After finishing the semester, it was time. I took what I thought was a small amount, but yeah, the mushroom had other plans. Things went well overall, I'm starting to get the hang of this. I realized how beautiful the sunset is.

I had auditory distortions that made it seem like I had surround sound. It was pretty neat.

So I decided after my last trip to tone things down a little bit. I selected 1.75 grams, the 1 mushroom was about 1.5, then there was a little one.

About 30 minutes in I realized I was tripping majorly. Oh well, I was feeling waves of pleasure, and things were moving and breathing. There was a strong breeze blowing over the visuals, which were beautiful and outstanding. I was flattening a little bit, and I seemed to be closer to objects than I really was.

It was a classic...

I ate 22g of fresh mushrooms earlier this evening. I am still not quite sure what happened, and am still reeling from this! It's not a bad thing, I needed it, but it's like, what just happened? lol

The body load was extreme, I've never felt such warmth before in my life. This will likely take some time to digest.

So apparently, I am questioning everything I'm doing. Like I'm not sure if it's what I should be doing. Doesn't make much sense, the ego is going down.

Gotta love that bipolar. Mood swings were up the ass today, more than usual. I don't know what's been going on lately. Massive shifts in consciousness are occuring each day. Do I start drinking again? That would be pretty dumb.

I got all weekend to figure it out, maybe get more normal, we shall see how things go.

Sometimes I wonder if it's even worth it......

Edit: I'm feeling much better about this now.

Tonight I took 2.3 grams of the Ecuador's. Fucking knocked me on my ass, I loved it. The good thing is, I'm starting to accept the shroom quicker in the evening. I think some anxiety and fighting is natural, the ego is trying to defend itself. What the ego doesn't realize is for me at least taking mushrooms does so much for the ego, for the greater good.

Got a fresh 1/2 today, boy it looks tasty. Smokes quite excellent.

Shrooming tonight, I'm going with 2.3 grams. I have plenty to experiment with.

I have a blog? I need to pay more attention.