Betrayed? (rant, long, dont read if you dont give a fuck

[Nexis]

So let me start with some history. I have 2 older sisters, one of them we'll call Ali, the other one we'll call Brianna. I have an awesome relationship w/ Bri. She used to be addicted to coke, and she had a drug problem during highschool. Since then, she has become sober and made a 180 degree turn, and she is doing very well for herself! I'm proud of her...

Ali is a different story... Ali, being the oldest, feels she always needs to be in other peoples business. She has betrayed my trust before by telling something very... whats the word im looking for... scandalous? to another friend, destroying my relationship with him for the most part. I didn't talk to her for 4 months once because she is so judgemental of everyone else. She always feels inclined to give other people her opinion on a subject even when that subject doesn't involve her, and she mistakes being a nosey bitch with being concerned.

Basically, she moved back home (where i am currently living) because of some trouble with her boyfriend. She had changed so much since she got with him, and it was for the worse. Ali is the biggest hypocrit i know! Can i describe her? Yes. A gorgeous outspoken nosey cunt.

Ali moved back in about 2 wks ago. I warned a few of my friends (before they met her) that she was a bitch, a smartass bitch, and would brush off their opinions/views because she thinks shes high and mighty. Up until last night she was acting pretty chill. She even talked about herb with me in a blase manner, like an adult. We talked about drugs for a bit, and i somewhat opened up to her. Later on in the week she caught me smoking in the house while only her, myself, and a friend were there, and she was chill she laughed and walked out. Even if she was pissed i would have apologized and walked outside to smoke (and i did after she came in and left because she respected me enough not to make a big deal about it, so i'll respect her and go outside!)

So here i am all "Wow, Ali has changed for the better, she isnt in everyones business so much and she respects peoples choices!"

Last night i get a call from a particularly gossipy friend stating his friend is gonna sell mushrooms, but his friend is a complete novice when it comes to substances of any sort (not saying you have to be an expert to sell them, but to my knowledge he is picking and selling so it could turn out to be not to pretty of a pic (he sells a deathcap by accident for example) so i tell my friend to chill out and stop trippin, and to bring me a shroom tomorrow (today) and hes like i don't agree w/ you doing shrooms but i'll bring one to show you.

So i get baked, come in, eat dinner, watch a bit of the chappelle show then come back to my computer to check my email before i hit the sack. Well an IM from my friend is open on the screen that says "Why dont u want mushrooms so bad" and the myspace home page is open too with Ali's email entered (so i know she used my computer w/o asking) and my away message was up which means Ali would have had to clicked on his message coming in to read it, therefore snooping.

So i dont think much of it until 7 am this morning where my Dad comes in and flips out, rips the blanket off from over my window, tells me to get the fuck out of bed, tells me random drug tests from now on as long as i live under his roof.... WTF? This isn't like my dad at all.. My dad is an open-minded person who doesnt necessarily like herb, but he respects my choice to do it if im responsible about it.

So he leaves, i help him take out the trash without much verbal communication if any at all. My cell rings and its my mom (whos in the hosp again, coming home today) and shes like "Rough morning, huh?" and im like "ya, wtf is this about?". Apparently Ali saw the IM and narced on me to my parents.

My mom and i start talking about it and i become very angry... My intentions werent even to shroom tonight, i just wanted to see if he had legit product. So this thing gets blown out of proportion and all, i send Ali a text message that says:

"I disown you as my sister for being a narc. This time im serious."

Then i get a call from my dad who leaves a message that says

"Ali just called me and said she doesn't know why you sent her that text, because she isn't the one who found that IM." (he was just trying to take her side because he doesn't want his offspring to hate eachother)

I responded "I'm too busy doing illicit substances to talk right now" (Because he accused me of doing more than smoking herb without even having any proof... now i've experimented with other shit, but everyone has... I don't have a problem.)

He responds "call me when you're done being illicit "

so then i call him and tell him he can't bullshit me and tell me Ali wasnt on my computer because my mom already told me, and i'm not stupid, i could tell she was on my computer.

Bri has my back, because shes my best friend and i tell her everything i do, and she knows im being safe, but everyone else in my family thinks im some drug deuchebag. I'm moving out next yr (07... early 07.), but fuck man, i don't think i had ever even fucking broken curfew once, and now this shit.

My parents aren't concerned about herb

So what now? Do i forgive this backstabbing cunt? I'm sure its hard for you guys to fully understand but there is nobody that can make my blood boil like this bitch... She just has to be in everyones business all the time! Fuck her, fuck the haters.

Peace,
Love,
Nexywboy.

[Rasta_Man]

Family is all you got, bro.

[hardcore_kid]

fuck that. sry to hear about your situation, but if you say your dad is open-minded (somewhat anyways), try and sit him down. show him erowid.org
tell him you research herb and its effects on the body to keep yourself safe, and that there is other information there that a lot of people wouldn't see. tell your father you didn't want to do the shrooms, you wanted to see them and possibly warn your friend not to sell them because they could have killed someone. try and explain that you were trying to keep other "drug douchebags" from dying for getting up with your friend.

GL though, hopefully he will see the light.

[Nexis]

Originally Posted by hardcore_kid

fuck that. sry to hear about your situation, but if you say your dad is open-minded (somewhat anyways), try and sit him down. show him erowid.org
tell him you research herb and its effects on the body to keep yourself safe, and that there is other information there that a lot of people wouldn't see. tell your father you didn't want to do the shrooms, you wanted to see them and possibly warn your friend not to sell them because they could have killed someone. try and explain that you were trying to keep other "drug douchebags" from dying for getting up with your friend.

GL though, hopefully he will see the light.

oh, i forgot to mention. They don't mind the smoking, as long as i'm still somewhat "there" They did their fair share of toking back in the day. Their concern that I will fall into other drugs is natural, and i know they want the best for me, but they have to take a step back from this one. I don't tell them alot of things because there would be alot of unnecessary worry on their part, and they are good people so they don't need that.

Its just this other shit. I'm going to still experiment but i'm not going to become a fucking addict anytime soon.

Thanks for the solid advice.

[Bliz-NATI]

Originally Posted by Rasta_Man

Family is all you got, bro.

He said it all. but she is a bitch for that, i say give her the silent treatment, and act like siblings, like your doing now. that really isnt as bad as my brother letting people in my room, wich i have expensive items in my room. now thats annoying. haha. but anyway, your not overreacting, i think your acting normal about this, if i was in your shoes id just scream at her.

[Venomous Puffer]

u can forgive her maybe but u sure as hell cant trust her. good luck but my advice would be to lock your computer with a password when u go away from the comp, keep your buisiness private, and dont tell her anything cause she sounds extremely immature and ignorant.

[HighHaze]

kinda the same thing here. im class of 07 too. my bro came in from college and smelled weed in my room and ratted to my dad who also thought i did other drugs such as crack. my dad even asked me for my crack pipe like i had one. i have never talked to my brother since.

yea she might be family, but who the fuck cares. if she wants to be like that then just forget her.

[Nexis]

The cunt's plan backfired. I actually just gone done having a kick ass conversation with my parents. I understand their concern since Bri was addicted to drugs, and they understand my curiousity and respect that i'll do research. They asked me not to do them, but i told them i'd be lying if i said i wasn't going to... Overall went pretty well. I love my parents, maybe this morning was just a rough one for em.