God I need to VENT!!!!!!!!!!
Posted 12-20-2008 at 07:37 AM by Oddyball
I'm stoned, kina... and this is a little rant of mine. Don't read if you don't want to.
I've had a hard life: abused as a kid/teen. Joined the Army to run away from it all - made mistakes in the Army. Was led on by a girl recently, really fucked my head up over 2 years and now she doesn't care about me anymore. Step dad is certifiably crazy and my mom is 2000 miles away taking care of my grandma. So I'm left alone with his tyrannical asinine psychobable.
So I can't fucking wait till I'm in mississippi. I'm over weight right now, but I was fit in the Army. It feels so bad to hear people call me names now and disrespect me even though I served my country. These cock sucking low life piece of trash around me don't know the hell I went through for 3 years. But because I've been out now for a year, it's okay to talk smack to me because it's been hard for me to find a job and I've gained some weight.
Well when I go to miss, I'm going to run more than I ever did in the army. Eat super healthy and get fucking lean like I used to be. Then when I come back to this hell hole after 3 or 4 months I'm going to get a job and move the fuck out. I remember when I was fat in highschool, and then 4 months into bootcamp I get out and I'm like a machine. Everyone... everyone kissed my ass. I packed on some around the midsection since then, but it's all water weight. I can have this shit off in 3 months and be back here shoving it around these cock suckers faces.
I just can't wait because I know I can do it. In the army I put my mind to it and dropped from 200 to 170 in 2 months just by going to the gym at night. Although now I'm more like 230 - I can still lose it. I just hate how people treat me right now. Everyone in my life is gone. It's the most utterly depressing, alone feeling I've ever felt. My mom disowned me when she shacked up with my abusive step dad years ago. He hates me. I only got my little sis. Friends all are too good for me. Ex has moved on because I don't make enough money.
Oh but NOOOO, when I was a soldier, everyone wanted to kiss my ass cuz I was fit and they knew I had money. I honestly... I've seen the true sides to those in my life and I sit here now knowing that no one... no one in my life but my best friend martin will ever have my back. And none of these fuckers will be allowed to be there when I start making it on my own. Sorry for the anger GC.... I've just got so much pent up anger and hate from being let down so much. But... a bowl will help me. Thanks for reading to those who did
I've had a hard life: abused as a kid/teen. Joined the Army to run away from it all - made mistakes in the Army. Was led on by a girl recently, really fucked my head up over 2 years and now she doesn't care about me anymore. Step dad is certifiably crazy and my mom is 2000 miles away taking care of my grandma. So I'm left alone with his tyrannical asinine psychobable.
So I can't fucking wait till I'm in mississippi. I'm over weight right now, but I was fit in the Army. It feels so bad to hear people call me names now and disrespect me even though I served my country. These cock sucking low life piece of trash around me don't know the hell I went through for 3 years. But because I've been out now for a year, it's okay to talk smack to me because it's been hard for me to find a job and I've gained some weight.
Well when I go to miss, I'm going to run more than I ever did in the army. Eat super healthy and get fucking lean like I used to be. Then when I come back to this hell hole after 3 or 4 months I'm going to get a job and move the fuck out. I remember when I was fat in highschool, and then 4 months into bootcamp I get out and I'm like a machine. Everyone... everyone kissed my ass. I packed on some around the midsection since then, but it's all water weight. I can have this shit off in 3 months and be back here shoving it around these cock suckers faces.
I just can't wait because I know I can do it. In the army I put my mind to it and dropped from 200 to 170 in 2 months just by going to the gym at night. Although now I'm more like 230 - I can still lose it. I just hate how people treat me right now. Everyone in my life is gone. It's the most utterly depressing, alone feeling I've ever felt. My mom disowned me when she shacked up with my abusive step dad years ago. He hates me. I only got my little sis. Friends all are too good for me. Ex has moved on because I don't make enough money.
Oh but NOOOO, when I was a soldier, everyone wanted to kiss my ass cuz I was fit and they knew I had money. I honestly... I've seen the true sides to those in my life and I sit here now knowing that no one... no one in my life but my best friend martin will ever have my back. And none of these fuckers will be allowed to be there when I start making it on my own. Sorry for the anger GC.... I've just got so much pent up anger and hate from being let down so much. But... a bowl will help me. Thanks for reading to those who did
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Man, I can't relate much to what you're saying... but I can say, that I'm sorry you had a fucked up life.
Life isn't fair, but you know that, I applaud not only your service, but your drive to get your body and life back in shape. We're on opposite sites in a somewhat controversial thread right now, but if not for that I wouldn't have read this blog.
Keep on keepin' on..fuck those douchebags in your life, you'll find better people along the way.Posted 12-22-2008 at 12:13 AM by tO thA fAce
- Damn that's pretty rough. On the plus side it looks like you've got a solid plan for how to get back in shape and fix things up.
Keep on truckin man.Posted 12-22-2008 at 11:42 PM by bommer09 - We all have hard times, some more than others. Just think about all the good things you've got going for you, that should make you feel better.
Keep your chin up, and strive for that fucking goal. You're a man, and you'll get through this.Posted 12-23-2008 at 03:19 AM by adamp - alright man i can honestly say that yea i do feel sorry for you for having a rough life but honesty going on a blog stoned is not going to get you anywhere when your stuck in situations like those you need to get off the shit till you got your life in gear im not saying smokings bad not at all i blaze like every day but you need to know when to put the pipe down and get shit done dont just talk about yea im going to lose weight just get the fuck up and do it already manPosted 12-23-2008 at 09:28 AM by meeker810
- Hey man much respect to you
I think i am the only person up in this bitch that can relate to you , I have been shitted on most of my life at school and by many poeple and a bunch of other stuff.
I am actually about to Join the army , I'm over weight I also recently read your thread (army workout plan) and i want to say thanks dude you inspired me big time and i just want to say dude hit me up with a pm if you wanna talk , i would also like to ask you a few stuff (army), on the other side KEEP YOUR HEAD UP!
much love dog!Posted 10-28-2009 at 09:02 AM by Mr.G
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