what the fuck did i do to my life

[negligent]

i'm waitin a) to find a job b) to pay off all my court costs c) to get a car d) to get an apartment

i dont live by myself, i'm sayin thats my dads income.... you can keep sayin shit, but your first post deemed you worthy of paying no attention to.

[jehst]

Originally Posted by negligent

i'm waitin a) to find a job b) to pay off all my court costs c) to get a car d) to get an apartment

i dont live by myself, i'm sayin thats my dads income.... you can keep sayin shit, but your first post deemed you worthy of paying no attention to.

the point of my first post is to say that you are better off than a few billion people. guess that means nothing to you. tell me how many jobs have you currently applied for?

[XUFCshroomeryX]

Originally Posted by Alphå

Dude, listen to me... I've got some advice for ya.

Stop doing drugs. Weed, DXM, BOOZE CIGARETTES.

You gotta give it up somehow. Cold turkey will suck ass, but its one of your options. Seriously, some people can handle drugs and others it just takes over their lives... Its just a bit hard for you to handle.

What you need to do is just stop. Make an effort to right things with your dad. Even if your the victim in situations, you just gotta start pleasing him. People are stubborn. The best way to deal with them is to just be positive about everything about them and when you're around them. Get the negitivity out of your head.

This might take not hanging out with your old friends if they are going to influence you, but dont worry. That means you have more time to be with what sounds like the girl you love.

Just what I'd do...

Thats a nieve comment I would really love to see you try to handle Meth and Cocaine..

[endosmokrWV]

no it wasn't, some people DO have addictive personalities and can't handle drugs as well. plus its not like someone forced him to do meth or crack, he chose to, its his decision.

[mike2885]

we are gettin away form the point of this this thread neg is looking for people to talk to not for people to kick him whiles hes down

i think you got to stop doin hard drug smoke weed every now and then but dont make it i habit

you pretty much know you hit rock bottom so it time to get up and get clean

think to your self whats worth more to you smoke crack or the rest of you life

you seem pretty young you still have time to get you life strait suround your self with people that are goin to bring you up not people who bring you down

try workin thing out with your dad thats your blood

[undead_bunny]

All I can say is : good luck negligent. I really think you can turn your life around. You seem like a very nice person, and I am sad when nice people get stuck into bad situations. Getting rid of the things that hurt our lives is not easy, but it is worth it, even when it feels horible. You have a whole life ahead of you, so you should try to make it better. You have the power to remove the hard drugs and the bad lifestyle from your life (as I'm writing this I can only think about someone I know... his teeth are rotting, his heart is nearly falling apart, most of his internal organs and hormonal system are fucked up and his life expectancy is almost nothing. It makes me sad to see how people can destroy themselves so badly and I wish he could have realized what was wrong sooner and he could have had a good life). Changing is hard, but try to keep hope because at the end, things will be good.

There was this psychologist (more a PSYCHOlogist who liked to humiliate everyone) who made a show on the radio and he often said that "drug addicts were just piles of shit living in our world". What he said is so wrong. Drug addicts are not shit, they are people who made bad choices and put themselves in a "situation of shit". But they are still people, and they CAN wash away the "shit" from their lives. You deserve a good life and I know that you are capable of pulling yourself away from the bad things and start making better choices.

Also, never forget to see the positive things around you. A blue sky, a smile, reading a fun book, picking a fresh apple from a tree... all those things and so many more can give you a bit of help. Skiing, looking at the animals in the pet shop or just drawing pretty shapes like spirals are very powerful "antidepressants" for me. Find great activities for you, so even when you are going through a difficult moment, you have memories of things that were awesome and positive and you can hold onto this.
good luck and stay positive

[Venomous Puffer]

It's tough, we all put ourselfs in some shit situations in some point in our life, some people's are worse but no matter what the situation is if it is affecting your life in a negative way we always try to find a way to fix the situation. I can think of a few things to suggest, aside from the quitting drugs because its been said enough times on this thread already and I think we are kinda beating a dead horse on that point.

So for your money situation:
try to save every penny you can. Sometimes the best way to make money is to not spend it. Everytime you are about to buy something (doesnt matter if it is a food item or a store item or a substance) ask yourself: what would happen if I didn't get this right now? Would it be harmful to my body? Can I buy it later? If you can tell yourself that you honestly would not be affected by not buying that item, then don't buy it.

Sinse you have internet connection there are a few things that it can help you with if you just cant find a job at all. Depending on how much time you waste on the computer anyways, you could try filling out surveys for money on www.cashcrate.com (shitty pay but if you do it enough you can make like 10 - 100 bucks a month. like i said, if ur gonna be online anyways....what the hell right?)
Try to avoid complications with the law so don't "shoplift" but there are ways to get shit for free from stores or restaurants. Never buy drinks. Get a large mcdonalds cup and always ask for refills just say you were there a couple hours ago, works almost every time. Just walk in with the cup and wash it out and store it when you are done. And keep workin on that job man, hopefully you'll find one eventually. and no matter how shitty the job is, try to tough it out day after day and just remember it's still money.

What i would suggest is try to do things to make yourself feel better, Don't worry about how other people view you or what they say about you. All that matters is how you feel about your life. If you get negative feelings while your around your dad, either try to make peace with him or stay away from him as best as you can. What I am getting the feeling of though is that the main problem you have right now is the money situation. That problem is kinda escalating all of your other problems and making you focus in on them. Try not to worry about it (i kno thats a classic line and hard to do) but seriously, life is too short. Do everything in your power to make things better. Things will look up eventually, keep at it and ignore anyone who brings you down. Look up man, things will get better

- Puffer

[Ars moriendi]

Originally Posted by XUFCshroomeryX

Thats a nieve comment I would really love to see you try to handle Meth and Cocaine..

I've had more then my fair share of drugs...its not a big deal to cut 'n run on any drug if you're not a pussy

downed 7 grams of coke and the crash turned out to be nice and life changing in a good way tab after tab of xtc meth bombs and all actual ice... morphine and tons more all done daily for a week or more

I binge and clean up only to binge again

trick to addiction is to have some breathing room cuz we're all addicted to being addicted long as you give the baby its bottle spaced out over on off periods you tend to understand and ride the cravings crashes and such with ease

long as you can live with being sober fucked up or soaring high as a kite in any order any time you're not addicted to the drugs state of mind you're fine with the randomness of it all

no one ever really quits for good...

[just blaze]

Picture deleted because the post it came from was deleted. *RMJL

fuck you man, neg gots some problem nobody wants to hear your shit, shit you deserve an ass whoopin'

'ey man i still haven't read it all, too hard man, my eyes start hurting haha, but from all the posts i'm assumin' you're going to quit doin drugs. whatever you do man you are still my drug encyclopedia. good luck with whatever buddy, if you stop comin' by the forums i want an im every now and then, you're my homie negligent. good luck in rehab, good luck with finding a job, good luck with life man, give em hell

[infiniteawesome]

You can do whatever the fuck you want with your life. With or without drugs, money or not, you are in CONTROL of something that has just as much capability as anyone else: a soul.

The more time you spend dicking around, the less of a chance you have at changing things, it's true, but it's important for you to realize that if you really want any of these things you're searching for bad enough, eventually they'll show up, but you have to want or be driven towards something first before you can even start getting these things.

Think about what you want and how you're going to do it and how you're going to get the obstacles in your way OUT of the way. If these friends of yours are really your friends, then it doesn't matter that they're lifestyle isn't ideal, they'll make sure not to drag you down and even support you when you're down. If they don't do these things, they aren't your friends, and you should be mature enough by now to realize that you truly are alone in this world and thusly, you have to be strong enough to support yourself.

This doesn't mean you don't need anybody, but it definately makes life easier when you're emotionally and mentally strong enough to stand through the loss of love. That's what you're going through and it sucks, but simply put, you'll get over it if you manage to find something, anything in life that you love and do it.

[litta_j]

dude that sucks your having those problems man, my brother had to go threw the same type a shit and it took him about 5 years to actually get back on his feet

[negligent]

Thanks to everyone for their advice and comments (except a select few people) i really appreciate it.


oh and after reading through this it seems like some of you get the impression that i'm a crackhead, haha i aint no fuckin crackhead i just smoke crack every now n then, really i havent been doin any drugs except weed but like i said in my first post the shittyness is cuz of the way i currently live due to my past drug use.

but yea once again thanks to all of you, i gotta go find some places i aint put applications in for yet, n i'm gettin down to shit like mcdonalds, fuck that, i aint workin at mcdonalds no matter how bad shit gets, i'll kill myself before i work fast food

[wakenbake]

Originally Posted by negligent

oh and after reading through this it seems like some of you get the impression that i'm a crackhead, haha i aint no fuckin crackhead i just smoke crack every now n then, really i havent been doin any drugs except weed but like i said in my first post the shittyness is cuz of the way i currently live due to my past drug use.

but yea once again thanks to all of you, i gotta go find some places i aint put applications in for yet, n i'm gettin down to shit like mcdonalds, fuck that, i aint workin at mcdonalds no matter how bad shit gets, i'll kill myself before i work fast food

with that kind of criminal record and past drug use you are not getting a job past mcdonalds anyway so u better get use to it? who the hell steals fog lights? how fucking stupid can this crackhead get thats almost as bad as this guy i saw on the street selling 1 pound of cooked spaghetti for a hit of crack. Its nobody else but the "fuck-ups" fault so quit crying about how your life sucks nobody cares. Hey after all hes probally just lying about the entire story crying for attention like half the other people on these forums.


If you have a problem with the "people on these forums" then exit the forums. It's that easy. *RMJL

[Venomous Puffer]

Just remember, where you work doesn't reflect you as a person at all. Try to grit your teeth and get through it if you have to. If you get the job, go work there for a couple days, think of it as an experience. If you absolutely can;t stand it and you would rather be making no money than some from that place, then quit, but atleast try it out. While your working there keep throwing applications at other places and hope you get accepted.
It's hard though, it might be better to take the shitty ass fast food jobs now, cause when your 40 they prolly won't want your ass. However it turns out good luck. Peace.

- Puffer

[GreenLantern420]

Originally Posted by wakenbake

Hey after all hes probally just lying about the entire story crying for attention like half the other people on these forums.

Well if thats how you feel, then why the fuck are you here?