Adderall: A Long-Winded Experience and Caution

[keef420]

the first time i took adderall

it was great..

cleaned the whole house, finished all of my homework, went to workout, fixed my computer, and had some interesting convos w/ some pretty rad ppl

although it would be something thta i would not take regulalrly

b/c i have heard some stories of people that cant get off of it..

[EuDxKing]

It seems like this kind of stuff would be handy to have if you want to kind of hang loose, and have a good time.
I should get an extra stash of this stuff to keep on hand.

[mellowdramatic]

Originally Posted by headbucket

This post is not meant in anyway to insult those among us who chose to expand our psychoactive chemical experiences beyond those of the wonderful tetrahydrocannabinol. I am one of those people myself, as I have experimented with numerous substances. Many of these I can look back on with no regret, knowing that the benefits of the reality they produced can never be outweighed by whatever harm they have done to my body. However, their is one drug in particular that I wish I had never encountered. Adderall has ruined me.

Seeing as finals approach those of us currently taking classes, I thought this would be an appropriate time to post such a topic. I started taking Adderall regularly about four months ago when I finally got curious enough about my girlfriend's overflowing prescription. Because of severe mental illness (diagnoses including Schizophrenia, Bipolar, and Morbid-Thought Disorder), my girlfriend has been prescribed an unbelievable variety and quantity of pharmaceuticals. Until recently, I had kept a fair distance from her meds. Mostly because I would have felt disrespectful in using her much needed medicine for recreational purposes. Regardless, I eventually asked if I could use some of her ADHD amphetamines... just to see what it was like. I LOVED IT.

Adderall made me the person I always wanted to be. Friendly, active, and studious. When I took it, I never just wanted to watch TV. I wanted to write something. I wanted to go for a run. I wanted to engage in an argument. For the first few weeks, it gave me an incredible euphoria, but as I took it more the effects became less noticeable. I began buying from other sources as well as stealing absurd amounts of Adderall from my girlfriend, something I will never understand. I justified this stealing by reassuring myself she had more than she needed (she hates to use it, and only does when she has to). I ended up taking 75-100 mg at a time nearly every day of the week. If one day it happened I did not have it, it was not going to be a good day. I would sleep and eat. That is it. I attempt to quit almost every week, with the longest break being three days long. Somehow, I can always convince myself that one more day is all I need.

After two or three months of consistent use, I was admitted twice to the ER for panic attacks. Something I had never had a problem with before. I also experience extreme paranoia often when outside of my home. I am in fear of being attacked by others. I have to look behind me when I pass someone on the sidewalk. I assume the guy behind the counter has his finger on the trigger of his pistol. My mind fabricates ridiculous stories with no basis in logic.

Adderall does next to nothing for me now. The motivation, energy, and sense of well being it used to provide are nearly undetectable. I find myself sinking into deep depressive states, with and without the amphetamines inside of me. I never thought a drug could have this kind of a hold on me.

I realize that my situation is somewhat unique with a constant supply, but I still felt it necessary to give the warning to others. Adderall is amazing, and it only took one pill to let me know that. I just wish I could have been smart about it. With finals approaching, I am sure to use my fair share this coming week. I know that a number of you will do the same. But do yourself a favor if you have to use it and leave it alone for a while after the exam.


(I appreciate the patience of anyone who got through all that)

+rep, I needed to hear that. that really, really resonated with my fears about taking this and made me realize that I'm right in thinking that I really don't want adderall to become like weed is for me where I get freaked out if I can't get my hands on any (I'm taking a t break very soon, but not until I feel like the dust has cleared sufficiently for me to be irritable, as right now with the way things have been going with friends and family I feel like I'm on thin ice). I'm also coming to the realization that I have more self-control than I give myself credit for, and that if I truly don't want it to become a huge part of my life, then I won't. Thank you so much dude, this is really sage advice and I burst out laughing after I self-consciously posted my abridged-but-long adderall and firecracker ramblings wondering if anyone else could relate. Haha dude, this is too much. You rule

[whywhywhy]

Ugh... I am prescribed adderall, but I hate using it and normally sell half of mine. I hate the feeling while on it and I sweat like a pig in the savanna on it... I can't stand that. I've got a friend who loves them to death, I don't get it though, but I guess it does different things to different people like every other drug out there. I've taken about 30-40mg, but never had any high or great feeling from it. Even tried snorting a few once, I think that was a waste. So, now I just take them as prescribed when I need to.

It really sucked being drenched in sweat when it's 20 degrees and snowing outside.
edit: I don't mean ugh to anyone who uses Aderrall, I just meant my personal feelings thinking about it.

[tiny_riots]

Originally Posted by whywhywhy

Ugh... I am prescribed adderall, but I hate using it and normally sell half of mine. I hate the feeling while on it and I sweat like a pig in the savanna on it... I can't stand that. I've got a friend who loves them to death, I don't get it though, but I guess it does different things to different people like every other drug out there. I've taken about 30-40mg, but never had any high or great feeling from it. Even tried snorting a few once, I think that was a waste. So, now I just take them as prescribed when I need to.

It really sucked being drenched in sweat when it's 20 degrees and snowing outside.
edit: I don't mean ugh to anyone who uses Aderrall, I just meant my personal feelings thinking about it.

There are lots of other things you can take! Go back to your doctor and find the right dosage of the right medication. But, hell, maybe you've already tried everything.

[GhengisChron]

i always check my back whenever i pass someone on the sidewalk. especially at night. i'm paranoid about that shit, alot of people get jumped here. if i'm passing someone or a group on the sidewalk i always have a fist ready.
i never used to, but i took adderall for a while last year and i never thought to associate this with its use.

[emagdnim13]

A good friend of mine from high school was on a SHITLOAD of adderall, and after the doctor's realized that she was abusing it, like 6 years after she'd been on it almost everyday, they just stopped her, cold turkey, one day.

Needless to say, her mental health plummeted and she tried to commit suicide.

Not to worry though, now they have her on several different medications to counteract the detrimental effects of the FIRST set of medications that fucked her up.

[Mr.bubbles]

yeah i love addies but u gotta be careful mane

[Northern_Stoner]

Originally Posted by hypertensionn

I'm curious, I've been prescribed methylphenidate and took all 30 in about 3 weeks. The effects did gradually subside but I did notice that I was lasstired and more productive even though I wasn't high. When I ran out I just didn't take it, and I felt fine, the only thing was that I kind of felt like I was going crazy for a little bit, in the sense that regular things were sort of alien to me. but other than that I was good I didn't drug seek or anything.
I am however going back to the doctor soon and I think I'll be asking for some adderall.

Is adderall alot worse than ritain as far as the after effects go?

Adderall is much more stimulating and euphoric than methylphenidate but the comedown is way worse with Adderall and it's more addictive. It also has more and worse side effects and fucks your dopmine level if you form a habit.
To get a doctor to hand you an Adderall prescription he has to be convinced that you have severe narcolepsy and/or severe ADHD. And even if you have both of those conditions your doctor will still be very hesitant about giving you an Adderall script because doctors know how addictive it is.
You'd be better off asking your doctor to up your dosage of the methylphenidate.

[Buzzwell420]

add and adhd are MADE UP

ive supposedly have had it all my life but, im just lazy and focus on things i like.


adderall and that shit will help anyone focus, it aint no cure.

[sfsc]

I agree with the whole made up part, but if bad to the point where you *need* it to pay enough attention, you really do need it. It's waaaaaaaaaay over prescribed though.

But same here as the OT. I found a full bottle of 30mg IR Adderall tabs (the peach ones) and I did them within a three week span. (60 pills -- It was last year, my senior year in HS.) I did them before school (two crushed up in whatever I was drinking) and then about 20 minutes later I was zoomin' ... grades went up (3.0 to 4.5GPA), actually did my homework and enjoyed it as soon as I got home, did extra credit left and right, payed attention during class, the whole 10 yards. It was great ... then weekends I would snort 90mg or so and just chill on the computer.

Then I ran out and it was hell. I hated it. Got over it eventually, but it's great until you don't do it anymore and then you completely hate it. It took a female friend of mine that slapped in the face that I wasn't the same person when I was on adderall that when I was. I'm the random funny guy that enjoys making fun of himself for a laugh, and adderall made me into a quiet smart guy. That's the only thing that pulled me outta it.

If you're gunna do it, save the shit for a Friday night and leave it alone aside from that. :\

[DokuTheDoper]

The way aderall acts on a person with ADHD is that it takes their ability to concentrate(which they lack) and raises it to the attention span of a normal person. It also controls hyperactivity and energy levels. When someone without ADHD takes the pills it takes their ability to concentrate and heightens it to above normal levels. the down side is that it has known side effects of depression, and it may be the cause of some heart problems. It also curbs hunger.

i can relate with you guys, my experiences with adderall have not been so pleasant.

I have always had a bad case of ADHD and i was prescribed ridilin at the age of 7 because, for example, i couldn't sit still in a seat for longer than 30 minutes. They've been switching up the drugs they perscribe me for years and eventually i got prescribed on adderall XR 20mg (extended release - one pill lasts about 16 hours) because that was the only thing that would affect me. That happened in 5th grade. Around 8th grade i started feeling the side effects. I became extremely depressed and withdrawn from society and thoughts of suicide became normal to me. During 11th grade i had a breakdown and almost killed myself in an attempted suicide by car crash. After that i stopped taking the adderall. Over the years i think that i became tolerant to the positive effects of the adderall but the side effects kept building up. my grades dropped, i had a harder time concentraiting, and i just became more and more depressed. Overall i think the drug is a failure. i had the exact same problems when i stopped taking it as when i started. It only works right for a couple years and then you become tolerant. the only real way to fix ADHD is to practice extreme control. you have to be conscious about every one of your thoughts and actions. thats what i had to do and it works very well without the use of pills.

If any of you guys plan on taking this long term i advise finding a different pill because adderall will only make your life worse.