST beginning...

Just had to get all that hate out.

So can move on with the love...

[FrostAie]

Sorry to hear about that. My grandma has a diabetic cat and it does the same shit go blind for hours. It is a mute cat to and doesn't meow or anything. Thats what those drugs do to you they kinda make you in a hazy daze and it does mess with coordination. The best treatment is lots of exercise and weed... well that is what works for me. I hope your hand heals I once fell off a second story porch while drunk and landed on all fours and fucked up my wrist and cut my hand so bad i had to go to the hospital. Just try to watch out for potential things that could get in your way

[theVirtuoso]

Originally Posted by FrostAie

Sorry to hear about that. My grandma has a diabetic cat and it does the same shit go blind for hours. It is a mute cat to and doesn't meow or anything. Thats what those drugs do to you they kinda make you in a hazy daze and it does mess with coordination. The best treatment is lots of exercise and weed... well that is what works for me. I hope your hand heals I once fell off a second story porch while drunk and landed on all fours and fucked up my wrist and cut my hand so bad i had to go to the hospital. Just try to watch out for potential things that could get in your way

Thanks for the goob vibes, man. Much much appreciated

Iv definitely calmed down, writing that helped greatly, so if you guys have some rage building, LET IT OUT! (but don't go and do something you'll regret of course)

I picked my set up of course, but I was too busy with my hand to clean the glass, and it's still there... gotta go back and clean it before the parents get back, but I got plenty of time (no possible way the animals can get in there, so don't worry)

Keep Spreadin'

'Dem Good Vibes

Poor guy. I hope your drums aren't damaged...and even if they are, I hope it's an easy fix.
I've certainly had days like that and it really works to just chill and convince myself that everything is gonna get better.
It's good that you're checking up on your pets though. You did what your parents asked you to do, and avoided an even bigger mess (let's say the dog or cat gets some poo on it's fur and rubs against your drums..or worse.)
I've got a blind kitty...it's sad and I feel sorry for her, but she was born that way, and is adjusting very well.
Hope your day gets a lot lot better.

[theVirtuoso]

Originally Posted by Pink Oddity

Poor guy. I hope your drums aren't damaged...and even if they are, I hope it's an easy fix.
I've certainly had days like that and it really works to just chill and convince myself that everything is gonna get better.
It's good that you're checking up on your pets though. You did what your parents asked you to do, and avoided an even bigger mess (let's say the dog or cat gets some poo on it's fur and rubs against your drums..or worse.)
I've got a blind kitty...it's sad and I feel sorry for her, but she was born that way, and is adjusting very well.
Hope your day gets a lot lot better.

again, appreciate the good vibes, and you're right... it's just all about keepin your mind off it and thinking positive, but damn do i still feel like a zombie from the meds.

Well day really didn't get better, but w/e.

had like 20 people call me for pills/weed but i didnt have any or cash for some myself, went to a party... only drink there and i was like fuck that, party sucked so i left... very quickly. Drove around until I realized i didn't wanna drive in my current state, and wound up at a friends place playing poker where i lost an undisclosed amount of $$, lets just say it was all my extra cash.

but like you said, you just gotta keep your head up... all that shit, its w/e... it all passes and you move on, can't get stuck in the past.

[theVirtuoso]

Wow!

everything just turned around!

I was cleanin up my room some while my food was in the oven, and I saw something in my bubbler filled with ash... green! The bowl was a good 3/4 of the way smoked, but I sitll got a BIG, VERY NICE hit from it and oh man am I soooo chillin.

But wait, it gets even better!

I lifted up the frisbee next to it (breaking up tray) and low and behold there was a roach sittin right there!

I was lookin for that 2 days ago and figured I must have smoked it.

Woot!

only downside to things right now is
1. Food fuckin came out of the oven cold... REALLY pissed me off because it looked so good and i could finally eat, haven't eaten in like 2-3 days (not including a few crackers)
2. Since I just finished an Adderall binge my heart rate is up really high, as expected. Been over 100 easy all day, normally around 115-120. Blood Pressure is definitely higher, but not threatening, however I have not checked it since I smoked and I definitely know it's up there as always after smoking, but i'm fine.

Well, I still got a roach to smoke, Peace GC!

Keep Spreadin'

'Dem Good Vibes

Awesome, dude

[Cali Ounces]

that part about the cat is fuckin hilarious.

[ACole420]

Damn dude that story was fucking crazy. Sorry to hear about your drum set and hand. You need to smoke a fat j after something like that happens.

[J-Pimp.]

Man that is a fucking ROUGH series of events.

Good vibes are coming from me, and i hope all that bad energy around ya turns around and you get that oh so sweet positive side or karma.

[420THC]

stupid

[noonecares]

Originally Posted by 420THC

stupid

was that necesary?

anyways cool story.. interesting read, i'm sorry bout the bowl btw.

[420THC]

Originally Posted by noonecares

was that necesary?

anyways cool story.. interesting read, i'm sorry bout the bowl btw.

woah. i dont even remember posting that