seeing the doc tomorrow

[deezy]

i suffer from panic disorder and GAD, plus insomnia. im seein the doc tomorrow for some meds. ive been takin neurontin 2400mg/day and i was taking ambien 10mg/night. neither of these provide much relief. i was on klonopin about a year ago, but i began abusing it as well as ativan. my shrink knew about this and my old doc weaned me off (took like 3 months). anyways, i really need something that actually works cuz im goin insane, preferably a benzo. do you think it is in my medical records that i abused drugs (i also went to my old doc about heart problems from Rx amphetamine abuse). i think on the safe side i wanna play like ive never had any benzos before. do they ask for your old records? if so do these records say things like abused this medication blah blah blah. what should i do? i really need help on this, my anxiety is so bad i cant leave the house at all without getting panic attacks... any info would be great and try to get back to me quick.

[AllUpInTangles]

I would say it sounds like you already have a habituation problem with sleeping narcotics. My advise; stay away from the benzo's. Those shits are mad addictive and the widthdrawl from them can give you seizures. Trust me, I speak from the first hand experience.

I say smoke weed for your sleeping problems.

[pavlakos]

word, i dont like fucking with that shit. maybe once in a blue.

[NAMushrooms]

As others said, stay away from benzo's. You will quickly become dependent on them and then when you try to get clean you will have the worst week of your life and more than likely end up relapsing.

After reading your post, it seems like you just want them so you can start abusing them again. Why not be honest and tell them you have had problems with benzo's before, then they could maybe try a syntetic benzo kind of like tramadol is to opiate abusers and methadone is to heroin addicts.

If you are sincere in wanting help, you need to be honest with your doctor. If not youll just end up abusing the shite again.

[deezy]

i used to have a problem with benzos, yes. but i also used to have a problem with speed, which i learned to moderate and eventually quit and i have no urge to do that shit again. i would smoke some weed if i could find any but i cant cuz i just moved here. i seriously need something for my anxiety im not just trying to get high, ive tried all the major SSRI's a bunch of herbs, theanine and crap like that and it doesnt work. my anxiety has gotten to the point where i dont wanna live anymore. so if any of you know a non-benzo alternative please say so... if not i'm just gonna go in and say yes, i was on klonopin for about 6 months and i quit because it stopped working. which is true, it did stop working. i dont feel like i had a huge problem i was only using 1-2mgs a day usually, and occasionally taking 4-6mgs for recreational purposes. and im not just looking to use benzos everyday, im only looking to use them for panic attacks, im also looking for something non-benzo to relieve my over all anxiety (maybe buspar or lyrica).

p.s. i have some idea what benzo withdrawal is like, i went thru 3 weeks of hell. constant panic attacks, not sleeping a wink, shakes and all that, so i know the shit is addictive...