i just need to rant a bit, ramble... i'm 18 , since i was 11 or 12 i've had this on and off feeling of being depressed. i don't know why, various reasons. things get better, i don't feel down everyday, but i always seem to get back into this state .... its always lingering there, it never goes away. i feel like i shouldn't feel this way, i should be happy with what i got. i don't feel strong.
i love painting, and art.... its an escape for me..... sometimes, but not all the time..... i push...

today i was smokin by myself. i havn't smoked in a week maybe less. i was smoking,.. i didnt finish my bowl i put it away and i was watching some tv and passed out pretty much and it was only maybe around 5, not even. and i woke up like an hour ago. at 11. wtf

but oh well haha :P

oh guys how i remember (and dont remember) haha more then a year ago when i first started smoking alot. i was reading some stories on how people first started smoking the first time they got high. i was thinking about mine. as fucked up as it was it scared me too!

i was sitting on a chair, and i was over at a friends. i closed my eyes for a few seconds and like the floor shifted and i thought everything was a dream i thought it was a dream... i was so fucked. and i tried explaining...

i havnt been feeling to good this week right now im just smoking a bowl which has taken me an hour to almost complete, im still not done but i keep forgetting about it while im holding it.. hahaha so im pretty baked and happy

its good to stay home i think some days you just need a day to yourself.
im listening to good music and i feel better

*does a dance for she wants revenge and hot chip

thank you bestfriend user: (jesusass) for showing me hot...

ive heard you guys say you seen them! but i'm really not sure what they are?

Hey guys. i havn't been on here much due oto my computer being shitty the internet was so slow i had so many viruses, but its fixed now
back to my fav website!!!!! haha!
hows life everyone???? how was your turkey day?
mine was alright.....
i dont know if i have much news. i can't really remember much! seeing as i'm baked so much... my memory is slippin more and more. but its ok.
been getting drunk an awful lot, almost every weekend... Jager. oh, godi love jager....

I was so fucking baked yesturday. i got an 8th for $20, thats cheap. its pretty good shit too.... my best friend came home this weekend which makes it all better. i swear, we smoked at least 8 fuckin bowls last night.. within like 6 hours...or more. it was great. but i havn't smoked that much in a long time. i was so ripped. i felt like i was sinking into my friends back seat, and i couldn't stop moving. haha..
i remember laughing uncontroablly i dont remember what at, but one of my laughs...

this is cool! and niceeee.

i snorted morphine for the first time a few nights ago.the pill was split between 4 people - i was feeling good. it was a different buzz then just weed, after i snorted it i smoked a bowl with them..... i hadmore then everyone else since it was my pill. i sort of want to do more at once. i know you guys say thats stupid.... maybe ill swallow it next time because its bad for your nose.
but i felt good.it gave me a really nasty gross...