Just write what's on your mind...

i am very bored right now. I dont really feel like doing anything but i feel like doing something something worthwhile and something i dont know but something thats what i want to do. in front of this computer all the time doing what, nothing. what is there to do, art, listen, speak, nothing. worthwhile thats what i want something. but what. i dont know, same as my career i dont know. same as the future i dont know, same as everything i dont know. what do i know nothing, something. same thing no? all activities are the same, nothing is different. the feeling is that of sameness, of been there done that. been there, how can you be somewhere else when you never move? done that, but still doing it. new, i think. something new. but what is new. new is something i never heard of never thought never seen, and as a man who does nothing but think what else is there new to him. whats the difference in fucking a girl in his dreams and fucking it real life; 2 hours later what is the difference. what is the difference.i want to ride thats what i want to do. i want to ride and go and go somewhere feel like im going somewhere for once even if in reality i am just going to return later. return to the sameness and the nothingness. life is but your ears your hands your tongue your eyes and your thoughts. what else is there besides that, can you imagine something different? something new?can you imagine what you have never seen, never heard never felt? loss of ego loss of self, loss of mind loss of human, to be. just be. how can you step back when your mind has no feet? how can you look at yourself when you have no real mirror. can you comprehend comprehension? wander wander to wander at will, if you wander at will are you not going somewhere? am i smart am i dumb. do i seem like i know it all, do i seem like i have a twinkle in my eye, a twinkle of knowledge?is there something behind that eye, something that calls to you and begs you to listen to what i say? what do you know? what do we know? know isn't even the same, we know we know nothing so how can we know in the first place?there it is, a answer in a question. the question is not the answer but rather the way to it, like a path laid out before you all he had to do was remove some brsuh so it was revealed. i am a blank slate, never read philosophizers, never never read more than the tales of men who stayed indoors. i liked the quality of some nonfiction, but never saw the meaning, just the like a fish in the deep sea i saw the light and did nothing but look. i got the essence then moved on. this very act of what i'm diong, the very essence in the core has been done to death, has been done and done and done and done. there have been many me's, only so many people out there. eventually you hit the lotto, only a couple of rows after all. thats you, boom. a you in a sea of dead and alive you's.what will this you do in this time? what will this you accomplish in this day? does it matter? does matter matter? why should it matter whether it matters? what is this matter word anyway? who made it, whats so special about that him? does he make sense? do i? what have i been saying? am i just a copy of a rambler, a copy not an original but a copy. no meaning if its been done. again; meaning. why? take a breath, inhale history, get it deep within your lungs and exhale, let it go. words have no meaning to me, only vague feelings; i hope i've expressed them well.

edit: Just start writing and don't stop until your satisfied, don't worry about grammar or spelling. Just write the first thing that comes through your mind before your self-made filter changes what it means.

edit2: or just write whatever the fuck you want as most people seems to be doing

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I actually don't recall making this thread, haha ah memories. I do know what I meant by this thread as I recognize my type of rushed writing. It was more of a just start writing and don't stop until your satisfied kind of thing, don't worry about grammar or spelling. Just write the first thing that comes through your mind before your self-made filter changes what it means.

I like that one, I would totally wrap that around various points in my body.