Need to get something out

[hookahlove]

Lately I've been thinking about many things.

God for instance.

What is god? God's love is a positive probability affect, i.e. a positive 5th dimensional direction. God's anger is the opposite.

If you don't prefer god, karma is an interchangeable term.

So what role does jesus play in this model? Or what of the other religions?

A few weeks ago I was praying and imagined all the religions on a unit circle, with all religions being at a different value of radians, but god was the circle itself.

Each different radian value would obviously have different cosines and sines which would correlate to different properties of the religion.

Then I thought about how to apply relativity to this model.

If all velocities are just relative, then all positives and negatives are just relative as well.

So how could anything really cause bad karma if one considers it good? If you push an old lady out of the way of a car but she falls into another car, your intentions were good but fate didn't have the same opinion. If you're late to getting to school because of random events, but in the end being late was better for you, was it really a bad thing?

What I'm saying is karma is a relativistic charge basically.

The final frontier of our generation is scientifically modeling religion, and I plan on doing this with my life.

Lately I've been worrying, and somewhat accepting a possiblity of schizophrenia. I've had days where I have an overall paranoid feeling of good friends of mine for no reason, like they may hate me or something. Later I realize these are silly notions and dismiss them.

Another strange phenomena is shivers or chills I get. It's kind of the thing where you walk into a cold room and you get goosebumps, but is triggered by things far from being related to temperature.

Sometimes these chills course through a large portion of my body, sometimes through half or a small percentage of it.

These chills (or as I would like to believe, directioning of my soul through the 5th dimension) are usually triggered by information in the form of videos or text. Sometimes they relate to cannabis, being the tree of life or the cure for cancer. Othertimes I get these when I read about evolution or DNA or related topics. Sometimes it has to do with quantum physics or other things.

It's a type of euphoria I can't describe. Like being lifted or something similar.

Lately I've wanted to kill myself. Thanks for listening, have a happy 4/20.

[Advil]

That sounds like me a long time ago >_> I ended up taking pills and it went away from me so I stopped taking them lol but thats just me, though I have panic attacks and stuff so idk if its the same really.

[Pink Oddity]

(my s key is working like shit so I'm gonna substitute 's' with '5'. Kay.)

5orry but I have to 5ay the fir5t part of that po5t kinda...went over my head. 5o I can't relate to you on the matter, but I can try and help with your 2nd half.
I always feel paranoid. and have several times (yay it's starting to work again!!) felt like I was schizo. Mainly because I'd go off on so many different rants about different thing. I'd be happy as a pickle at one moment and angry at another. Something I found to center myself though is falling in love with my surroundings. like, not thinking about religion all the time. or about my flaws or moods. but instead, loving the sun. or nature. or hell, warm tea. i find that i'm significantly happier every day than i was before. I used to think about suicide then too.
I try not to think and think and think about the hitty thing in my life.
of course this doesnt always work
my .02

[Advil]

I've tried suicide before and I'm not going to say its a bad thing...I just learned about seratonin and the like and it got me thinking that the only reason I'm feeling like I want to die is because my seratonin is low and that its all just chemicals in my brain, somehow it sort of helps.

[shagra]

i get the chills and accompanying euphoria.
your post's all over the place, and i'm mad sleepy at the moment,
but take it easy and remember you're not alone.
don't kill yourself, you're a nice chunk of 3d.

[hookahlove]

Originally Posted by Pink Oddity

I always feel paranoid. and have several times (yay it's starting to work again!!) felt like I was schizo. Mainly because I'd go off on so many different rants about different thing. I'd be happy as a pickle at one moment and angry at another. Something I found to center myself though is falling in love with my surroundings. like, not thinking about religion all the time. or about my flaws or moods. but instead, loving the sun. or nature. or hell, warm tea. i find that i'm significantly happier every day than i was before. I used to think about suicide then too.
I try not to think and think and think about the hitty thing in my life.
of course this doesnt always work
my .02

Thanks, that makes sense. I can relate... I woke up this morning feeling 10x better, dreams always make me so happy. To me they're more of a real life for me than reality.