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Take a Trip Into My Mind
I find writing poems or raps, whatever you wanna call them, helps me a lot when I'm confused about something in my life or when I'm down or when I just need to let pent up anger go. I was feeling down in the dumps and I didn't know why so I decided to start writing and try to figure out why I was feeling so bad.
Eventually I did and I felt a shit ton better after writing this so I figured I would share my trip into my mind with the rest of you. It's about my inner demons, my memories, my decisions, etc. Some of you can probably relate.
I open my mind to invite myself inside
To the inner chambers where my lost locked up thoughts reside
You must abide by the following rules or else
You’ll no longer be able to access these memory shelves
Number one: Don’t open locked doors no matter what
So you don’t slice my scars and reopen those cuts
Number two: Don’t light up the stove of my regret
Because the resulting fire will put you within infinite debt
Number three: Try not to get lost within my dreams
Because what you think is basic might not be what it seems
Number four: And this is what I absolutely abhor
Is when I give you a tour yet you keep asking for more
And last but not least, beware of the dogs that guard
Because they may look nice but they just might tear you to shards
So now I’m in, I walk down the halls of my mind
A bit shaken up, worried about what I might find
I turn right, walk through the door of my religion
Where Allah and St Michael have duked it out for my decision
At the end, all have fallen and none have risen
Logic has prevailed and promoted my atheism
Dried blood paints the walls a creepy burgundy
And ashes scatter the floor with traces of uncertainty
I see a dull sign that reads “Restricted Area”
The door is reinforced steel with blockades and barriers
As I approach I hear screams and mass hysteria
Which send chills down my spine like an infection of Malaria
Why did I do it, well, I don’t even know
I wanted to leave but curiosity wouldn’t let me go
I looked at the door and it shattered within an eye blink
I guess the barrier I put up wasn’t as strong as you would think
As I enter I notice that the ground feels sharp
The puncture wounds are in my feet but I can feel them in my heart
I’m forced to walk over the shards of broken promises
And on a dream I once had but never followed it
Along the walls are barbed wire covered cell doors
And locked chains and steel balls sprawled across the whole floor
I find the open cell where I used to be locked up
Where I punished myself until my mind said that’s enough
I have bruises and broken bones from being battered and its true
That I have beaten myself up from crimes that I didn’t do
Each cell held a demon barred up inside
Black horned monstrosities that were bleeding from their eyes
Sharp claws rip away at the walls like a knife
And each day they are fed just a little of my life
One demon growled out “You know you can’t forget me
I feed on your soul to cause you pain and misery “
With one more blink that cell door vanished
And the demon sunk his teeth into my psyche like it was famished
I look around me and wonder how did I get into this
I really stuck myself into quite a damn predicament
As my mind goes into lockdown, I think this is ridiculous
I walked in fine but I left with gashes and torn ligaments
Every trip I take in my mind I mess it up
Regret boils over and causes fear to erupt
Pain beats on happiness until anger intercedes
And attacks every hope until dreams began to bleed
edit: I fixed the random smiley faces that were in between paragraphs, when I copied the text over from word the format must have gotten messed up or sumtin
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