The GrassCity Confessional

[AaronEbola]

Where I live, my circle of drug buddies have a place we go called the bus to get things done. Ha ha.
Its a retired mobile home, really great place to chill.
Rules of the bus? You act like a dick? We smoke you out one more time for closure, and your signature on the table gets scratched out, and you can never enjoy the bus again.
While on the bus, I smoked out the name of someone I didn't like, and now they'll never be asked back, and this was over a ten dollar debt. Haven't been caught, hope I don't lose the bus. Ha

I accidentally kicked my cat once. I was trying to push her away with my foot but I missed and ended up scooping my foot under her, and throwing her. With my foot...
I've cheated on 2 (well, 1 was an official bf. The other wasn't) people in my life,
I used to be addicted to cutting myself,
& I think it'd be safe to say I'm gender confused.

[BubbleFunker]

I have impure thoughts about sex with dolphins.

[BubbleFunker]

Didn't someone have an informational link on here about how to score with dolphins? I coulda sworn. . .

[Ba1lz420]

My best friend has the worst living conditions and family life of anyone i know,
she doens't give a fuck about her life, her future, or anyone.
She wants to destroy and destroy
She desperatly wants to smoke crack, yeah crack
I argue with her and tell her how fucked up she is, she knows it and doesn't care.
And it kills me, I cry at the thought of it.

[ETEK]

Originally Posted by Ba1lz420

My best friend has the worst living conditions and family life of anyone i know,
she doens't give a fuck about her life, her future, or anyone.
She wants to destroy and destroy
She desperatly wants to smoke crack, yeah crack
I argue with her and tell her how fucked up she is, she knows it and doesn't care.
And it kills me, I cry at the thought of it.

maybe telling her shes fucked up isnt the right thing to do. have you tried talkking to her and finding out why she doesnt care?

[dle_240]

I'm a loser with no friends and i think I have realized I have been depressed for most of my life, not realising what that word really means until resently.

[Ba1lz420]

Originally Posted by ETEK

maybe telling her shes fucked up isnt the right thing to do. have you tried talkking to her and finding out why she doesnt care?

yeah, i've had many many conversations with her and nothing i say changes her opinion, she's pretty dogmatic.
I tell her it hurts me that she wants to do that and she just says well im going to do it...

[dle_240]

Originally Posted by Ba1lz420

yeah, i've had many many conversations with her and nothing i say changes her opinion, she's pretty dogmatic.
I tell her it hurts me that she wants to do that and she just says well im going to do it...

People who say things like that just want attention. Not trying to be mean or anything but I was talking to a couple of my friends about something similar (she always talks about how she is going to do coke again and shit). We were talking about how we had all tried to kill ourselfs (i know, fucked up). So they get to the point of saying that it wasn;t worth it because no one would miss you after your gone. I just told them I don't care if people would miss me or not, i'm just tired of dealing with life and always being in pain, weather it be emotional of physical. When people really have a hard life and want to get away, they don't sit there and talk about it, they are out there doing it. Just keep trying to peep talk her and tell her the positive side of things. She will figure out that thing aren't that bad and that hey, it could be worse. Thats how I try to stay positive anyways.

[grass_man]

Im growing opium

[Diceman]

Originally Posted by dle_240

People who say things like that just want attention. Not trying to be mean or anything but I was talking to a couple of my friends about something similar (she always talks about how she is going to do coke again and shit). We were talking about how we had all tried to kill ourselfs (i know, fucked up). So they get to the point of saying that it wasn;t worth it because no one would miss you after your gone. I just told them I don't care if people would miss me or not, i'm just tired of dealing with life and always being in pain, weather it be emotional of physical. When people really have a hard life and want to get away, they don't sit there and talk about it, they are out there doing it. Just keep trying to peep talk her and tell her the positive side of things. She will figure out that thing aren't that bad and that hey, it could be worse. Thats how I try to stay positive anyways.

I still dont understand the whole killing yourself thing

I would never just overdose or shoot myself. Id get an ak with a drum and unload somewhere where a bunch of people I dislike are untill the cops come.


Killing yourself so you can be missed sounds very pathetic of your friends lol

[dle_240]

Originally Posted by Diceman

I still dont understand the whole killing yourself thing

I would never just overdose or shoot myself. Id get an ak with a drum and unload somewhere where a bunch of people I dislike are untill the cops come.


Killing yourself so you can be missed sounds very pathetic of your friends lol

I was in a really bad situation at the time. And i wasn't going to kill "myself". I was just laying in the street waiting for a car to hit me in the middle of the night when i got kick out of my house. Right as an SUV was comming, my friend called me back and I started thinking str8 again. Although the suv did pass over my head. Scared the shit out of me. Think god it wasn't a sudan or something

And yea, the comment my friend said was pathetic. They think they have a bad life, but... Well lets just say she drives a H3 and doesn't have to work.

[Diceman]

Originally Posted by dle_240

I was in a really bad situation at the time. And i wasn't going to kill "myself". I was just laying in the street waiting for a car to hit me in the middle of the night when i got kick out of my house. Right as an SUV was comming, my friend called me back and I started thinking str8 again. Although the suv did pass over my head. Scared the shit out of me. Think god it wasn't a sudan or something

And yea, the comment my friend said was pathetic. They think they have a bad life, but... Well lets just say she drives a H3 and doesn't have to work.

Well..good thing you didnt. Ya know the old saying :its not what you say its what you do" or in this case "not do" lol

[dle_240]

Originally Posted by Diceman

Well..good thing you didnt. Ya know the old saying :its not what you say its what you do" or in this case "not do" lol

lol, I know right. I just wish I could smoke. Thats the only thing that keeps my illness in check. But I thought that finding a job was more important. No one will hire me though. Guess I will have to start applying at McDonals, Wendy's, or KFC. I'm not saying anything negative about them, it's just I havn't gotten pay under $9 an hours sense I was 15-16.

[PJV575]

Originally Posted by dle_240

lol, I know right. I just wish I could smoke. Thats the only thing that keeps my illness in check. But I thought that finding a job was more important. No one will hire me though. Guess I will have to start applying at McDonals, Wendy's, or KFC. I'm not saying anything negative about them, it's just I havn't gotten pay under $9 an hours sense I was 15-16.

Wow, kinda in the same dilemma I have: I can't get hired.

BTW, your post count is 666


As for my "confession", I am supposedly not depressed anymore but I still think about killing myself all the time unless I'm high. It really fucks with me. Then bad things happen to me and it gives me a reason to kill myself and I want to do it even more. I have no one to talk to, I have no real friends. My one good friend just tells me that "things will get better, you are just too negative" everytime I try to talk to him about it.