Adderall: A Long-Winded Experience and Caution

headbucket · #1 (**permalink**) 04-25-2008, 06:58 AM

This post is not meant in anyway to insult those among us who chose to expand our psychoactive chemical experiences beyond those of the wonderful tetrahydrocannabinol. I am one of those people myself, as I have experimented with numerous substances. Many of these I can look back on with no regret, knowing that the benefits of the reality they produced can never be outweighed by whatever harm they have done to my body. However, their is one drug in particular that I wish I had never encountered. Adderall has ruined me.

Seeing as finals approach those of us currently taking classes, I thought this would be an appropriate time to post such a topic. I started taking Adderall regularly about four months ago when I finally got curious enough about my girlfriend's overflowing prescription. Because of severe mental illness (diagnoses including Schizophrenia, Bipolar, and Morbid-Thought Disorder), my girlfriend has been prescribed an unbelievable variety and quantity of pharmaceuticals. Until recently, I had kept a fair distance from her meds. Mostly because I would have felt disrespectful in using her much needed medicine for recreational purposes. Regardless, I eventually asked if I could use some of her ADHD amphetamines... just to see what it was like. I LOVED IT.

Adderall made me the person I always wanted to be. Friendly, active, and studious. When I took it, I never just wanted to watch TV. I wanted to write something. I wanted to go for a run. I wanted to engage in an argument. For the first few weeks, it gave me an incredible euphoria, but as I took it more the effects became less noticeable. I began buying from other sources as well as stealing absurd amounts of Adderall from my girlfriend, something I will never understand. I justified this stealing by reassuring myself she had more than she needed (she hates to use it, and only does when she has to). I ended up taking 75-100 mg at a time nearly every day of the week. If one day it happened I did not have it, it was not going to be a good day. I would sleep and eat. That is it. I attempt to quit almost every week, with the longest break being three days long. Somehow, I can always convince myself that one more day is all I need.

After two or three months of consistent use, I was admitted twice to the ER for panic attacks. Something I had never had a problem with before. I also experience extreme paranoia often when outside of my home. I am in fear of being attacked by others. I have to look behind me when I pass someone on the sidewalk. I assume the guy behind the counter has his finger on the trigger of his pistol. My mind fabricates ridiculous stories with no basis in logic.

Adderall does next to nothing for me now. The motivation, energy, and sense of well being it used to provide are nearly undetectable. I find myself sinking into deep depressive states, with and without the amphetamines inside of me. I never thought a drug could have this kind of a hold on me.

I realize that my situation is somewhat unique with a constant supply, but I still felt it necessary to give the warning to others. Adderall is amazing, and it only took one pill to let me know that. I just wish I could have been smart about it. With finals approaching, I am sure to use my fair share this coming week. I know that a number of you will do the same. But do yourself a favor if you have to use it and leave it alone for a while after the exam.

(I appreciate the patience of anyone who got through all that)

Ntak · #2 (**permalink**) 04-25-2008, 07:01 AM

I get an aderall from my friend if i need to clean my house its all done and sometimes redesigned in one day...i could build a fuckin house if you give me enough aderall

jcmartin86 · #3 (**permalink**) 04-25-2008, 07:05 AM

That sounds so amazing and so terrible all at once.

LordChronicx · #4 (**permalink**) 04-25-2008, 07:31 AM

I use Aderall for two things, and two things only - Studying, and doing detailing work (On vehicles)

I absolutely HATE the way I feel while im on Adderall, but I absolutely LOVE it at the same time.

I feel a bit anxious and have way to much energy, but at the same time - when It comes to Adderall, I understand the amount of work I can get done in 5-6 hours.... Its ridiculous really.

Like, The anxious kind of energetic paranoia I get is overshadowed by my productivity, and thats the reason I use it.

I'd like to think I'll never have the problem the OP has, but who knows what can happen

Thanks for the thread, OP! Adderall is one drug I never really saw myself or anyone else getting addicted to, but I guess its possible. Gonna have to keep an eye on myself now

Especially because of how easy it is to get ahold of some, one of my buddies sells me them at $1 a pop for the 30mg capsules....No idea how that price is...

Whats the going price for aderall?

tiny_riots · #5 (**permalink**) 04-25-2008, 07:40 AM

This post came at the perfect time for me. I waited until THE VERY LAST MINUTE to write a five page paper for art, so I took a 5mg XR pill (Yes, 5 mg. Stimulants work REALLY well for me.) at around 10:30PM.

It's just after midnight and I feel like I'm going in fast forward. I know I'm going to be up all night and I'm not looking forward to that.

However, I've cranked out three pages during that time, sooo...........

headbucket · #6 (**permalink**) 04-25-2008, 07:48 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by LordChronicx

I absolutely HATE the way I feel while im on Adderall, but I absolutely LOVE it at the same time.

Exactly how I feel.

Quote:

Originally Posted by LordChronicx

Whats the going price for aderall?

I've bought it for up to $5.50 for a 25mg pill, but I live on a university campus so I assume prices are jacked way up.

#7 (**permalink**) 04-25-2008, 07:53 AM

lol no shit thats what happens when you do too much of any drug.

especially drugs that you aren't prescribed.

i am prescribed adderall, and i take my normal dosage, i work better and more efficiently because of it. Not because of being sped up on amphetamines, but because I'm ADD. I can take 100 mg's of adderall and still be calm and collected, it simply does not do the same thing to me as it does to people that aren't ADD.

people who steal prescription drugs that they aren't prescribed is a low, low, low thing to do.

If we run out of our little pills, we feel like shit for as long as we don't have it. Kinda like withdraw.

headbucket · #8 (**permalink**) 04-25-2008, 04:58 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by CoinOpBoy

i am prescribed adderall, and i take my normal dosage, i work better and more efficiently because of it. Not because of being sped up on amphetamines, but because I'm ADD. I can take 100 mg's of adderall and still be calm and collected, it simply does not do the same thing to me as it does to people that aren't ADD.

So is your "normal dosage" 100 mgs? Also, I would just like to point out the fact that ADD medication is vastly over prescribed. I'm not saying anything for any particular person (I know my girlfriend would never accomplish anything without it). I'm just saying that just because somebody has a prescription doesn't really mean that person needs it. I have seen several of my friends obtain prescriptions, many of whom simply have motivational problems.

hypertensionn · #9 (**permalink**) 04-25-2008, 05:28 PM

I'm curious, I've been prescribed methylphenidate and took all 30 in about 3 weeks. The effects did gradually subside but I did notice that I was lasstired and more productive even though I wasn't high. When I ran out I just didn't take it, and I felt fine, the only thing was that I kind of felt like I was going crazy for a little bit, in the sense that regular things were sort of alien to me. but other than that I was good I didn't drug seek or anything.
I am however going back to the doctor soon and I think I'll be asking for some adderall.

Is adderall alot worse than ritain as far as the after effects go?

RavenousDank · #10 (**permalink**) 04-25-2008, 05:32 PM

similar thing happen to me, except span it over 2 1/2 years, i'd usually be on 30xr a day, if I skipped a day, it would be another day that I wouldn't be able to reach my full potential. Now before I go to college i'm extremely worried that if I do not have some adhd medication i'm going to fail..

but I believe to my heart that if was to be prescribed an adhd med I will run through college like its nothing. I believe that a adhd med will help me to reach my full potential. I actually prefer concerta over anything, due to its tolerance factor, and side effects.

right now after 3 months i have taken a small 30mg vyvance, I feel calm, focused, and ready to tackle..nearly everyday I think about 'speed' (just any adhd med)I'm just so nervous that if a doc will not precribe me an adhd med then i'll just go and fail..I do'nt have a job now and I do'nt go to school. so I don't need to have any med, so I can't 'complain' to the doc about my inattentiveness (true)

#11 (**permalink**) 04-25-2008, 08:18 PM

yeah i hate and love the shit. ive been off it all year (somehow) but this shit is mad addictive. the side-effects are really nasty; anxiety, panic, paranoia, physical symptoms (sweating, high BP, tooth grinding, etc) i hated that shit. the worst part for me was the comedowns. i would feel so depressed.

Codone · #12 (**permalink**) 04-26-2008, 12:00 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by headbucket

So is your "normal dosage" 100 mgs? Also, I would just like to point out the fact that ADD medication is vastly over prescribed. I'm not saying anything for any particular person (I know my girlfriend would never accomplish anything without it). I'm just saying that just because somebody has a prescription doesn't really mean that person needs it. I have seen several of my friends obtain prescriptions, many of whom simply have motivational problems.

Hey man I have some advice to give you that you probably will want to hear.

Like you I took 100 - 150 mgs a day for about a month but overall my use was for about 4 months. It really had an effect on my health and mental state. My 4 month addy binge fucked me over so hard that one day I just stopped because I was developing fevers no matter what dose I took.

That was about six months ago and these are the side effects I still have:

I developed anxiety and odd twitches. I get nervous so easily and I scan every person I pass because Im suspicious of them. Sometimes my voice gets shaky when Im nervous which sucks.

Amphs fuck with your dopamine hardcore, and I found out the hard way that you need every bit of dopamine going in your brain.

BlazinX1 · #13 (**permalink**) 04-26-2008, 12:28 AM

I got a good hookup for adderall and bought a supply enough to last my entire senior year for me and my ex-girlfriend.

I would take some every day unless I forgot, or wanted to save them up for other days. I rationed myself to one a day, so if I wanted to geek out all night on friday I would save them from the other days on the week

I loved it, still do, would get some if I could find them.

Only thing that sucks is I can barely write anymore (exageration) but my hands shake alot

EuDxKing · #14 (**permalink**) 04-26-2008, 01:26 AM

Really sorry to hear how you are suffering with this.
I wish i knew what to tell you.

killachronic · #15 (**permalink**) 04-26-2008, 01:45 AM

Yeh I took them on and off for about 2 years. I recently started having panic attacks which I had never experienced before and decided to quit taking them. Im guessing that is what caused them. I don't think ive ever exceeded 60mg a day, but I have taken my fair share. I hate the teeth grinding shit too, it bothers me worse when im coming off of the addies then when I used to be rolling my nuts off.

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#1 (permalink) 04-25-2008, 06:58 AM
headbucket Registered User Join Date: Sep 2007 Posts: 117	Adderall: A Long-Winded Experience and Caution This post is not meant in anyway to insult those among us who chose to expand our psychoactive chemical experiences beyond those of the wonderful tetrahydrocannabinol. I am one of those people myself, as I have experimented with numerous substances. Many of these I can look back on with no regret, knowing that the benefits of the reality they produced can never be outweighed by whatever harm they have done to my body. However, their is one drug in particular that I wish I had never encountered. Adderall has ruined me. Seeing as finals approach those of us currently taking classes, I thought this would be an appropriate time to post such a topic. I started taking Adderall regularly about four months ago when I finally got curious enough about my girlfriend's overflowing prescription. Because of severe mental illness (diagnoses including Schizophrenia, Bipolar, and Morbid-Thought Disorder), my girlfriend has been prescribed an unbelievable variety and quantity of pharmaceuticals. Until recently, I had kept a fair distance from her meds. Mostly because I would have felt disrespectful in using her much needed medicine for recreational purposes. Regardless, I eventually asked if I could use some of her ADHD amphetamines... just to see what it was like. I LOVED IT. Adderall made me the person I always wanted to be. Friendly, active, and studious. When I took it, I never just wanted to watch TV. I wanted to write something. I wanted to go for a run. I wanted to engage in an argument. For the first few weeks, it gave me an incredible euphoria, but as I took it more the effects became less noticeable. I began buying from other sources as well as stealing absurd amounts of Adderall from my girlfriend, something I will never understand. I justified this stealing by reassuring myself she had more than she needed (she hates to use it, and only does when she has to). I ended up taking 75-100 mg at a time nearly every day of the week. If one day it happened I did not have it, it was not going to be a good day. I would sleep and eat. That is it. I attempt to quit almost every week, with the longest break being three days long. Somehow, I can always convince myself that one more day is all I need. After two or three months of consistent use, I was admitted twice to the ER for panic attacks. Something I had never had a problem with before. I also experience extreme paranoia often when outside of my home. I am in fear of being attacked by others. I have to look behind me when I pass someone on the sidewalk. I assume the guy behind the counter has his finger on the trigger of his pistol. My mind fabricates ridiculous stories with no basis in logic. Adderall does next to nothing for me now. The motivation, energy, and sense of well being it used to provide are nearly undetectable. I find myself sinking into deep depressive states, with and without the amphetamines inside of me. I never thought a drug could have this kind of a hold on me. I realize that my situation is somewhat unique with a constant supply, but I still felt it necessary to give the warning to others. Adderall is amazing, and it only took one pill to let me know that. I just wish I could have been smart about it. With finals approaching, I am sure to use my fair share this coming week. I know that a number of you will do the same. But do yourself a favor if you have to use it and leave it alone for a while after the exam. (I appreciate the patience of anyone who got through all that) Last edited by headbucket; 04-25-2008 at 07:04 AM.

#2 (permalink) 04-25-2008, 07:01 AM
Ntak Registered User Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: Minnesmoka Posts: 121	I get an aderall from my friend if i need to clean my house its all done and sometimes redesigned in one day...i could build a fuckin house if you give me enough aderall

#3 (permalink) 04-25-2008, 07:05 AM
jcmartin86 somewhere ova the rainbow Join Date: Aug 2007 Location: Up Nort' Posts: 2,475	That sounds so amazing and so terrible all at once. __________________

#4 (permalink) 04-25-2008, 07:31 AM
LordChronicx Registered User Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: SD Posts: 318	I use Aderall for two things, and two things only - Studying, and doing detailing work (On vehicles) I absolutely HATE the way I feel while im on Adderall, but I absolutely LOVE it at the same time. I feel a bit anxious and have way to much energy, but at the same time - when It comes to Adderall, I understand the amount of work I can get done in 5-6 hours.... Its ridiculous really. Like, The anxious kind of energetic paranoia I get is overshadowed by my productivity, and thats the reason I use it. I'd like to think I'll never have the problem the OP has, but who knows what can happen Thanks for the thread, OP! Adderall is one drug I never really saw myself or anyone else getting addicted to, but I guess its possible. Gonna have to keep an eye on myself now Especially because of how easy it is to get ahold of some, one of my buddies sells me them at $1 a pop for the 30mg capsules....No idea how that price is... Whats the going price for aderall?

#5 (permalink) 04-25-2008, 07:40 AM
tiny_riots Seedless Join Date: Jul 2007 Posts: 353	This post came at the perfect time for me. I waited until THE VERY LAST MINUTE to write a five page paper for art, so I took a 5mg XR pill (Yes, 5 mg. Stimulants work REALLY well for me.) at around 10:30PM. It's just after midnight and I feel like I'm going in fast forward. I know I'm going to be up all night and I'm not looking forward to that. However, I've cranked out three pages during that time, sooo........... __________________ Fine.

#7 (permalink) 04-25-2008, 07:53 AM
CoinOpBoy Guest Posts: n/a	lol no shit thats what happens when you do too much of any drug. especially drugs that you aren't prescribed. i am prescribed adderall, and i take my normal dosage, i work better and more efficiently because of it. Not because of being sped up on amphetamines, but because I'm ADD. I can take 100 mg's of adderall and still be calm and collected, it simply does not do the same thing to me as it does to people that aren't ADD. people who steal prescription drugs that they aren't prescribed is a low, low, low thing to do. If we run out of our little pills, we feel like shit for as long as we don't have it. Kinda like withdraw. Last edited by CoinOpBoy; 04-25-2008 at 07:58 AM.

#9 (permalink) 04-25-2008, 05:28 PM
hypertensionn Registered User Join Date: Mar 2008 Posts: 116	I'm curious, I've been prescribed methylphenidate and took all 30 in about 3 weeks. The effects did gradually subside but I did notice that I was lasstired and more productive even though I wasn't high. When I ran out I just didn't take it, and I felt fine, the only thing was that I kind of felt like I was going crazy for a little bit, in the sense that regular things were sort of alien to me. but other than that I was good I didn't drug seek or anything. I am however going back to the doctor soon and I think I'll be asking for some adderall. Is adderall alot worse than ritain as far as the after effects go? Last edited by hypertensionn; 04-25-2008 at 05:32 PM. Reason: Fucked up sepiiling lol

#10 (permalink) 04-25-2008, 05:32 PM
RavenousDank sober Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: GA Posts: 2,283	similar thing happen to me, except span it over 2 1/2 years, i'd usually be on 30xr a day, if I skipped a day, it would be another day that I wouldn't be able to reach my full potential. Now before I go to college i'm extremely worried that if I do not have some adhd medication i'm going to fail.. but I believe to my heart that if was to be prescribed an adhd med I will run through college like its nothing. I believe that a adhd med will help me to reach my full potential. I actually prefer concerta over anything, due to its tolerance factor, and side effects. right now after 3 months i have taken a small 30mg vyvance, I feel calm, focused, and ready to tackle..nearly everyday I think about 'speed' (just any adhd med)I'm just so nervous that if a doc will not precribe me an adhd med then i'll just go and fail..I do'nt have a job now and I do'nt go to school. so I don't need to have any med, so I can't 'complain' to the doc about my inattentiveness (true) __________________

#11 (permalink) 04-25-2008, 08:18 PM
deezy Guest Posts: n/a	yeah i hate and love the shit. ive been off it all year (somehow) but this shit is mad addictive. the side-effects are really nasty; anxiety, panic, paranoia, physical symptoms (sweating, high BP, tooth grinding, etc) i hated that shit. the worst part for me was the comedowns. i would feel so depressed.

#13 (permalink) 04-26-2008, 12:28 AM
BlazinX1 Banned Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: mAsSaChUsEtTs Posts: 1,544	I got a good hookup for adderall and bought a supply enough to last my entire senior year for me and my ex-girlfriend. I would take some every day unless I forgot, or wanted to save them up for other days. I rationed myself to one a day, so if I wanted to geek out all night on friday I would save them from the other days on the week I loved it, still do, would get some if I could find them. Only thing that sucks is I can barely write anymore (exageration) but my hands shake alot

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#14 (permalink) 04-26-2008, 01:26 AM
EuDxKing Am i here? Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: Garden Of Eden Posts: 2,585	Really sorry to hear how you are suffering with this. I wish i knew what to tell you. __________________ ~The Opposite of War isn't PEACE, its CREATION~

#15 (permalink) 04-26-2008, 01:45 AM
killachronic Registered User Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 122	Yeh I took them on and off for about 2 years. I recently started having panic attacks which I had never experienced before and decided to quit taking them. Im guessing that is what caused them. I don't think ive ever exceeded 60mg a day, but I have taken my fair share. I hate the teeth grinding shit too, it bothers me worse when im coming off of the addies then when I used to be rolling my nuts off.