How I finally cured myself from depression

[Codone]

Holy shit I could devote a whole smoke sesh to reading that

[mad_scientist]

Wow, that was a very amazing read. I thank you for that. Keep ya head up

[phiegnux]

this is rediculous. soooooo many things in that post reflected my very life (down to the same color impala, mines '01 though.

i also have a very depressive personality. ill go no further than that. but what happend recently that reeeeeeaaaally helped me was probably the best drug experience i could ask for. me and my best friend rollin on E with two chicks (my friend was "dating" one of them, the other was his roomate). we had the best time anyone could have. all in all, the experience basically reminded me what its like to be social again, and not just that, but it gave me the opportunity to speak with those two chicks who i was never really friends with (and i know they love me, i was the one who hooked em up, they'd never rolled before).

[Saltyfunyions]

Nice post man, lot of similarities between you and me

[Demonballer]

damn, I need to figure some shit out in my life... Or maybe I dont need to worry about it, maybe I should just enjoy it while its here and live it. I know I wont have memories of me sitting here thinking about life.. I really need to do something though. I am going down hill fast in all aspects of it. I think I will check out that book for sure. This future shit bugs me the most. How the fuck am I supposed to know what I want to do for the rest of my life? I just want to scratch some wax, smoke weed, and play my mandolin. How is there a future in that? I am not good at playing the mandolin or scratching either. The part about my future is kind of off topic but it has got me down for the past year or two. I hate worrying about it.

[Vashi123]

great post, +rep. was high and read the whole thing, you should become a psycologist or something lol

[codyfink]

damn. i know for a fact that karma will fuck you. ive been a piece of shit to everyone ever since the love of my life in (believe it or not 7th 8th and 9th grade said go fuck yourself to me) (oh and dont anyone say i didnt know what love was, i would kill, be killed, kill a basket full of newborn pups for this girl if she wanted me to) well after she told me to go fuck myself, she left me in the dust completely. just forgot about me. i was a complete asshole to everyone and everything, and still am. both my parents divorced their husband/wife which they blamed on me and my sister. i would just get fucked over AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN. nothing good would go right. i would fail in school no matter what i did, if i got weed i would spill it,(that one really hurts) no attention from girls at all, i am completely alone in the world besides my pets, 360, weed, and internet. my life went completely downhill from there. i would beat the shit out of my dogs and cats because of how bad i felt, and then a half hour later run to them crying about what i had done saying how sorry i was. i never do anything to the pets i have now, and the only one still alive that i beat (a 15 year old pug) i say sorry to everyday and hug him. i dont know what im going to do when he dies. when i found out my sister had liver cancer at 20 and probably wont make it past 21, almost the same time my favorite dog frank died. (i had beat him before i left, and never got to say sorry to him, or even goodbye, because another dog had came up to him and killed him. when i got a phone call that he was dead, i just fell down screaming in the middle of a hotel lobby while everyone stared at me) i didnt eat for almost 2 weeks straight after that. making my mother think she was the worst in the world. i told her its not her fault, but she rarely even looks at me anymore. which makes me feel horrible just thinking about it. my father is as self centered as i am. i had 3 good ass friends, who stopped hanging out with me, not only because i was a little bitch about shit, but i would be a complete asshole to them about stuff. i called their girlfriends whores, got my ass beat by one, and the other recently told me that the only reason why he was my friend was because he knew i was rich and could get $$ for weed very easily. i have a car but no money for gas because everytime i go for an interview the person sees either how ugly i am, or how much of an anti social prick i am. my life is a complete fucking waste. the only thing that brings me joy are my xbox and weed and my xbox just broke. i cant get any $$ for weed because of the job situation. i feel like the worlds biggest piece of shit. i look at the disabled people that ill see every once in a while and just think how much stronger they are then me. they are in a wheelchair, or are blind, and want to keep on living because they know how beautiful life is. and all i can think about is how much of a self centered piece of shit i am. i hope you all cherish life for all its worth. dont be an asshole to people, or be violent even. they will get whats coming to them.

[buzzing420]

hell of a post
read everything while i was smoking a joint and i get
every single point u make
especially about how u just try to be friends with some people but just cant
glad u were able to get out of ur depression
+ rep

[TheZohan11]

I was actually just diagnosed with depression on Tuesday. I don't have the down in the dumps cryingi all the time kind, I got the "everything sucks nothing makes me happy" kind. Good read though.

[Poppa Choppa]

Wow man.. Great post. It must take a lot to throw that out there. I actually now think I might have minor depression.

[Tripple A]

That is a great read, thanks for that. Depression and anxiety kind of tie into eachother ya know what I mean? So I think I might have depression, but more so of anxiety.

[jRuu]

Pretty amazing how curious and how much one can really think about things.
I could relate to you in so many ways. Thats a good feeling . Noticing im hella burnt out, I was pretty frustrated blanking out here and there having to read the paragraph a few times over again, but
wow.

congrats. You have me deep in thought. ( which normally doesnt happen to me a lot )
Im honestly gonna look at that
Spiritual-Path-Buddha-Zen-Tantra book.

[oKayy]

Huge post, but I read it all.
Last night I had a big realization on my life. I'm one of the oldest in my grade, so I'm just not looking into colleges for me to apply to. I've lost a lot of people in my life and started feeling really scared last night.
Well, long story short this helped, a lot.
Thanks for sharing your story +rep.

[k.smith904]

Thanks man, that helped me.

+rep for sure